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Butch Decatoria Mar 2016
Part Two
A WALK UNDER THE SEA
_____

BARRIER REEFS

Great Walls dividing
vast cold deeps from shallow seas.
Hail Metropolis!


SEA-HORSE

Pregnant father sways,
rocking-chair to ocean's gait,
champions patience's race


DEEP (BLUE)

How poignant the face,
sunset eye reflect such depth,
I see how you feel.


FLASH-FLOOD

Heat-wave season's rage:
mountains weeping rivers/skies
siroccos will dry.


OCEAN

1.
Undulating thirst
un abiding liquid dunes
not a drop to drink.

2.
Her bright irises
blue Mariana Trenches
cries deep Pacific.


NAUTILUS

1.
Down the lonely depths
in her bowels of pressured pitch
brave, his tiger stripes.
2.
Her inner most womb
where amorphous life ignites
closer to all dreams.
3.
Submarine seashell
in Ocean's wild, gravitates:
carnivore protist.



FATHOM*

1.
Dungeness landscapes:
fear an abyss blindly swims,
(but) in my thoughts you glow
2.
A conflagration
in liquid skies where we bathe
minds a light to see
3.
As deeply precious
a breath that remembers you
soaring dark chasms
4.
Dread at failing Love,
I give a drop in the pond
my life for Gaia...
5.
A magic nation:
love for water will not thirst
imagination.


[ In your thoughts I (will) glow. ]
Butch Decatoria Mar 2016
Part One
WALK IN THE PARK (ON A GOOD DAY)
________


ROADS

Where choices begin,
some are quick to find its end,
wise keep journeying.


STAINED GLASS*

Shattered pieces make
The cathedral of your soul,
stained light still shines true.


WINDOW

Take a peek inside
the lives within kept warm.
Make yourself / a home.


BUTTERFLY

a dangerous thing:
inspiration's fragile wings
metamorphoses.


LOTUS FLOWER

Morning-star-burst-bloom
floral crown on tranquil lake
she walks on water.


NAPE

Warm whispers of lips
down the meadows of your neck.
Sweet familiar bed.


BOMBYX MORI

White mulberry leaves,
its veins univoltine wines
silk, worm's waste of time.


PEREGRINE

Swiftest falcon wings
keenest sight from highest heights
sky-diving arrow.


SWALLOWS

Raindrops' graceful plumes
swift wisps and springs arriving
two tail brothers' breeze.


RENEWAL'S GLEE

Cherry blossom clowns
winsome pink dandruff laughter.
Spring floral snowflakes.


TAI CHI

Dawn's ceremony
wet grass tickling our feet
we wave away *night
.


SOCCERMOM

Mother's sideline cheers
loud for wheelchair legged champ
no goals made red card.


WEDDING

Now that we've fallen,
hand in hand so grippingly,
until death our kiss.


FAMILY CIRCUS

Death defying lunch
life in a trapeze show gasp!
Fights for ringmaster.


PEANUTS

Child's play tricks we played
like pigpen we ***** love
Flight of red barons.


OSMOSIS

Blossoms in Springtime
burst like  Japanese kisses,
how to love haiku.
Mar 2016 · 421
L'il PONDERINGS #2
Butch Decatoria Mar 2016
In all dreams
there is a bright fondness of things
from our memories,
and those whom we love

Light to light and in kind
the dreaming heart will follow

spirit full and souls
with all that once was and will be
whom we are now with later

Every life as One
cosmic dreaming tree,
stars sparkling
with in deep infinite's
space
of sleep

not death no breath
but just like revisiting

a house or an embrace
of first loves / a home

All the times / together
a quiet place called
perfection

where & when & whom
we all get to know
"cheers to recollections"


To the masterpiece
of every brushstroke


that is where all
                             our dreams must go...
Mar 2016 · 348
L'il PONDERINGS #1
Butch Decatoria Mar 2016
Words are only words
and songs sung are words made light

magic.
And what heaven must be like?
When all sounds are only words & music
spoken.

words to who understand and listen
with much emotion
deeply weeps.

Oh wonder what wonders
if we could only hear beyond our ears
without. within.

Sacred is the heart.
What it must be like up there
what Love is symphony
saying...?

And yet we are mad
with our blurbs
verbose verbs absurd

"In the beginning was the Word..."
Word up it was

POW!
Boom goes the dyno-mite
birth and god's kiss

What word could we equal
to carry All that Is

Omygoodness/AllisLightisLife/Is
This.
March 2016
Mar 2016 · 546
EXUDE
Butch Decatoria Mar 2016
EXUDE.




Shine.




Brilliantly.




EXUDE.




     The strength of a thousand mountains with eons old wisdom.




EXUDE.




     Like an Oyster with its prescient pearl's opalescence that it *****. A gift?

     A necklace, a ring, beauty will sing so...




Shine.




Brilliantly.




EXUDE.




     Out into the world. The treasure-jewel that is you.




Precious gift / Light of life.




EXUDE.





Emanate.




                 Radiate.



                 Ooze.

All that is You.



EXUDE.
Mar 2016 · 1.2k
GETHSEMANE
Butch Decatoria Mar 2016
Get in a last word, since silence is golden,
then in the end all that is spoken
betrays the honest truths
the value of sharing a meal
sustenance to feel
fulfilled, now that talk is cheap...

Be more profound to take me aback
like a gust of wind through hallowed doors
to the hollows of burial and sage and prayers
where subservience of love
denies the body of its flesh
to please the ephemeral ghosts...

yes, tell me how deep your adoration's lashes
if all the deserts we've traversed
meant as much as the time of my worth
will it bleed--those words for me?
Are your words as bread or food
uplifting in the roots of you?

I am no shepherd nor are you a herd of sheep,
a flock unable to fly without a mind to think
I am just another king like  any like you
the last word at the rabble
a dying flame from the candles drinking wine,
beneath the sky of olives and infinite eyes
here with the stain of un-seeing
in search for a well that will not dry
for a familiar day of kind of rain...


Tell me what's a good word without one
made   by ****** hand of man,
one that is like music / laughter
a celebration's feast
teach me instead,

and please don't preach...

