As I lay in my bed
I feel you curled in the arch of my knees
Sighing softly
Waiting for me to awake
Once I make the slightest move you’re up and ready
Ready to start the day

I still hear the click clicking of paws on the kitchen tiles
Running to make sure you didn’t miss anything
I still feel the dewy kisses you used to leave on my face

I imagine and remember your fur intertwining my fingers,
The weight of you in my arms

It’s hard to get the others to sing without your whining to start the chain

I can’t look at the stone with your name on it without picturing you becoming the earth
I miss you to the coming of my voice
“Cookies” and “let’s go bye bye”
It’s not the same without you here
“Go get him, Elie” I hope you are watching down on me

I stand there...

See you.

These times are not like time before these now broken nights.

I reach out...

You're close...

So close,

But you are too far away.



Forbidden to stare, Can't even care,

No touch...

I can taste how hell is like.



One tear, Shatters my cracked heart.

Your eyes meet mine...

Finally.

& I can see your soul.



Your eyes hold me ransom to myself,

& freeze me where I stand.



Guarded emotions bring me down to my knees as I take you in.

Timeless kiss... Ends to soon.

You leave me wanting more.

But you are gone.



I'm left empty.

Confused.



Feeling in need of something...

Of you...

You hold the key to my pain,

My love...



You keep my sane.

But I'm left hurt and nothing to gain.



This is me without you.

What I feel like when thoughts I have of you wander through mind.
Day by day the sensation that lurks through the ever so deep and long cold halls.
The deep consciousness that strikes the failing heart going to rest

The aroma of trickling juice running down a peachy child’s chin.
The thick humid air you smell on a raw day when the rain just stopped

The fuzzy velvet impressions between your fingers as you hold your lover close.
Flavor of soft lips flushed and longing, waiting for that special someone to touch.

The creeping behind you making you look around,
The sound of the piano being hardly played,
The wishing you could get away,
The surprise waiting around the corner…

Deep and purple…

Hiding away from the world behind a mask
Masking her untouched porcelain face
Face of pain face of hurt
Hurt by the scars and secrets of the past
Past stabbings of her fragile heart
Heart aches at her sacred fate
Fate that kisses her sweet skin and brushes her glossed eyes
Eyes dulled with lost love so beautiful yet disguised
Disguised with her compromise
Compromising her feelings under a blanket of fear
Fear of love fear of hate
Hating you
You in your disgrace