"Girl, I can't wait to get our apartment. Only a couple more years."
"**** yeah. It'll have purple walls with our paintings on them, and our mattresses will be on the floor."
"Yes! And we'll have our bongs on the living room coffee table, and a stereo system and a velvet couch."
"And let's get little kittens!"
"Hell yeah baby girl, kittens rock."

"So how are you feeling"

"Okay, alright"

"Tell me why you're here"

"They don't see it like me"

"They don't see what like you?"

"I don't know, things"

"Like what types of things?"

"Like how late at night when I'm writing, little bunnies and birds come out of my walls to be warm and help me"

"That's very interesting, Calli. So tell me, do you have any difficulty swallowing pills?"

I've got my heel to your throat.
Scream baby but the whole town knows
Do you know?
How're those plans comin?
Have those plants grown?
Like a spider with a busted leg,
Bad idea to be in my room all alone
I'm master,
You're just a SIDE SHOW
A top 40,
What a joke.

He asked me
If I wanted a tattoo
And if I did
Where
And I said I wanted a crescent moon
To remind me of September 9th
And how I held that Exit sign
Michael broke off for me
And I looked up
And Joey looked up
And I smiled
And said I want that
I want to capture that moon
And that feeling
On my skin
As a part of me on the outside
To reflect that part of me
On the inside

A match was lit
Just to make it hot in here
But the curtains caught
And burst into flames
And the carpet
What a shame
Poured bucket after bucket
But you loved it, you loved it
Kept blowing on it, on it
Now the bed is on fire
And my head is on fire
And you're a ******* liar
And I'm so so tired
What a shame,
This flickering flame

So strong with an iron jaw
And a backyard love for raw content songs
For a heart in shreds you're one incredible mess
For a girl with vices you're the best there is
With your face all red and a heaving chest
Eyes like curtains on fire saturated in gas
Get angry metal baby I'm here to collect
For a girl and boy with no happy endings yet

I saw you in the light of the Mayfair sun
And the sky cracked open
Wide, and blinding
Bigger than the whole city
Deeper than lighting striking a valley
Hot white silver as my heart
As holy as the ocean
With no end, and no clear start
Velvet like the lines in your palms
Breathtaking as the thread we’re hanging on

A beauty born in May
With eyes like September
Her smile's like June
Hair like November
Talks like August
Dances like April
Skin like March
Mind like December

A painted purple rose
Where it stops nobody knows
A fright night glow
Midnight rock show
Favorite song on the radio
Tell him where his hands should go
Don't look at him at school
Make him think you're cool
Like an ice block on a golf course
All the Cali kids do it too
A failed math test
Meaning no but saying yes
Afternoon nap
Lipstick on your brand new hat
I don't wear lipstick

No pictures
Cause I can't stay still for the click
Well I even break my own rules,
So expect it
I guess "no" is worth the high it gives
Why can't I just behave
Why can't I just behave

I don't know a ton, but I do know the truth
The good girl in me is the bad girl in you
So I'll take your hand,
And show you what to do
An open window
The middle seat in the very best row
The only time that being quiet is fun
Such a good scene,
They'd bet their luck for another one

Round n round,
Round we go
Where we stop I bet I know
You're in my city,
Can't wait till the show
I'll smile sweet then go real low
Circles and circles
And **** it's cold
But I'll stick it out till the Wednesday glow
Gotta remember to chill
Lover like the air I'm chill

Clinking ice all in our glasses
Tapping heels, darkened lashes
And the lights are all out for you
I swore they'd winked knowing what we were up to
"Free all night for a smile like yours."
Well they coughed their drinks
Us dancin the fake shore
And that bikini was so Vegas
Did it anyway because they let us
"Free all night for eyes like yours"
I know what you wanna do
Bein bad is better
When it's laid out on a strip for you

I want what I can't,
Want what I can't,
Always want what I can't have
There is no better side
No brighter eye of my heart
Well I'm gonna get something good
If I'm gonna get hurt
I'm gonna make it count,
I'll get what I want
If I'm gonna get down

I told you I was out front. I was... waiting, watching the back door,  but it didn't open. I heard crunching coming from the other side. Sophie, she looked to me, and I looked to your noise. You came from the back of the house, you had, a giant machete, it shone like, like sharp teeth. I asked you, "why do you have that shoved in your belt?" You said, "some bad ***** goin on, Calli."