What worth is made when words are bade
like a trader of slaves to whom he's paid,
or a master in his own house at a maid?
Such business is moot in its absolutes,
                 a kiss on the cheek without a word
multiplicitious and astute
obvious in the eyes of company kept
                  brother in the dark I heard wept

A tree in shadows hangs the rotten fruit

Ananke
dangles like most words must do
from the mouth must taste as dung
often done -- invisible daggers to the heart
untruths
then less and less of brotherly caress

nor some kind of familiar can be found
no infinite wonder

the one and only one

You,
whom I have been
preparing to be made new,
to wake from the pain of this blister
these mirages we hunger and run to,
don't speak what I want to know
I already have seen the final show
and words are only words
unheard by the deaf heavens
selective with their ears to cherubs glee
what is found when the One above
or any of the many stars that see
our globe in desert blizzards,

ill regard as plenty as snow
nothing of the kind, or good in kind,
what word equals

the image of everlasting
Oh
just a sip ...?

There are only so many words
in a universe of infinite light
language can be made like jars of clay

simple like breaking (of hearts and day)

if eyes were speaking through our tears
how loud must we shout "Love"
before there's nothing that's enough
to keep us thusly
home not just merely
an EYE to clear / and still, I am
with you                                         here.

Push away the old world words
that once poured into my cup,
I want home to be as heaven is esteemed
take this cup away from me
blood of transcendant poetry...
Ananke (necessity) one of the first mythological and old form of the goddess mother - who gave birth to the night after coupling with Chaos.
Mar 2016 · 491
ALIEN ANT FARM
Butch Decatoria Mar 2016
A metropolis
between us glass walls, formic
art of consumption.

Eyes barren within
like landscapes of the wasteful
dead as their highways.

From Central Park bench
Dogs walk folk on jogging trail
crumbs of passersby.

Spectacles' dark shades,
Soldier, drone, still hive alone.
They storm in silence.

Window of locusts
In view of our summer fruit,
cosmic flesh so blue.
Butch Decatoria Mar 2016
Just the arrival of diamond light of stars
across the firmaments,
in the heavens - all one heavenly night
how such infinite wonder
coalesce in a canvas ceiling of kaleidoscope dreams
our days not defeated gone
but behind the curtains of twilight glows
a night light embraced by moon-shadows
There is no hiss when the sun sets, sinking
on the oceans west
it swims as a pearl in the deeps of heaven's own
abyssal seas
this is how I imagine  the sun when stars sleep
dreaming of fire swimming,
the unquenchable spirit that is divine
what is must be like ...
to be beside and alongside The Wonder
that is within
You,
Infinite One...

I can only imagine and cross my fingers
that I may dream,
and when I wake, I open my eyes to see the day,
You have not gone
Having Always been
here and now
when evening draws the curtains
navy in the sky
I forget what fear was
because I do not fear to dream of
Lovely Loving
Love

Life is but a dream
just for us.
Feb 2016 · 229
MOTHER
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MOTHER


1. (Labor)

In such pain is love
her voice reaching higher halls
giving birth with God.


2. (Genuflect)

Here to care for you
I am more than man or son
I reflect your light.

(Even when you've gone)
I'm unworthy, in your debt,
when our roles reverse.
Feb 2016 · 436
HOOD
Butch Decatoria Feb 2016
Most Deaf in a mood
take cover Shotty in black
not today Chi-raq!

Loud gang sign-language
take cover YOLO fingers
'cuz ****** is mute...

And bullets are blind
as lightning--strikes down a soul,
Reaper has the hood.
Feb 2016 · 815
BUBBLEGUM
Butch Decatoria Feb 2016
Jibber jabber gobbledee-goo
tittle tattle engenues
verbosely nosey Velcro verbs
sibilant smacks or lips a purse
wealthy whacks stickball whips
no tweet or talk but mailbox spit
gnawing down our chews of cud
converse with street rubber tongues
pinky-swore on Bazooka gum
summer wonder learning none
we Schwin & Huffy bike the day
child hood friends what else to say?
especially at that age...
Teeny tiny laughter dust
we race like Del Mar champion studs
no babble trouble wordy sting
our Super 8 remembering
"look no handle bars!"
our arms for wings
young ole boys California Kings...
Butch Decatoria Feb 2016
Le VALENTINE
                               Red rose and sweet prose,
                               Cyrano De Bergerac 's
                               Moonlit balcony.

MmMmMm
                         Heart-shaped chocolates
                         Each a bite-sized "petite mort"
                         Lifetime on the hips.
Feb 2016 · 338
NAPE (Haiku)
Butch Decatoria Feb 2016
Warm whispers my lips/down smooth meadows of your neck/sweet familiar bed.
Feb 2016 · 298
NASCENT (Senryu) edit.
Butch Decatoria Feb 2016
The ethereal
heart's warmth like newborn fire,
lights within our lives.
Feb 2016 · 237
MY KIND
Butch Decatoria Feb 2016
My kind of company:
the artistic speak-easy lime-light
underground


weaving through brick boxes
the four walls the carpet/floor
up on eaves that hide the heavens
kept quiet like the caged bird

is

flying as it twitters / sings
past pretty prisoned things...

But my kind, he cradles freedom
waltzing through the walls
metaphoric boxes and coffins

our vision

in a waltz, as if the small of her back
were bass strings, gentle passion chords
touch  like braille to blind meaning

while the left hand above the head
always cups hers / perfect and soft
(hands - like a glove)

And my kind, again
she is a smile, like Divinci's fortune
her heart similar to Mona Lisa

is

kept secret (a curve of quiet flesh)

lips purse patience
while the vanity in affairs with airs
of eyes, wagging tails, and talk, swells
out there in the hours foretelling

the lovely song soon touch

beloved

all the feeling --ethereal and divine
as the shadows chime red wines
and woes the proclivity
of cages and walls and travels...

But the kind are
withheld / kept / proper

like abeyance with antique shoes
it
is
unmoved to bother

But my kind
goes on so,
they dance, and they tango
and all are moved as any who glance
upon great beauty
a canvas of poetry
or taste du cuisine

from the heart
springs / of the art / sings
a gentle breeze on an August day

whirling passerby
cooling the sweat from brow & nape
sharing the shade
a refreshing drink

(the milk of Tao)
Enlightenment.

