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 Sep 2015 Brian Payamps
Styles
They say;  nobody is perfect.
Problem is;
         you aren't nobody.
 Sep 2015 Brian Payamps
Eriko
sitting in place very, very still,
underneath the glimmer of the sky,
the liberals have arrived so don’t try to think,
I keep the strum of ruined heartstrings and pluck to a gateway bliss,
we all live and swim through sickness of strife as misfits,
pursue the gawking geese careening in the big blue sky,
look there, there we all point to the everlasting feast
the sheer of pretty pink and dripping orange marmalade skips a beat
I squeeze my knuckles so they go white, spending hours in the bright light,
oh how my lungs yearn for the touch of cold, cold sky breath,
caress the dazzling light which pierces through a curtain of death,
yet everyday spinal chords whistle out of tune
and painted carriers go out and dig out those buried runes,
so before falling, I look into irises and their missed faces
Yet, I only end up scratching the slippery opaque surfaces,
and those heartstrings render and contort, visions passing over the horizon
and those smudges of graphite I use to write are frightened,
leaving traces in the music I must have mistaken
as my own
I relinquish control of others
and assume the role as leader of myself

I feel a throbbing for self gratification
and I'm going for it
pushing and kicking
until I get what I came for

Love is my feeling
I control it
******* too
they're all mine

I feel a need for freedom
so I'm packing my bags
and leaving town with the wind
 Sep 2015 Brian Payamps
Styles
I
loved
you so much
that it
hurt me even more
I
loved
every second of
pain, I
came back for more
A lot is on my mind,
It is making me cry.
I try to hold it in.
But he notices then.
I was always proud of you
you were my hero
To watch you grow old
forget your words
repeat yourself
is a painful experience
I was never prepared for this
but time is altering us
so I keep my distance
preferring to remember the past
when I was so naive
and you
still tall
Soft s
Hard z
Warring names
Like warring nations
Soldiers in and out of filled
Train stations.

Letters March
Up and down
Filling pages of
Notebooks bought brown
Math was a bite and a bore
English is her light and her lore

She never wrote love stories out loud
Because a twice uttered spell could cause her to drown
Deep in a sea of serpentine slopes
That the people called  loves, dreams and hopes

But she did color with her mind
A clouded sky
Steeped full of orange and pink painted chai
The cup was bitter but sweet
A chance for two lovers to meet
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Now he is gone before she could sleep

Slumber is simple
Unless you are on watch
Watching your watch for another
To stand notching his clock
Never Relieved of duty
her names never ceased fire
The letters are looting
Abased of greed they get their fill
Filled full of slumber and pills
 Sep 2015 Brian Payamps
SMN
my father broke my heart
before any guy ever had a chance
it’s hard to trust someone
and to let people in
not because you are scared
that they will break your heart
because part of you know they will
i mean, that’s what you’ve grown up with, right?
but also because you don’t wanna
risk that chance of hurting yourself
you’ve learned to protect yourself
by distancing people from you
it’s the easy way out, but also
the safest for yourself

*(s.m)
Forever we shalt be
King and queen;
Mine Reyna, mine soul
Mine sweet Jane nagley.


©Brandon nagley
©Lonesome poet's poetry
©Earl Jane nagley dedication
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