Maybe crazy, never stupid
We might think twice,
But we'd never do it
And like daisies to the sun, we grow

He had blue and orange eyes that were black when he's high
And sweet peach lips that turned white
Soft red hands,
That turned gray from the ash
Toes that were purple in the light
A trembling heart,
That glowed green in the dark,
And yellow all under his nails
Slapped-pink cheeks,
A couple golden back teeth
The same shade of black from before in his hair

I know that phone number all too well
The burn of metal all to well
Your speedy driving
Knowing something is so very wrong
I know your yelling like a witches spell
So loud and there's a dinging in my head, a bell
October has it out for me
Get your drinks and your music,
I'm hiding under the covers

I see the shadows out the corner my eye, start trippin and slippin then I realize they're mine, I can't do this two times, already threw out my lines, I won't be the sweet blondie with the watering eyes,  so go head pick a time, can't promise I'll have my head on fine, but I'll try, will you try? I'll be your pretty itty bitty shinin' sidewalk dime

I'm sorry everything got so lost
I'm sorry
I'm sorry we are so lost

I hate feeling like an island with my thoughts, you know? Like you know that feeling where everyone you know is part of that thing you're thinking about that's kinda messed up and removed, and you know no matter who it is you talk to about whatever it is, there's a different point that each person will miss, so you can't actually talk about it with anyone but yourself and eventually it's just like bouncing a ball off a wall so it keeps coming back to you? I bet that's how people go crazy

I keep betting on you,
You keep throwing the game
I've dug a trench just walking in place
It'll rip me to go, burn if I stay
I roll the dice and take the pain
Like getting 22 over and over again
I'm losing my money, I'm losing my grace
I must love how it hurts since I've been insane
I have no excuse for this trip down the drain
Marbles we are,
You're the one that strays
Rolling out of my circle chain

And he said to me,
Punch first and punch hard
In your evening eyes I see winter stars
Cover mine, I'd still know where we are
Pull me in and shock me with your pounding heart
Yes I guess,
Yes it's best,
When moments come in flashes
May your wanting ache,
Your crossed fingers happen
Lover you'll see, I flirt with madness
But I'll never stray,
You've got it all
You're the missed step and the plunging fall

No, *******, I WILL compare drug addiction and being in love, because I've gone through both, and the only people who say you shouldn't are the ones who haven't gone through either ******* one. And uh, yeah, *******

Nothing can deter me from you. You are my July and my Winter, my sweet and sour, my skin on skin and everything in between. And I swear I will come to you, and you will wonder where I've been for so long.

If you asked how it sounded
"Like glass breaking, baby"
"It's cutting my lips, my tongue"
You'd think by now I would've had enough
It's never enough
We both know better
But honey if you ever got lost,
I'd ride the telephone wires to you

And I had to put something here because this ******* website made me.

I'm
In loveee
With the
Boy

We grow up, grow old
So much they'll ask that can't be told
Waiting for our train,
I'm waiting in vain
The tracks are rusted
And I'm getting cold
Can I just write a note,
And let the ink do the talking?
Is it too soon for stopping?
Can you hear my cells popping?
You be the pin, you're sharp as it is
So this is it
No cure for headsick

In a town thats all the same,
Every face knows every face
Excessive gates and lack of grace
Dropping names and playing games

I'm not easily convinced,
Unless I'm the one doing the talkin
I'm not easily obsessed,
Unless it's somethin that's gonna be worth it
And I know how to kiss
But only when I really feel like it
Baby I'm the best
But only for real lovin

So sick of this and that
And movie endings always being bad
And this back and forth
Through a cracked door  
And knowing ill never trust again
And my mom turning the lock
But she can't really walk
Cartoon characters take your place
In this white bed
And my aching head

**** the dogs,
With iron rods
Hold them down and drown them
Chain them up,
Clicking guns,
Like the mafia is heartbroken

Burn the snakes,
A stone cold face,
As I watch the slithering pile
It will **** me when I wake
But the morning seems a while

**** the dogs,
For what they've done
And crying, show no mercy
When I see his pathetic bleeding eyes,
Then I'll know he heard me.