My kind of character,
a kind friend I should think,

is
accepting

is
unapologetic

compliments
all and one another

we thank all
the heavens for
the Light
of our beautiful days.




(my kind rejoice
together not the same)
Edited 2/12/2016 from my blog :  www.Butchdecatoria.blogspot.com
Feb 2016 · 327
TAI CHI
Butch Decatoria Feb 2016
Dawn's ceremony.
Wet grass tickling bare feet.
Wave away the night.
Feb 2016 · 461
BODIES NOT OUR OWN
Butch Decatoria Feb 2016
“The thing about love is that we come alive in bodies not our own”
                      --Colum McCann (Let The Great World Spin)



How often have we departed,
Only to return for those accomplishments
Yet to be attained
in complete relinquishing of all chains.


Doubt is kicked aside like boxer briefs
Allowing our starkness to trust the ease
Of limber flight its heights
when bodies feel more of heaven
removed from themselves

as if an out of body replacement
in each other’s unexpected ache and deprivation


There is nothing more immense of touch
Than to experience it with/&/in another
To become elation and levitation without wings

Love if only a brief conjuring of taste
is better explained in skins met and kept
oddly artistic  - like fetal sleep -  its shape :
Two minds, their temples, composed and content

At their waist:  **** / umbilical / magic spent.
Hearts between them beat, overcome
by rhythms from heaven, sent…

how often than not, have we left such captions
of shared life / ecstasies
to the halls of unremembered
the ill-equipped journeys by the ignorant
by the newly seeing youth that we were

rushing ahead for bigger sensations to better
the previous fun, without caution, defunct on ***
dizzy inside maelstroms overwhelming, yet freeing...

Behaved as anyone would at losing sight
following no roads displaced eyes not to recognize;
all thoughts scrupulous doors, dreams mapped absurdly

fearless Jenga of a life, a leaf in the wind falling from Sky

naïve belief - its all good, yet lonely numb inside
still the hollow hungers and also hurts
misplaced pathos, uncaring of worth your dirt...

How do we evolve without wellbeing or love
why are we, if not measured for the crown of kings?
How often do we listen before our voice is strong enough to sing?


Loving through gifts of our intermingled feelings
Bodies we speak wordless into being, one skein of light
From pitch dark and lost reasons, wakes to its pealing
Night is as beautiful in light’s mystic gleaning
Found in another’s succor, two bodies divinely beaming…
edit 2/12/2016
Feb 2016 · 361
LAST TIME
Butch Decatoria Feb 2016
Can't remember

the last time I made love,

not the quick unarmored ***

gasping in a Friday night urgency,

tearing off clothes

with tiger-teeth and monkey-hands

no, making love:

like a gentle wash cycle

of lips on shoulder and nape,

simple looks of consenting thirst,

gorgeous shape of muscles

sifting into one another

glued in a slow, deliberate,

delicious dance

no conspiracy

no ulterior motive

but to know each and every niche

the highways of sweat and skin...



Can't recall exactly the date

of that last time

but I remember who

and I know how,

still remember those heavy eyes...


these searching hands between my legs


hot breath on my neck,

****--how that had made me melt:

considerate fingers playing deep blues

on my side, of my ribs,

rapacious thirst of oceans

dissolving into my august body

discovering sensitive spots to linger wet,

his mouth, I remember

pink caucasian  smoothness whispering

more & more my name - such authority on the kiss


As we become Las Vegas

bright lights & heat waves

hunger no longer an ache or crutch

I can't remember precisely

that last time I've been touched,

when my heart & soul felt

so much,


but I still can remember

the last time

with whom I made

This, like that

Oh! and How!

He had me

melt...
edit 6/4/2016
Butch Decatoria Feb 2016
THE JOINT
                      For that glaucoma
                      Life gone in a puff of smoke
                      squint's view of your world.

THE CLICK
                     Straight up chillaxin'
                     The coolest with nuttin' said
                     A "G" with the ****.

THE POINT
                      Wussup to all this?
                      An identity crisis
                      Find your peace - in mind.
Feb 2016 · 439
VATTO (Senryu)
Butch Decatoria Feb 2016
Gang signs ink this Blood,
****** in low-ride beamer,
Cool kissing his gun.
Feb 2016 · 348
CROCODILE TEARS (Pretend)
Butch Decatoria Feb 2016
Let's pretend I can read your mind.

What kind of words would you not say,
     whose name would you hide?

What places would you flee, in dismay,
or wish to caribbean-cruise to?

If I could hear your love,
what would it tell me
     that I do not already know?
What kind of fantasies would whisper?
Will your fears be softly moaned,
or scream loudly to be let go?

Let's pretend you knew I could
hear deeper all your silences,

     how many flatteries, there, would echo
like broken vinyl,
a skipping heartbeat, a flat tire... (blown)

Would you still lie, if you knew--that I knew,
still believe them?
Still make me believe you?
(never telling the truth)

Let's say you could
hear my thoughts...

Would you condemn me and herald my secrets?
Command me for your work
     make me a lackey
     or say I'm crazy
to everybody a nobody...?

If you could see through me
or feel my worst hurts,
would you understand \why and how
my heart should burst?

And of course, this is all make believe,
imagination at it's height,
     but true life is another sort
     of story

from our minds' eyes
to witness
to be told :  be realized.

And every tale has once come true:
man now
     flying, cloning,
          in rockets to the moon,

I'm sure my fiction will be
written soon
if not already in that book...

what kind of mood
He must of had when craving
King & Koontz
the idea of me...
           (and god knows who?)

scratching chin
his beard of white
in a bowl of crocodile tears,

playing pretend,
and silent night
with our living years...
Feb 2016 · 297
WELL . . .
Butch Decatoria Feb 2016
It has taken too many
Years of broken
Beer bottles
Porcelain
Pictures frames on the mantle
And promises to not notice

Mr. Glass is now belching
Mumbling songs off-key
In the kitchen
By the sink
From the fridgidaire
To the soundtracks of John Lennon's
Lemonade love songs
Hitchin a ride on Cat's peace train
Or manic for the Beatles
(British Invasion on vinyl)
He has lost his collections
Soaked and ruined
From a flood aboard his battle ship
He reminisces like this
Or as a mud person hippy youth
At Woodstock

Even when tucking himself in
My barely and not legal sized bed
Naked, laying with He-man themed sheets
And grumpy bear
On my pillow, blue...

