They say love's a big word, but I think I know better
Cuz it's only 4 letters
I don't see what the buzz be bout
Love is drug and this drug have you tripping out
Straight hallucinating, seeing things that ain't been around
They claim love is blind, well that's partially true
Because you're blind to the crap that they do towards you
Like cheating, deceiving, misleading for no reason
And they still have you believing 
That you don't wanna be leaving
But retreating is your best option
Or at least a start
Cuz if you stay then they'll find a way to shatter your heart
Cuz your guard's down and your head's all the way in the stars
But they're still on earth, looking for the one with better cars
Jewelry, clothing, anything worth cash
This love thing is crazy, if you still call it that 
Cuz I ain't seen real love but I heard of it tho
And the story on hand began a long time ago
You know girl meets boy
Boy likes girl
Boy wants to give that one girl the whole world 
And the girl loves boy cuz the boy had hell to pay
Gave up his time and money just so he can make her day
And because of boy's actions the girl is so happy to say
"I love you boy", and the boy replies right away
"I love you too
Yes my love is true
Will you agree to be my wife"
And girl says "I do"
And they live their lives
Then their hair turns gray
Then she dies his wife
And he dies unswayed
By any other woman that crossed his way
It's sad to say that this love is nonexistent today 
Because boy meets girl
And girl is a bop
And the girl wants his heart
But the boy wants the top
So she gives it to him praying that she can see the day
That they're married with kids in the house across the way
But boy ain't thinking that far
He only want the pink
And then he get that late text later on in the week
She said "bae I ain't bleeding down there"
He said "what you mean?"
She said "I think I'm pregnant"
He said "I gotta leave"
And girl starts to cry cuz she thought their love was everlasting 
Now she's a single mom and all her dreams are in a casket
And boy chilling looking for his next target
This isn't love, it's a drug in an unstable market.

Alone
Out of my zone in my own home
I gave my lover my heart
They dropped it and now it's broke
Man
Who woulda guessed
The one who took away stress
Would return it after a while for style
Caused my tears and my smiles
Then ran away
Why ?
Don't wanna feel the pain I got
Thought they would stay
Wow
Supposed to heal this pain I got
Now I just stare
Out the window panes a lot
And tho it's sunny
I realize that it rains lot
I'm feelin gray
Depression is here to stay
Cuz you wanted to play games
That happened in my brain
Mind games
Mind tricks
My heart is not your gift any more
Give it back before it can't be fixed anymore
Irresponsible lover that's who you are
Oh you disagree ? Do you not see these scars
Not on my arms dummy look at my heart
Right above your name, I used to see that **** as art
Now to me it's just a tattoo i regret so much
What happened to us baby ? We were oh so clutch
And my heart was in your clutches
Then squeezed, then crushed it
And yes I feel the pain but in the end ill learn to love it
Get lost
Get gone
I have healing to do
And my feelings for you
Have been sealed by the truth
Of the fact that my heart is not your toy
So gone in the world so you can break some more 
Cuz I'm through

The devil wears prada 
Yet his daughter drives Bugatti 
Cruising down the fast lane
Seducing everybody 
Reducing human bodies
Recruiting for illuminati
Promising *** and fame and giving all the souls to papi
And I ain't too proud to say that this demon almost got me
Her good looks and mystery were just enough to rock me wild
Everything about her had me profound
Long hair, perfect smile 
Wayne and jays, perfect style
Boats and planes, she gets around
In every way you thinking bout
Her ***** lips are open doors
Everybody's in and out
She got a phone full of young men
And they all want her
Meanwhile she in her whip telling them to swerve
Up until they feel desperate enough to give that girl the world
And she takes it
And ruins it
And makes their life congruent with
The hell that they will soon know when Seducila is through with them
But when they find out its too late 
Through the legs of Seducila they meet the Devil's gates to stay

