Somehow somewhere we belong together
Some how Somewhere
I wanna be right where you are
But where you are is to far
Somewhere you're happy
Some how you found away to live without me
I couldn't find away to let you go
My love for you never washed away
I still dream of a place where were together
I hang on to the past
Willing it to be the future

Under this siren's spell my heart buckles
I want you forever
But time has taking us apart
There's still shadows of you in my heart
I cry out for you in my tears
As a plea for help
But you ignore my pleas

You dont care about me
When tears are in my eyes
What goes on in my life
If I wasnt there you wouldnt care
So maybe I should take my heart
And leave you standing there

The girl that loved you is gone
The love she had for you will forever stay in her heart
She wants to hold on
She can't let go
She wants you to simply kiss her lips
And tell her to stay
She doesn't want you to beg
She just wants you to ask

I want you
And I wanted you to stay
But now that your gone
I want you to stay gone
But I can't stop missing you
So you might as well come back

It was new
It was shiny
They said put it in a case
Don't let it break
You didn't realize he was breaking it
Chipping at it with every word
Every kiss
Every touch
Had nothing but hurt behind it
It isn't a sickness
So there's not a new one
You have to fix it
Mend it
Mourn it
Learn to live with it broken
The ache will always be there
It'll fade with time
But it's there
You'll miss the way he kissed your forehead
And how he used to wipe away your tears
The long talks till midnight
The firsts you shared with him
He was your first kiss your first everything
He took it all
Silly girl didn't know she could fall

My tears pouring down like rain
Running down my cheeks
On a cloudy day
Thunder escaping my lips
Im running towards you in this storm
We've made
You are lost somewhere behind the fog
Running the other way
The storm is getting to hard
So we keep going our on way
Torn apart from each other

He was like a hurricane
Hurricanes at first it's exciting then ends in tragedy
Evacuation warnings warn you to run away
There's a risk of it that keeps things exciting
Drawing you in
Every storm comes and goes
The greater ones they cause destruction
Suddenly when the sun rises again
You're left to pick up the pieces
Before you know it they're gone again
Bound to return the next season
Just as everything is back to normal
You will chase the storm again
Given in to its wind
You crave it
With its exciting destruction

I hate that you've ruined my love for you
That you took something so good and made it painful
I feel betrayed by you

I've got a scar for every memory
Etched up and down my thighs
A different story on each wrist
A reminder of all the pain
I've endured through the years
Written all over my body
I used to regret it
But now I embrace it
Because I'm a survivor

Pieces everywhere
Take what you want
Take her smile and her laugh
Take her happiness
Hell take her sadness
Take it she is practically giving it away
So why not take it
Pieces and pieces
He has a piece
And he has a piece
So why not you take a piece
Take her kisses her hugs and her love
Her shyness her innocents
Take it piece by miserable piece
Why not take it?
She is giving it right?

I never got addicted to the drugs
Every time I snorted it
And felt the burn
the foggiest that over took my mind
It wasn't the drugs
It was the boy that introduced me
That was my addiction
My downward spiral
That's where I lost myself
In his arms
I craved his lips
Not his pills
I wanted his love
Not his drugs

You look into her pretty blue eyes
And you lose yourself
You get caught up in her weird personality
And she forgets that she is supposed to be the shy girl
Because around you she is out of control in the best way
Your like her drug
A happy pill so to say
You make her feel alive

The girl that loved you is gone
You pushed her away
And left her to many times
You let her down
I don't think she will ever be back
We lost her a long time ago

I stayed and stayed
Searching for the man I fell in love with
I couldnt find him anywhere in you
Because you never was the man I thought you were

You called me today
You probably thought I didn't want to talk
Because I was short and hung up fast
I didn't do it to be cruel to you
Or because I didn't want to talk
I did it because I can't handle the sweet sound of your voice
It took me back to old times
Something so familiar and something I used to call home
My heart started racing like it used to
I can't go back to that just to be left again
Just to have to start healing myself again
I can't go back to unanswered messages and missed calls
And I can't shed another tear for you
I can't feel my heart break
I can't feel the pain of you leaving again