I wake to find him
Native and fetal
I am too keen to sleepwalk
So I pretend to
Toward the living room couch
Just the right size
For my eleven year old height
I don't mind
But would rather not get soaked
In Mr. Glass' yellow
Miller time dreamscapes
It would be easy
To blame the kid for bed wetting
After every twelve pack
Every couple of hours,
******* in the sinks, slowly
Losing his six pack
And or his composure
To tell tales stories
Even reasons to think ...

Mr. Petty officer (1st class 2nd 3rd)
Has rarely lost his stomach
No stink of *****
Or pools of shrink and scram
Marinated in coors and Budweiser
Weimereiner mountain man
Has his virtues
Or is it a skill?
Mr. Glass keeps it all in
Well
And rocks my sleep
Zeppelin
Half dozing to be fulfilled
I am those nights, nervous
Wreck and awake

Even as he breaks
Down nostalgic in his weeping
My ears become selective
Hugging my pillow
Listening for his fumbling
As he sways and crashes in my room
A clumsy beanstalk
Head in the cloud kingdom
Fe fy fo falling
Down

Well, it's just the broken harp
No golden eggshells
But porcelain mosaics
Beer cans and wishes
Echoes slurring deep in the well
When he snores
I migrate my mind
Away from his hell
I shrug in silence
To its frequent scenes
Yet in the morning
We both slept pretty well
As far as I can tell
From my father figures
Deficiency

All is
So seems
And he means well

Oh well.
Jan 2016 · 307
APPARITION (Senryu)
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
Bold soul in death / glows,
in fears of the dark / nothing,
just the long walk home.
Jan 2016 · 521
ONE SUNDAY MORNING
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
Moan.
      Y a w n.
Purr.

How I adore our meanderings.
Mornings of misfit nomads
waking to the sturdy fur of you,
     pecks, abs, inner thigh
unclad
body heat...

The world outside feels absent,
your hardness
your breath
presently
itching against yesterday's 5-o'clock
     shadow...

We breakfast on such sensations
     satin thousand threads
sifting in grips of sheets
          creating
    silken dunes of flesh creamy hues
soft mounds from our twist
                tied
tethered limbs
then opening passages with kisses
     and humid licks
our lips:
camelback & cobra songs
to Sahara

           Heatwave

where we worship obelisks
until slumber
has rendered us
              stardust and sphinx
mused and fused - our flesh again
in hymns
     this Sunday morning...

Less stealth of night but copious
is touch
         slithering undulations
         of parched needs
for us to swim in the hunger of its seas

Since sensing sensual stiffness
     your shifting
            your shaft
my blood collects
    to tighten what is mine within

When this grabs hold of us
like the blinding noon
we forgive
           that it is Sunday
mourn that I thirst for you.


Such thickets of urges
   juicy sweet confection / completion's
masculine deprevation
         half grin half flurry,
                     No worry
displacing thoughts of infection
secure in our relations...

Stretching with both my hands
behind me
        gripping with claws of the passionate
buttocks raised (waiting for rain)
as if to be seen & named
      by the gods' - creative breath and shame
           I yearn for your embrace
Heaven forgive me
for the heaven he gives me...

Affirmed
as though we were the firmaments
      sky without permission (or air rights)
to fly
comely
and in our rhythmic trance

we become Spartans
(with our war cry)
         Driven
                 Breathing
One defeat
          Shriven as we're falling
One choice to leap.

                          Exhale Olympus
Fallen pillars' hush.

Good morning, Love
   a taste of how Nirvana feels

constellations and the heavenly
wheel.

Stretching.
Eyes open to take in my world.
         Stretching

Behind
Reaching for you

if just briefly knowing the whole truth...
Rewrite. Now a final draft.
Jan 2016 · 559
BIGOT (Senryu)
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
Burning up with hate
like an oil spill on one's soul
heartless mouths pollute.
Jan 2016 · 524
SHOPPING CART LADY
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
She has tender dirt upon her fortitude,

I wonder if she's forgiven herself yet...



Push your grief, shopping-cart lady

carry your health in head-lights

island of hide and highways,

I loud-speak in a single look

you're someone's mother, sister, child

a sorrow-go-round ride

in blankets that have not seen

Gain or Tide

push your millions

pop cans, wine bottles,

tin / glass monies

carry that dynamic dust

each piece a street

each spot someone's ungiving grunt

each step in a nowhere hunt...



She has museums in her silence

I wonder if her love has hues of contradictions...



Push on, you ribald mule!

carry on in your refugee stink,

sandpaper sandals and scarlet scars

scabs that slow speak

each winter and Valentine,

to think you're someone's mother, sister, child

sorrow-goes-round

village-wild

your stubborn pride far from mild



Float on, shopping-cart lady

stay in each hair-pin hour

in this bankrupt ballet

is this a way to live...?

Your hunched shadow

has no voice, no answers to give...



She has blossoms and duty in her hands,

I wonder if fate partners her dance...

pushing that cart, this life by chance



she's someone's

mother, sister, child

a woman who's homeless

no choice for the wild.
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
"Seriously? --you can join a club for that..."

There's a organization / a group / someone
created and dubbed
"Bureau" ...
--for poets, who's art is poetry...
who's passions flow within the blood
the written, the spoken, the ephemeral
"Word"
            the beautiful disasters, the contradictions
which is our providence:
                      humanity aside/besides/
inside Life...
Now all the times awaken - the wide asleep,
still behind the blindly
following / believing
                    their sweet nothings ...
The Bureau makes them official
the authority on Blah blah blah...

(And now the poem. A piece created by-- FishSparrow DreamKing...)


