3.

Stomach sick with the dizzying amount of guilt, *****-inducing vertigo
Mental crash, relapse, insanity
Apologizing to the gentle breeze
In memorium- for all the words that never graced my lips
In reality's waking eve- my eyes awaken to the truth of my inner soul
Years of solemn apologies lie up around the next bend in the river
Has my halo burnt out again?
Gaze into the divining mirror to see (you)
Faceless image replicated back, the horrorific façade continues...

2.

Nights of terror I shivered relentlessly into a cave of diamond tears
Endless years of burning a candle simultaneously, shifting, changing me...
The revolving art of destruction,
Beholden soothsayers can rest in their vagracy graves, old bones to finite dust
Claustrophia's curse has got me suffocating
Dead hands grip my throat unable to breathe
Serpentine tongue flicks as my world comes melting downward
Remorse over fears and resentments
Mornings of madness when my insanity rose
Drummer boy at war, battle songs must rage on (even) in misery

1.

And in those moments, he grew-
Not because of any material success
But the extistential fear of failure,
The fear inoculum, the fear cage
Pinpoint anxiety paralyzes the mind and body hangs in suspension
The quiet four walls are sliding closer
The momentum of ages he built
Sand castles in the hurricane's roar
Functioning sinkhole, it was only time
Black holes keep pulling me into the darkest corner of stars
Micro (the space in between )
Macro (the space that remains)

A drop of rain in a hat
A pebble dropped into a hurried stream
A muted ripple echoes,
Reverberation into the balmy seas
Where jaged nightmares turn to    
  the nicest of pleasantries

Let my warmest hopes
  and even warmer daydreams by
Saturate my soul with
  Nature's calming heart beat
May well-wishes & surreal worlds
  pull me up against the currents deep

Surreal, the new breath of wings,
  as they steady, as they wander,
  where ever they may flow-
  new music begins, inside of each  
  other
Every emotion feels brand new;
life just started to crackle with
electric for a solitary few-
like a brand new box of paint colours

Sweetest love poured out like cool water
  against a heat wave
Poetry read to me as unspoken Wisdom
Words flow like a mysterious birthing    
  of a goddess by twilight-
Gather my helium thoughts floating
  up above all this negative apathy,  
  o glowing euphoria! my soul, new
  sight!

Imbibe. Intoxicate.
Burn it all down again
Like another pyromaniac

Another empty promise
Another spell is broken
Strong willed but oh the compromise

Forevermore to be candle lit-
A lantern to those stuck in the Dark
Weight of the World but still I lift it!

Immortality lies just ahead
The golden war among the gods...
Better in the Land of Living, than living in my head

Another detour, another crash
Craving sugar delight-a drop so sweet!
Oh the wicked battle-I can never outlast

Reality shock, time runs out (tik tok) on the clock
Just another day, another stroke until midnight
Eyes still betray, the smirks always mock

Smoke in the lungs, fire in the blood
Veins go black, fist in the pocket
Dilated irises- take me down into the flood

Like David & Goliath-behead the heathen
Separate the wicked from the elite
Will you be at home with the Angels?
Or down below with all the Demons?

The driving rain, the driving rain
The bone drenching kind-
The wound licking sting still feels the same
Heart quivers slow as rain fills the still lungs
The moon hangs low in the distance
The resistant rivers rise in reverence


Torrents of aqueous onslaught persists
Vertigo-inducing car lights pierce the sight
Wipers on windshields hum a discordant sound
The symphony of thunder endures above
Silhouettes of shadows slink in the corners, hear their ghoulish moans- lo!
As the ultraviolet lightning strikes the underground, such a luminescent glow

Woodland creatures emerge to the edge of the forests clearing
Summit's glory, ascension of such a panoramic wandering
Potions of mushrooms array, white sage absolution, musky phantoms abide by air
Cleansing by fire, embers i breathe, i imbibe, i inhale treasonous poisoning
Earth rumbling delight, warring gods continue as narcisstic skies burn
Honor bestowed for Natures hallowed urn

Isolation
Oscillation
Facilitating Oblivion
Quiet melancholy tears
Fascination with electricity
Frozen rivers chill to the edge of bone
Caught inside the darkened current
Drenched in the technicolor reality
Constructs of psychics & gravity tested
Reeling from the pandemonium
Disguised amusement, digital guillotine
Caught inside the wild enclosure
Solitary are these barred eyes
(Ravenous are the wicked, vile wolves)
Evolutionary path of an apex predator
Facsimile of a copy, no god founded in science
The piercing grind of gears incessantly announce volumes produced
Flashing lights & colours contrast against the internal gears
Neon entanglement of escaping wires
A psychological riddle in the realm of the astrophysical
(Human trials open for all participants)
Electrocution risk- volatile voltage
******* of the remorseful
The senses betray to the beyond
Electric pulsation of pyromania
Reactor arc sequence commenced
Clock strikes midnight dead
Doomsday