2 million thoughts on my mind at one time
I try to think of 1 and another seems to find
A way
Into my brain
And it changed 
Me from sane
To insane
On this really dark grey
Kind of day
I sit back and pray on it 
But he never answers
I've come to think that god has set himself some higher standards
And I'm depressed
Cuz my distress call won't get replies
And I can't help but think that everything I learned was lies
And at the same time 
I'm thinking how time could fly
If I was one of those non thinking stupid guys
Because no matter what they do in their entire life
A thought never goes by about being sly
For them it's do or die
Or do and die
A million things can happen while your shooting for the sky
Man you never know
What if while lift off, your rocket engines just go ahead and ******* blow ?
Up, there go again !
Thinking bout some random ****
After a while, man you know I'll start demanding ****
And the crowd'll make it seem like I'm the man and ****
Then I'll have to act like I ******* planned this ****
Knowing well I'm just over thinking 
With my note pad, I capture it and start believing
That this curse is a blessing and Im finally seeing
The Over-thinker's just a poet, and the poet's me

Tommorrow's just a day away
That's what we tell ourselves to push through another 24 
But does tomorrow ever come ?
I mean today becomes yesterday
And in a way we gain a new today 
But tomorrow constantly becomes a prize that noone has ever won
It's only today's screening
I wanna see the day
When tommorow's so easy to obtain
That these temporary forevers, that we call "todays", somehow explain meaning
Meaning meaning the reason that we're here
I mean I know your scared
Aye I'm scared too
But we can't stay parked in this place when it's time to shift into gear
Cuz a temporary forever is just that
And when it starts to fade, everything just seems black 
Until you see that light
That's all white for some reason
And you've left yourself behind 
And you know there's no turning back
Your forever has ended 
How you end it is your business
I just pray that you didn't blend in
Because then your forever turns into one like another million 
But a million forevers becomes infinity
So your forever like the rest
And this forever is permanent 
Because a stopping infinity doesn't exist
So now your forever was wasted because tomorrow was never reached for
And its sad because you still think 
That the only thing between you was that last 24

Alone
That's how I feel very often
Sitting here on my own 
Til the day I'm in my coffin 
Double crossers run they mouth more than water in a faucet
And these ratchet *** hoes only want what's in my pocket 
Foreal 
All these fake *** ****** claiming they yo friend
But in the end everybody know its just pretend 
Unlike the demons that I see in every empty room
And the reasons why the world is stressed from work and shrooms
Every season 50 people on Milwaukee news
Dying cuz they tryna find a way to get around the rules
And it's funny
Well it's really kinda stunning
Cuz they tryna make that money
To see they kids make it out of school
Now ig they'll never see that day. 
Why ?
Cuz they died tryna get paid. 
Wow. 
They lived for the same thing they died for. 
Blood drips and now they the one that millions cry for. 
But last week he was knocking on every single door
Asking for donations for his child and nothing more
But they snickered and lied on they doorstand 
And now they sniffle and cry for this poor man
The three types of people that I mentioned before
Are the same people behind all those knocked doors 
The double crossers were friends that wanted new friends
The ratchet *** was his unsupportive girlfriend
The fake guy
Was every person that cried
When they found out that he died 
But mocked him while he was alive
I don't want those kind of people around me
That's why I claim my loneliness so proudly 
That's why I'm lonely in this world with no poise
Yes I'm alone. But loneliness is my choice.

I used to love it when it rained
Inspiration sang to me
Cloudy days were brain movies
Now I hate to see the days when
Nothing's going right 
And everybody on spite
And I turn to ***** sprite
Because its been a tough night
And I would go and smoke
But I never been the one to spark lights
The fight within me has me slain 
These whack decisions have me shamed
Truth be told I feel insane
I swear I stay outside the box 
But my emotions have me framed 
The games the same 
My people changed 
The ones I trusted most are now the ones that I push away
But, I really wanted you to stay 
I wish you'd come back just to say
That "I'm sorry man I've been so stupid"
And id accept you cuz I'm going through it
Say your opinions have changed
And our friendship is saved
Cuz I can't live another day
In these heartbreak chains 
That I wear here today 
Cuz these poems I make
No longer heal the pain now
And I don't think they ever did
It was just a way out
A way to go and vent
And a way to bring my doubts, and regrets
And upsets
And my frets
And the pains within my chest
On to paper to suppress 
All the reasons I'm depressed
And I would hide them in those sheets of paper 
Until I wrote what happened next
But I'm running out of notepads
And depressions turned to stress
My broken heart is now a crest
That I wear not so proudly 
It's like a scarlet letter
That won't move without me
Removal is impossible
The more that I embrace it
The more my tears turn to rocket fuel