ON POETRY / ABOUT LOVE--YOU



mad-haired alchemist
having mixed two tinctures
wrongly
             such liquids
exploding
whilst hypothesized
unremarkable through the myopia
of every day lies
faces intimate with the thickest book
make out session
with the obtuse / research
a scientific version on finding a clue
the alchemy of madness
       telling who to be / how to be whom
or what to feel when in or out of moods

when poetry is life,
then it is life and love of it that
is absolute truth
the science of awakenings and you...
and the rest of you too.

........

A bureau, hmph
an organization dismissing the muses
and the breath
that we devour

a study on the facets
and romances
with life
              written art works
               spoken odysseys

magnanimous numbness of verbs

magic of lustrous *******
of star crossed
tempests
          evermore a ravenous
soul
Poetry

need not secret societies
or bureaus ...
nor research to categorize or label
with crisis without identity
****** or existential ...
"To be or not to be?" -- the answer is To Be, always to be... just because life is beautiful and awfully wonderful


The heart is only
a lonely hunter
if love were not its prey

to feel free
and truly alive
is the honest purpose

of the written
and the spoken

of poetry
of art  
of happiness

words
dancing the night away
in sonnet streets


who do we endeavor to example

when it is our own pen that must bleed
the maddening truths
that needs combustion
the foreplay of time / life whispering in italics
beautifully
breaking down

laughter's tintinnabulations
all the world
all the life        
            our Oyster...

But seriously tho'
what the dealio...?

when I want to hear
a fearless something
soaked
in the sensual
and is real

so good
the words       bleed    rain
beaus / utter not
those words not words but
but make our kiss
immortal
electric
             the heart's inner watercolor -murals
from the emotions the art  the dreams
intermingling

touching prose of roses
its scent a ghost
thick in the recollection
of farewells

the experiences we parallel
all in literature's Sistine gusto ...
somehow

communication
erected from **** tube boxes
and artifice waves of wide webs

the slang   jive  
secret languages whined
signs and pics
                      depicts / inflicts these times

slays the joy
and lovely words
of tiding  
of wise sayings      you say
with Monet expressions

" you're a lovely day "

ignite me
         (the) Beloved / the songs
the sun
a face of love
a glow


Do you feel me?

* lub dub   lub dub  lub dub*



haiku sonnet odyssey
poetry
that is Life...
                         Today's lesson - (seriously)
                         go learn to fly
                                                  a kite.
for:  the Bureau for Poetic Research... hmm..
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
The severity of the seriously
scientific professoring of poetic licenses

severing limbs

and one's sanity to turn

into a lackluster one dimensional

word

for word

matter of fact,    i.e. Flat.




Now there is research and refined references

like mad-haired alchemists

having mixed two tinctures

wrongly

             such liquids

exploding

whilst hypothesized

unremarkable through their myopia

faces intimate with the thickest book

make out session

with the obtuse...




A bureau, hmph

an organization dismissing the muses

and the breath

that we devour




a study on the facets

and romance

with life

              written art works

            spoken odysseys

magnanimous numbness of verb




magic of lustrous *******

of star crossed

tempests

evermore a ravenous

soul




Poetry needs no bureau




The heart is only

a lonely hunter

if love were not its prey




to feel free

and truly alive

is the honest purpose

of the written and spoken

word

of poetry

of art     of happiness

dancing the night away

in sonnet streets




who do we endeavor to example

when it is our own pen that must bleed

the awful truths

that needs combustion

the foreplay of time / life whispering in italics

beautifully

breaking down




laughter's tintinnabulations

all the world

all the life        

            our Oyster...




But seriously tho'

what the dealio...?




when I want to hear

a fearless something

soaked

and sensual

and real




so good

the words       bleed    rain

beaus

utter not

the words not words but




electricity

inner watercolors murals

from the emotions

this art dreams

intermingling

touching prose of roses

its scent a ghost

thick in the recollection

of farewells




the experiences we parallel

all in literary gusto




somehow

communication

erected from **** tube boxes

and artifice waves of wide webs




the slang   jive  

secret languages whined

signs and pics

depicts inflicts these times

slays the joy




and lovely words

of tiding    of wise sayings

you say

with Monet expressions




your a lovely day

ignite me

         the Beloved / the songs

the sun

a face of love

a glow




Do you feel me?

lub dub     lub dub




the haiku sonnet odyssey

poetry

that is Life...







Today's lesson -

(seriously)

go learn to fly




a kite.
Jan 2016 · 788
MLK Day 2016
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
"I Have A Dream, one day..." - MLK


What preferences did the shackled legs,
the whip gashed backs,
sister-child maid wife
what favorite tastes or memorable tune
did have
those seen as a lesser you?

Far African kingdoms without the murals
or architecture of mathematicians,
or the pomposities of golden circumstance,
no gilded marble halls or pillars
or streets of cold stones
no fashions for the sharp nosed
pallid under parasols
caricatures of indifferent beauty,

rather the abducted men from the other shore
have a realm as fine to witness
if not much more
cathedral ceilings of heavens
ever shifting in days and darkness,
diamonds not found in ****** muddy ground
as priceless and as pure
the wealth not considered but conditioned filth
the wilderness and otherness
abhorred,
the living landscape the abundant beasts
giants of profound creation
gentle and danger - not found but there
the expanse of hot suns' earthen bones
and further back beyond history
these mirages shimmering walls
of palaces that have wind and width of awe
for its halls...
What infant legs that ran with cheetahs
offend, the native cries along the chains
die with the weight of loss
not yet found - the kingdom of suns

the people removed of their crowns

made to hate and sold and laid to waste
ever the more thirsty then
in the wooden boon of ships
on oceans cannot drink.

What choice or gift of eloquent conquerors
allows another a life not lived?
And still ... this kingdom that is the life
we all see
creates from shackles the blues
everything new, no matter how often
the iron grip of times they ****
or assassinate the truth

We can always choose to see
the palace walls of heavens' surrounding kingdom
make soul and food and love
and hip hop

When freedom is absolute
the preferences or favorites once missed
will be no more a hollow well
when life is as equal to the  minds we share
and the times without fear

the lines will blur
because there is nothing more between us
to cross ...