Oh love me, love me!
I want to make you happy
Be your pretty baby
I want to make you proud of me
Your blue eyes will jump
And become like lighthouses
Searching for mine
I'll dress real nice
And put mascara on my wide eyes
That look so expectantly at you
You say, goodnight my queen,
I will be your queen
I will live in your castle forever

When all the cards shuffle,
And hearts are then spades
The best days are gone
With the incoming grey
I'm pushing on the wall pushing me
So unfair, so short
Was the white-hot harmony
You just can't do this to me
Is it the terror or the trees,
Frozen, sharp, and stripped of their leaves,
That is ******* the madness into me?
Five more minutes, mother nature please
I'll curl up fitfully
Clutching my shorts and ticket stubs
Waiting for my babies to wake me up
When again it all reads
100 degrees

It's like when I talk,
He's waiting for me to stop
So he can take my chin and tilt it up
Like shut up and kiss me,
Baby shut up and miss me
'Cause you hear what I say
You look in my eyes
He stares at my face

Hills spotted in scars,
Are mountains all the same
And a sandy ditch
For lovers to pitch
Their thoughts and play their games
Prickly ladies rise above their spikey babies
Glass bulbs lining lanes

Save me with your safety
We both know
Maybe I'm wrong,
And I'll find out late,
Maybe the silence is kind of okay
I second guess, but I feel it in my bones
And I need you like cars need stop and go
Like a light in the sky,
Blue and unknown
That's the air between us
Just as long as you call,
It's cool

Oh I can't hear a thing you're saying
And the water feels great
Maybe if I scrub enough,
My skin will follow the grey down the drain
As long as the door's not locked right?
As long as you can get through the door

Sylvia, Sylvia, tell me sweets
What was it like to write like that
And how did the oven feel
Were you scared? Was it hard?
Did Hughes hit you?
And how was McLean?
Will you pleaseeee tell me
I want to know
How things go
With a mind like that

And he's scrollin through his feed and stops on her picture

No windows, no doors
She's passed out on the floor
Black nails, red toes
Sick from drinking the night before
And the room is on fire
As she's fixing her hair
He doesn't care
Kisses and blisters
Do you even miss her?
Another cut, another scrape
It all bleeds the same
Shut up when I turn the radio up
Just wait till December when your hair is longer
And aches turn to rain
It'll all wash away

I keep my clothes on the floor
And my head in the clouds
My heart in the music
My eyes in the crowd

My skin in the silk,
Sun and warm water
My toes in the rings
My fingers in lacquer

My soul in the streets,
My wrists in the sheets
My hair in the glow
My baby in my dreams

To say that I'm fine
Is so wrong that it's right
But I'll give you hot days,
Unforgettable nights
Smashing glass in the alley,
Tearing cords and ties
Your glowing green heartbeat rhythm
Up and down, jagged sides

My neck feels tight
But it's just you telling me
It's not over

I need a light,
I need a sign
I feel you ripping through my chest with a white hot knife
I fall on the rocks and feel the grind
You've let me down for the lucky thirteenth time
Tell me why,
And I'll tell you lies
Like our sky is blue and my hummingbird
flies
My chest is on fire
And my skin is too tight
I see a fault line in your amber eyes
Holding my wrists,
Should've been our night
Tell me why,
And baby I'll lie

I'll rip her to shreds,
For what you both did
I need to make marks so it won't happen again
Something that says I have the upper hand
Violent red fingerprints around two necks
It's either up in flames, or be a man
You better mean it when you reach for my ****** hands
That held my heart so I could sleep again
That locked in your hair on a dark blue bed
Who's knuckles you kissed when you asked me to dance
I swear to god if I hear that name again
The windows will rattle
The beams will bend
The clocks will fly from two to ten
How could you crush me after all that we said
I meant every word and every second I spent
Watching your mouth, curled into your chest,
Tracing the muscles on the back of your neck
Fighting myself to make sure we would last
You say what you mean
But don't mean what you said
You're an iron brand and I'm solid ice in your hands
Melt me down and freeze me again
Leave me then
Just leave me then

Ten for a ticket, come and see
Or you could bring drinks for three
"Sorry babe, I'm just busy"
Busy with sisters and powder
Taking my time calling back about later
Put my Carmen face on,
Gotta get what I came for
No time to think it through
I did what I had to do

My eyes, they wander like a monarch in summer
And I guess I do understand
But the lovergirl in me,
Wishes faithfully,
To do right by your shaking hands

I tried to say aloud,
I love you and I'm proud,
I suppose skin-to-skin it's true
But when I'm out and all alone,
I'm looking for the best,
When all I should see is you

And I know what they say,
You feel it when it comes
Maybe I will never know
My silver heart clangs,
Fighting with my brain
On whether I should stay or go

And he's always gonna want my best friend

Like trying to tie a string that's fraying
Like the unwanted rain,
We're staying
Beating a horse,
Bleeding out on the floor,
A conversation fading out with sayings
Like trying to fill a funnel with feeling
As soon as we're through, I'm leaving
Exhausted moans,
Never really alone,
The passion and purpose receding