The problem is, what if I already had the one?
The best relationship I was ever gonna have.
What if the reason I'm alone, is no one compares to how amazing the last one was.
What if I'm so scared to make the same mistakes and lose yet another one?
Loneliness isn't just about waiting for the better one, it's also having the best one and finding it hard to move on after.

Our Lust for flesh Has got to end
No empathy for human kind
The digital eye has made the world blind
*** craved teens to
Marching hybrid death machines
Ending our suffering
With Satire life memes
No need for begging
We have apps for that
Taking selfies with our cat
At the tables playing craps
Gambling our student loans
"Don't worry mom I'm grown"
Buying time we will never own
School never prepared us for this
Every new drug we take creates bliss
We don't have time to mourn our loss
Even if it comes at great cost

Counting back the days
Counting, counting
Now it's a blurry haze
Cigarettes and Midnight silhouettes
Fueled my teenage years
It's time to fight these tears
Counting and counting
Walking home till dawn
Passed out on mother's lawn
Oh what a disgrace I've became
Counting, still counting
My skin and memories
Are like prison bars
Just strong enough to hold me
Not the  life momma wanted or fancy cars..

My father left me one night
Not saying a word
Running away from the fright
Of living in a lonely world
Left his kids back home
To find the love of his life
We'll sit here till were grown
He is still chasing his wife
Lone traveller lost again
Romance will be his last
Love of a woman he must befriend
The demon still fights with his past
The dance with the devil
In the pale moonlight
Is better than living with the evil
In the darkest of night
I hope he finds what he searches for indeed
Even when he comes back
Us kids are still left in need...

He never spoke about his feelings
They were his to hide
The best kept secret
Till he was too late
Hand in hand
With another man
His dreams
And thoughts of desire
With her
Started to disappear
He could hear the echo
Of laughter as they walked further
Might as well been fate
Mocking him for his mistake
A secret he will keep to his grave