(we all are rich when we have choices
to be free is to raise our voices)
Jan 2016 · 1.4k
SEAHORSE (Senryu)
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
Pregnant father sways
rocking chair to oceans' gait
champions patience's race
Jan 2016 · 340
METEOR SHOWER (Senryu)
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
Friday night space lights,
as we caress the hours,
streaks across the sky.
Jan 2016 · 577
BUTTERFLY
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
A dangerous thing:
inspiration's fragile wings.
Metamorphosis.
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
1.
Monarch lacks her crown
awhile a worm's ugly state,
true beauty (is) within.

2.
Come chrysalis sleep
finest dreams take silken wings
at time of death, born.

3.
New life made to soar
love's bittersweet symphony:
A queen's heart of gold.
Jan 2016 · 444
INSPIRATION IS DIVINATION
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
A wave of a hand
a wand
a wink
             a nod   or  blink

a winged kiss...

You wriggling your nose
spurns me to rub your lamp

I dream of you
as I often can,
           magically and wishfully
divine your eyes

What curse or bliss
to be abused by your smile
from the muse of your wiles
all the while

in our Utopian isolation
no image of what must
or emulation of their love or
such none-such

"you'll die, oh you just must"
dumb struck crush

while we paint ourselves tender
in writhing naked laughter
our own canvas
signed by us...

and only just
ourselves to Van Gogh
"Water Lillies"  and   
"Starry Nights"
       in your blush...

there I can see the future
of your worth
a masterpiece of our colorful theatre
inspiration's lovely birth

in the museums of my lungs
in my life
the art we shape with time
with touch...

what curse or bliss
this wish
come true

a wave of a hand
a wand

                        Our winged kiss.
Jan 2016 · 850
No Succor For The SELF
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
The solicitous Self,
with and in each exchange
of conversation's
     volley of commiserating
                     commissary verbages
words of curbs and gutters,
owns not its guilt
knows not good will
             nor for those whom shatter
in our drowning hours, unstill...


The Self is begging
for your idolatry's bastions,
wants you to find it beautiful
and superior
     above any other

attention and ingestion
gorging and hoarding
     the tid-bit compliments
     the cloud nine glances
succulent smiles / flirtatious lick of lips

the audience pumping up
its hot air ego-balloon
to beach ball widths

     a deadly kind of perdition
     for you, character fool
                    careless and distracted
blase' as a toad on a stoop...

It is a ****

the amorous Self is
     harmless, the beginning seeds
and whimsy / at flowering
in your hands:
              fluff and puff intimations
child-like glee / pleasing / blowing
nonpluss dandelions
nonthreatening
       in ruminations  
       N' stuff...

but like any ****
when it spreads and takes hold
        the real estate of your time and soul
it chokes and feeds
off your serene prosperity
of peace of mind
of identity

a thief of your ideas
     makes your dreams its own

It suffocates all others
behaves with dismissive airs
      like you it becomes
                   you, who has watered
this pest and catered to its musings
      like a sudden sunrise it appears
out of the blue appealing
a dandelion, quaint & demure
                    yet alluring

The ******* that is the selfish
solicitous thorn
knows its own nature
     far too well
hides its hideous
kink so none can warn  
it is a war
      
with Self
the attention *****


Self being compelled
as all else
a parasite to its growth
a virus and its host

what she now only has to give
in return:

assuage
her malingered spell

she breeds in you
     a ghost of once you were
wastrel grime
wasted time
an empty shell

Abhorred.

Careful what the Self
is selling
the solicitudes
of obsessions  
Possession
Suffocation
                     not much else...


No succor for the Self.
Experimental...
Jan 2016 · 415
BOMBYX MORI (Senryu)
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
White mulberry leaves,
its veins Univoltine wines .
Silk, worm's waste of time.
Jan 2016 · 330
FATHOM
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
Dungeness landscapes
fear, an abyss blindly swims
(but) in my thoughts you glow

A conflagration
in liquid skies where we bathe
minds, a light to see

As deeply precious
a breath that remembers you
soaring dark chasms

Dread at failing Love,
I give a drop in the pond
my life for Gaia...

A magic nation
love for water will not thirst.
Imagination.


In your thoughts I (will) glow.
Jan 2016 · 1.1k
PEANUTS (3 Senryu)
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
FAMILY CIRCUS

Death defying lunch
life in a trapeze show gasp!
fights for ringmaster


PEANUTS

Child's play tricks we played
like pigpen we ***** love,
flights of red baron.


EXCERCISE

Samoan in jeans,
bids me a good morning smirk
chews gum as he jogs.
Jan 2016 · 419
SECOND SKIN
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
I find sleep quite amiable

less resistant

after touching timpani and tiger

prowls

the other wilderness

that is yours

and my undoing

after we have done did the climbing

second skins held close

with tender cooing

the miasma of life's (bowels)

howling

bowdlerizing

the sensations of our

everyday heaven

I find sleep more pliable

after a swim

in you

and I taste myself

in the salt of our comingling

skin

swathed in mouths

and prim

rose

fragrant waterfalls

thunderclouds

and rain

in the aftermath

of the climatic victory

within and about

our dance of skin

I am washed away

a tiny death

a cry to heaven

I am naked

when you're not clothed on me

how strange to need

you to swim

I find dreams much better

aloft

my second skin...
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
LIL KALEIDOSCOPE

Peering through her smile
little sister's pinwheel flight
twirling motley skirts.



TOMB

Monuments of yore
stone temple sarcophagi
old gods' buried thrones.


