You asked me why all my poems are sad
Why they can never be happy
And I looked at you and said I don't know
But you know what the day you left
You were getting your happy poem
I was in the middle of it
So to answer your question
Happy doesn't last long enough to get a poem
I get glimpses of happiness
But never enough to form words
You see a poem takes time
It has to brew inside of you for a long time
Now the happy poem is just
Broken pieces of something that could be
Now its words drips with sadness
Drip Drip Drip
Like the blood down my wrist
Drip

Shy blue eyed girl has your heart
She looks so innocent with her baby face
And pretty blue eyes
When her hair falls in her face
You push it away and kiss her
When you are laying there you hold her tight
She is the kind that people can't help but take care of
It's the face the way it turns red
Her pretty sad eyes
It pulls you in
You can never be mad at a face like that
Some say its a gift she knows its a curse

Carefree pretty faced boy
His smirk gets her every time
His smile melts her heart
Even his voice is cute
The way he calls her baby girl
He makes her feel high just with his smile
Everything about him gives her butterflies
He helps her thoughts make sense
She can say the craziest things
And he can make sense of it all
The way he smells like cigarettes and something else
Drives her crazy

Are they ready for it
This crazy ride that's about to happen
What we have is weird
But I know it's true
I don't think its possible to fake something like this
It drives me crazy the way you make me feel
How did I live without you
But even more how did this happen
Im falling for you slowly
I want to go as fast as I can
But we need to slow down
To make it last

Im not strong enough
It's not gonna be ok
Im broken
Im not saying that one day
I just shattered
I broke piece by piece
I felt every painful piece
Fall to the floor and then shatter
Im not saying that I'm special
Or that my problems are worst than yours
Im just saying I can't take it
You can call me selfish
Tell me I throw fits
I don't care
You don't understand me
And you never will

Just kiss my haunted lips
And now you're haunted too
With my haunted thoughts
Darkness engulfs my mind
But you're the only light coming through
But now it haunts you too
How does it feel to share my ghost of the past
To know wherever you go it's there to
You can never let it go because it haunts your mind
When you think its gone
It haunts you even more
If you let it consume you
It will become you
And we cant conquer it because we don't even know what it is
All I know is it haunts me and now it haunts you to

Im scared to drown
And be left there on the bottom
While you are floating on the surface
Would you jump back in to save me
What if I drown you trying to save myself
And were both left there gasping for air at the bottom
Because you would try to save me
It's who you are
And I would try to survive
That's who I am
And when our lifeless bodies float to the surface
Were still holding hands
Because you never let go and neither did I
It's not fair
We died because one didnt want to get hurt again
And one just wanted what he felt

The knifes to her wrist
The pills in her hand
The tub is full of water
She is a terrible person
Never should of been born
So she's just righting the mistake
Right?
No wrong done here
Just fixing the problem
Without her you'd all be happy
So don't mourn her
Forget her
Like she was never there
Erase her from your memory
That'd be better right?
So she takes the pills
She drags the knife across her skin
She sinks down into the water
She is gone
No more wrong

She's the girl that doesn't know how good she really is
She thinks her freckles are to much
You think they're cute
She thinks her hair is to messy
You think it's ****
She thinks her **** is to big
You think it's perfect
She thinks your biggest mistake was falling for her
You think the best thing you ever could have done was to fall for a girl like her
She doesn't believe it when you tell her she is amazing
She doesn't see it
All she sees is the improvements she could make to improve herself
She doesn't see the girl you do
She sees a blue eyed freckled faced awkward kid
She doesn't know how good she really is