Despite all the bad you've done
How you treated me
All the tears I cried
The late nights with no sleep
I did everything I could to keep you
Yet you still left
What I gave wasn't enough
I gave you the world
I handed you my heart you could of had it forever
I was willing to do anything for you
I gave you all my love
I altered myself to be what you needed
I visited parts of myself I never would have without you

I'm reaching and reaching
But never finding what I need
I'm grabbing the wrong things
Love and ***
Alcohol and drugs
Self harm

Those things wont fix you
If anything they leave you more broken

Love and ***
Is just a temporary feeling
That leaves you with a broken heart
Alcohol and drugs
Don't fix a broken heart
It just leaves you with a false sense of happiness
Self harm
Might  help in the moment
But it leaves scars deeper than the skin

I don't need any of that
I need to start grabbing
Love for myself
Self confidence
Self acceptances

I need to stop reaching for the wrong things

They said she was sad
And maybe a little broken
Anxiety filled and socially awkward
Said her thinking was twisted
That she was a little bit of a *****
That she was insecure and weird
That her scars were self inflicted
And maybe she agrees

I met you
My whole life changed
At first it was good
Then we took a turn for the worst
Im broken hearted
Full of tears
I spend my days missing you
Waiting for you
Asking myself if its worth it
If you love me
Second guessing myself

Someone should of told me
When I met you
That in the end
I'd be left with a broken heart
Empty space in my heart
Someone should of told me
I'd be torn apart

Time and love doesn't mix
When I'm with you time flies by
When I'm without you time stops
Im always waiting on another time
I get to spend with you

Time went by
I didn't move on
I just cried
I thought about you
I spent my days loving you
Time went by
You moved on
You didn't cry
You didn't think about me
You realized you didn't love me
And time went by

You take and take from me
Never realizing what your really taking
You carelessly take pieces
Never knowing if you keep taking
There won't be anything left
And when you run out of things to take
There won't be anything left of me

Make me a tree
See the beauty in my leaves
The age in my trunk
Sit under me and read a book
Have romantic picnics

I just want you happy
I want you ok and if that means life without me
Im ok with it as long as you're ok
Because you're my one the one that will haunt me
The one I never really will be over
The one that changed my life
The one that I want happy even if that cant be with me
Even if you hate me or love me or cant handle me
Even if that means a life without you as long as you ok
Im ok with it
Im struggling without you sometimes it hurts to breathe
Sometimes I wonder if you think about me
Sometimes I crave your touch your kiss
Your voice your everything but all of that doesnt matter to me
As long as you're ok
Because  you matter to me

She was a wild hurricane
Eyes as blue as the ocean
Personality like a fire
Her essence made you want her
You knew she was to good to be treated the way you treated her
But you were selfish and wouldn't let her go
And boy she would never dream of leaving you
So you both hung on far to long

I want to leave it unfinished because then no one will get hurt

Should I start a fight
Make rain pour down
Make the sky scream
Light up the night with violent lighting
Then you would see the pain I felt when you left

Memories run through my mind
I close my eyes and I can see your face
And my heartbreaks again
I can close my eyes and almost feel your touch
Your voice I can always hear
For your so close to me
You live in my heart

Im feeling so broken
Drowning in gray
Crushed under my self hate
Smothered under negativity
Wanting more

You can't blame me for what you've done
I can't help you pushed me away
I can't help you traveled miles away from my heart
I can't help the journey I had to take
To make my way back from your mistakes
You don't know the roads I've traveled
The tears I've cried the scars I've earned
The battles I've battled because of you
You don't know my story because you never tried
You can't expect me to feel the same after everything

You left
That was your choice
A choice I had to deal with

You feel like your in my past
I talk about you as a memory
I feel in my bones this is the end
The last memory I have
Is the last one I'll ever have of us
If I knew it was the last I would of paid more attention
Remembered every word of it
Every touch
Traced your face until it was burned in my memory
The last memory we had together is lost

