******* stew floating around in my head
at this point now, all I can do is wish I were dead
don't get why I always care what they said.
Work too hard just to get nothing in return

I wanna watch it burn
All the way down
I wanna feel flames
From the bottom, to my crown
I'm surrounded by lies
And a bunch of illusions
Stuck in confusion,
but you all still drink it.

Grandiosity fills my bones with dust
pixies next to my head and they're filled with lust
I'm the knight in my own little kingdom
and everybody wants me
and everybody loves me

I know I can only save myself
everyone's lost, stuck inside this hell
how could you possibly
call it beautiful, honestly?
I know the hive won't be fond of me
because I bring the thing that stings
I can fly with my own wings
I'm a busy, busy bee

I only think it,
but you all still drink it
yeah, you belong in it
yeah, you throng in it
singing your songs in it,
yeah, you spit in it
you're all the culprits,
I'm crawling out of it
I'm so out of it
In doubt of it

I wanna watch it BURN
all the way down
I wanna feel the flames,
from my feet, to my crown
I want to be dark,
I want to be brown
I'm surrounded by lies
I JUST can't get you guys
And a bunch of illusions
Stuck in confusion,
but you all still drink it,
I only think it,
I only fake it,
until I make it
I'm always naked
stuck in confusion
but you all still drink it.

My self-worth is zero,
negative self-esteem
I just want to be
loved in all my dreams
fast to crinkle inward,
curl inside a ball,
life has it's ups and downs
and all I do is fall.

I've been at rock bottom
the bottom of the sea,
for what appears to me
like an eternity.

I slowly crawl upwards
while the tears roll down my eyes
knowing that I'm worthless
in and out of demise.

I can't take my life
why do I even try?
I still can't figure out
why the hell I'm alive

Life is not for living,
you just have to survive.
Seeking out the truth
whilst surrounded by lies.

Piling up the stress,
maybe I'm depressed
I feel heavy and dense,
emotions unexpressed.

I can not cry for help
because nowhere is safe
my own mind is a landfield
and people are a maze.

Having love
is something I dream about
it just feels
so impossible
and no one
understands
what it's like
to no longer
believe
it isn't real

so out of reach
to me
oh, how happy I would be
if i had it
but I might as well
just keep dreaming.

I'm always in my head.

What's even real anymore?

Living in two worlds

Stuck inside the one

That does not make me happy

What if we stayed friends

instead of enemies?

What if you never told me you loved me?

What if I could live and let live?

What if I could forget and forgive?

Don't you just want to get away

from the past and all of the pain?

People never remain the same

But I would love to change with you.

I'd love to get away with you.

I'd like to just stay with you

We can't be lovers, we can be friends

Until the very end

I'm willing to comprimise

If only you'd just be mine.

Don't expect something
from someone you treat like nothing.