DUSK

Poignant and dark faced:
sinking eye reflect cold depths...
I see how it feels.
Jan 2016 · 1.5k
CURTAINS OF RAIN (Haiku)
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
From a Red Rock ledge
awaits dry flats' desert stage
for wet veils to quell.
Jan 2016 · 833
SEX & LOVE (Spoken Word #7)
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
The mechanics of body language

*** in it's sweet sweat shops

the subtlety:

         skins swiss-navy slick,

****-erotica's evolution - our rubbing

two fleshy sticks

"pill-poppin' easy" this is

                          *** is   a ******

                          a fish    to catch

                                      to release

in bed, in baths - unleashed

defeatist

without and with / in / doors

which revolve

the staccato silence then evolves

      to a symphonic sing-song of meat

a detached unfettered

feast

      from all hearts involved

many emotions unresolved

hatched

      from wratchet tight sheets

      satin security unmatched

yet melts away

with every faltering step

and constancy of fights for validity

      the normalcy of gay circuit weddings

            ******* like mutes

                      under the disco ball

with an open mouth - seal sounds

a chorus of barking for the sea...



Trust and casual conversations - is almost

to keep us stable or sane

no modivational lust

     tho' it speaks without shame

     out of turn

*** is easy, unmaned

         easy to blame

         easy like Kodak / to share, to play

like a multi-player game

hollywood square's celebrity fame

     a flame is our spirit's

     flagrante bane

tabloid worthy paparazzi mud



but Love, oh Love...



To know now love

consider me a deep pond

     an unmoving lilly

unhindered beautiful

love is wrought with fragility

and tinder...



Too much fire without water

can burn us to cinders.
Jan 2016 · 593
THIRD WORLD IN 3RD PERSON
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
What it must be like, I barely can recall
How pebbles wedged themselves
In the skins of those living low in makeshift huts
Mountain climbing garbage heaps.

I am wounded by the blunt service of time
Grimacing through each difficult decision
Allowing others to sip of my life / to derision /
Naught a possible sliding door for my dreams...

Now if you were to travel through the dust
The ransacked tin and bamboo blocks
Third world in third person living conditions
Notice how the children still play

They know no other day or way to grow,
But like the grass through concrete cracks
Which reach for the sky and sunlight,
Life finds a way to go on, blind to all the wrong.

I hardly remember, more often than not,
How it was - to chase the devil through the crux
Pass the alleys where girls lost their wishes
And what it was like to want the strength to defend them...

A red rubber ball is rare to see among the boys
The simple toy that bounces with enlivened joy
But they share it in the moments not forsaken,
Lifting away the weight of their reality as lesser saints

Laughter cannot Don on a mask
It is how God brings the brilliance of hope
What it must be like...

Listening to cherubs laugh.
Jan 2016 · 482
HAPPENED TO YOU (for M.F.)
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
i happened Free-Zone
not to hunt
for coercion or collision
i came to begin
again, without a diet of another
no one to occupy
just myself tonight to slight
yet in the euthenics
of smokers in their alcoholic snares,
in the hotch potch laughter
of girth-guised relics
i notice you
sang-froid solution
against the shriven wall
your own tempered poison in hand
eyes teaching me
how to thaw my disregard
lips in a cruising smile
specific for my purchase
but i was here to forget
the imbrications of lies
the past life
of being bitten


still notice you noticing me
grant no one contours
contiguous to friendship,
not now
on a night of nursing
nut-hatched hurts
when i'm not searching,
i came to drown in drink
with archives of broken vows
new porcelain hearts break
each crack - a lie
each bruise and tear
cut like each cackling
of frozen, deceptive hosts
whom i allowed
assuage
my time a home


tonight i'm learned
my turn
to snick and sneer
my turn to steer the wheel...

they all want me, here
yet you are there:
smooth warning, cool leaning
against the shriven wall
solid notions of promise
which warrants a platform
and so i found myself
migrating toward self
compromise.


i happened to you, then
in your nascent nape
and in my moment of molten need
i genuflect

in prayer
for more than persuasive phantasms
rather overlapping warmth
over joyed
in the beauty of great duration
over that thing most token
defined by trusting
the truths of this emotion
but not too often spoken:
       too early to call it
       a thing
but you happened
to open my wings


L

O

V

E
Butch Decatoria Jan 2016
he craves online hook-ups.


But this isn't me
nor am I that intrepid        
a torrent trampoline
                   on wireless ether engines
                   cyber silver surfin'
zone on / in  .nets & .coms
                   searching fiber-optics for sight
browsing rooms of M4M / in-fantasized delights

an itch to fix
to sit transfixed
as if
subliminally attached
                           umbilically
digitally digitized digi-man
                            to a electronic felatio soundtrack

yet all the while detached
                            lurking duplicitly
reading pretend profiles  explicitly
for ***, sexified mind
dreaming up new fetishes
with misspelled texts
                        tandem testimonials as if written
                        by a Compaq-machine-head
                        Microsoftened lust
currents electric now as we turn into dust
with iBooks & faraway Dells on our laps
scrolling lists for Adams
status' with "anything goes"
                        remonstrating our vicious cycle
alive & blank with un/trust
gone viral...

this isn't me.

where is the warmth
       of feelings, emotions,
malleable and infallible / love??

I am not as talented
as he
          to be in two places at once,
but he
          has the many faces
and genius of multiple personalities
Cybil
facets
   of sabotage with Mommy Dearest grace.
        Beautiful strangers his acquired
              taste...

he says it was not him
(doing ****)

my rage has only one trait.
two eyes                              (once wide asleep in the lies)
and velvet-rope-burned
wrists
my feet learn to fly
my heart un-breaks
my wings reanimate...


he has too many faces
doppleganger hatred
none to care for or embrace

When did I go blind,
         and leave my many strengths?
Where do I now
again
begin??

(The rubble or the sin?)


Every night adieu
Every day anew
                                        once again...
Retitled... once UBIQUITOUS
Dec 2015 · 2.1k
LOTUS FLOWER (Haiku)
Butch Decatoria Dec 2015
Morning-star-burst bloom
Floral crown on tranquil lake
She walks on water.
Dec 2015 · 475
WINTER (New Year)
Butch Decatoria Dec 2015
The heights' sprite lathering lights, wuthering
are quite beautiful this night...

New years' snow : glitter and streamers.
The Strip, a libidinous concrete highway
thick with the tar of dark secret deeds
manhicular silences seeping between the loud
sidewalks, rivers of crowds bleeding into buildings
monuments of fantasy-loss-reaping.