What if I told you that girl over there.
Yeah the one you just complimented on how skinny she's gotten.
What if I told you that that girl is starving.
Starving in so many ways.
Yes she is hungry. In the literal way and metaphorical way.
She is starving but it goes deeper than that.
She wants to be seen. She wants love. She wants life.
She wants happiness. She wants to be pretty. She wants the things you do.
Hell she doesnt know what it is she wants anymore.
Maybe she is just like you in away.
She cant even pinpoint when she decided this for herself.
Maybe it was the first compliment. The first time a guy looked at her.
The first time someone told her she was pretty.
She wanted to be prettier skinnier better.
She doesnt even realize she is living in hell, or maybe she does and doesnt care.
She wants all these things that much. That she doesnt care.
And you are "feeding" into that with every compliment, every look and every word.
She has made herself weak. Weak in so may ways.
Mentally and physically. Now look again. You see it now. Dont you?
You see the circles the tiredness in her eyes.
Now look again you see the sad the hurt and the pain.
Now look again you see that she is me. Now look again she could easily be you.

Another life broken
Adiction taking over
Hearts around you breaking
Nothing effects you
But another hit
In a haze that makes you forget
Your innocents is gone
What have you done
Where did you go
I lost you in the smoke
I cant go any futher
Im losing myself
Trying to reach you
Im getting ****** in
Trying to pull you out

I treat you badly because I'm thinking about myself
Im trying to keep you and thats all I think about
Instead of you and your feelings
Its not that I don't care because I do
And I do think about you
But I let my obsessiveness over take that
I guess Im saying I care in a different  way
I worry and obsess that's how I show I care
Through the same questions over and over
The more I ask the more I care
I obsess more when I care more
Its something I need to work on I know
I worry that I worry to much
And its killing me and its killing you
And I'm sorry for that I am

You live in a box
In a song in my dreams
In my memories in my heart
You my love live in my past
I dream about you
I think about what could be
You come into my life
And leave just as fast
This is not a jump in jump out
Kinda thing
My heart can't take it

I Stopped loving you today
I Replayed all the memories
Confronted all the pain
With rain falling down
I let you go
And Found the parts
I had lost while loving you

My heart says run straight toward you at full speed
My brain says run the other way
I think my heart is winning

Im done with waiting
Im over crying
I don't believe a word you say
Ive had my heart broken many times
By your broken promises
I should of learned a long time ago
Not to let myself fall for your words

What your addicted to
Has convinced you that you need it
You got ****** into a black hole
Disguised as fun
Now you're drowning
Losing your grasp on reality
Keeping you away from the things you want
You choose it over anything else
You let love go
Just so you can be with addiction

When I'm drunk I don't have to miss you
Every sip makes me forget you
Your bottled up in the empty bottles
When Liquor runs through my body
I can no longer feel your touch on my skin
When I'm sober it hurts
Because I remember
Your touch your voice
I remember you
I'd rather not be sober
I don't want to feel you not here

I try to let you go
But your in my dreams
My heart beats your name
My soul aches for your love
I see your face everyday
I think about what we could be
Without the pain
You make me happy
But you you break my heart
With everything you do
I dream of a life where you love me back

I can't forget you
All I can do is miss you
I love you and I can't stop
My heart doesn't know how to

I don't know why I love you
I don't know why I care
I just want you to love me
But I feel like you don't care
Maybe you don't know how

When I'm with you I don't want to go
I want to hold you and never let you go
But you let me go so easily
How do you do it
I could hold you forever

Your always on my mind
I think about you everyday
In my heart you stay
By my side I want you to lay

I want you to leave
I want you to stay
I want you to kiss me
I want you to go away
I want to love you
I want to hate you
I want to hug you
I want to hit you
I want to make you hurt the way I do
I never want you to hurt