But the sprite lathering lights wuthering in the heights
are beautiful these coldest of nights

Artificial pulsing of Sierra's fiber-optic heart,
desert of dessert trays for hoarders gorging dust.
America turning cold emoji faces: high front gusts
un-empathy a mask for the races
like blank lakes of lack, like Paris
we're still running from them -- fastest of rats...

The city of lights lathering in wondering
is still a beautiful place at nights, wuthering

Yet sin city structures glamour machines by
lustful feeding hands that slight...
decay as quick as worship
like a slow freezing blight,
eyes kept blind in white
renaissance of our modern day *****
a loveless January night...

Hell is not hot fire & brimstones  - it's winter,
souls fall aside if hearts die without
(stars of Orion's center)

I'm just another lion
raging against the splinter...


But the bright lights in the sky,
spritely gathering in the wuthering storms
are all so beautiful at night
on new years' eve, they pause the war...

while every child makes a dying wish
on star light star bright :
a home far from winter
for the king's love not to splinter...
Dec 2015 · 402
WHEN...?
Butch Decatoria Dec 2015
This will end with its beginning. When nothing never was, nor ever will be again. When metamorphosis' of worms to float like blooms of fairy flutter, or pillars of sequoias scraping sky can burn away to char, then from cold thin air or winter lungs of clouds can cry fractal flowers. Nothing comes from nothing, therefore there is always something more, even when our human sight is veiled, preconditioned by what we fear before we learned.

When will we look with not just seeing, peering with more of what is feeling, evolving to feel the pain of leaf and leaving? Cry with our world as it is grieving, heaving with the smog while all else is eaten; when will we realize that this is alive, the blue of all eyes are the same as the ceiling, browns of the soil enriched for seedling, and the blood of the world is not liquid nor spilling. It is the circumference of a heart, a floating castle, and the joy and the lively creates the splendor. The karmic rivers in our considerateness, lifting up to heaven as our worthy witness. See this here, of what we've made?  Rather than say, oh well that's life, **** happens and so it is, say, say, say...

A gift for a gift is given because we cherish whom we are with, when did we forget to celebrate the life that has been given : the basic breath we gulp, and quenching of every thirst, whether deep as poetry, or dry as elephants in desert lakes--we have water falls with queens in their names (yet people are starving and dying, mind you not that far away).
We are able and have enough, stockpiled for winters whether nuclear or Eskimo, yet nothing seems to still be nothing, but then there's peppermint ice cream pies. Starvation in Africa, but dead children do not cry, nor do they--too weak without the food or energy... but then again there's Little Debbie's fudge cookies and marshmallow pies...

And we all praise Ala and Thank the Lord our souls, our being spared of our sufferings, (pipe bombs to and fro) all the while admonishing and bigotry, hatreds and slavery / are given a different face, a dress of expensive tastes. Our only skills are selling wares that is our one time youthful flesh. Because just because we are desperate to have - something more, not having any less than a meal, a roof on four walls, the door.

In god's name we pray... we always see and say and sing and wait... yet nothing is still nothing, impossible I might add, since we are not without we should just all shut our mouths and do something more...

Because if this ends, we are the only ones - all of us - to blame. Not gods, alcohol, or the rain.

What there is to be seen now are dead oceans and forests in flames. Fire and more fire, some in forms of steel, and blades of atrocious acts, and influence of them our holies - accosting us with lies - crapping on our whiles, feeling unworthy because of this chapter / verse, because they're better than that and we are worse. All beneath our noses, defiling our future hopes, in the eyes of our own beloved - turned into wingless birds.

How my love to look upon the whole of the face of the world--becomes desperate pleading for mine vision to be done. When the sights are blindingly painful, numbingly remiss of the hopeful wonder when I was young and a telescope looking up saying this :

"One day I will visit that planet, go flying through the stars... When I'm old enough to be there, where the future are..."

Nothing seems to still be nothing, and never was or could. What is a nothing, when he thought that it was something, to live and just be good?

I'm still here waiting for the beginning, if this is how it ends... a ghost of a poet, with this heart ache and pen...

(Oh Goddess my Goddess...!  When...?)
Dec 2015 · 307
MUCH THE SAME
Butch Decatoria Dec 2015
Belief is like the sensation of a breeze,
goose-flesh like finger tips on our skin

Faith is listening to it roar
yet naught to see from where it cries,

nor with our eyes direct complaint
or worry, both are much the same

Twice  the invisible evidence,
a presence not present but one can elude

there is something more, there, somewhere
out in the wide-yet-to -be-known.

There goes a whisper passing me,
and attend my eyes to watch the gusts

of wind as a witness upon a tree
rustling shaken / limbs creaking / bows

as its old leaves brittle to let go
where they crunch under our giant toes.

Its clear to me, although unseen, there
are much greater things beyond

believe have faith it is absolute like light of day,
to know everything is much too much

Don't lose one's mind to fear, I dare say,
let the sky fall gently April tears

I will drink of it
much the same,

believe me / have  a little
faith...
Dec 2015 · 678
CONCRETE BLUE CHRISTMAS
Butch Decatoria Dec 2015
Three not blind, with cardboard sign
In Bold black sharpie ink,
Reminding neighbors of common mind
Kindly give a drink.

They put together what coins collected
A combined sum of wine or beer
Teamwork in winter cold deflected
Lessens the pangs and concrete tears

The guys are yours and also mine
Uncle grandpas and bro's alike
Vegas Christmas for good guy joe
The traffic lights as mistletoe

Blue concrete here as harsh as snow
With mobile bedroom / shopping cart
Grey as grime of blankets, throws
And layers of sweaters with reindeer art

With what I know and what I lack
Cannot and does not change the facts
They have melted into the city scene
If only I could gift wrap peace...

They could be you, your neighbors' drunk
Who's wives have left them in their dust
I wonder if they are thankful to wake
Or has the morn gone sour in shame

When day is gone, traffic at night glows
Green, yellow, red artificial burning coals
As the ground shines blue and gutter grey
Drains the fight inside as they walk away

We all become prisoners
Unable to make a change
For now at least make it merry
Till the sun returns in May

The cardboard sign reminds the bus
In this moment we are the same...
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