I face planted
Right through my bedroom door
Straight into the burning carpet
It was quick
But silent
As if I never made an impact
I wonder if my death will be like that
Will anyone be left to hear it
Or will I have to cry and wail
Scream and yell
Until someone listens
Would they want to hear it
Or see it
Would I matter to them
Or would they walk past
Like a half chewed rat left in the street
Do I belong on the street
Do I even belong anywhere
I’m not sure
But right now
I can’t get up
I’m glued to the carpet
Accepting fate
A silent fate

I feel the tears slide down my cheek
Crossing the lines around my nose
And I know
It’s going to be a long-
Lonely night

Hey
Where’d you go
I know where I went
Crazy

Three Dr Peppers down
Yet not even close to a fraction of a Celsius
Three Dr Peppers down
But they only stir up dark thoughts of us

You may be sorry, but I’ll never accept it.
You may be tired, but I don’t want you spending your remaining energy feeling bad for me.
I’m always yours, and that means that I’m always here.
It’s not a problem for me to be your everything, I’m just returning the favor.
Don’t let your heart bleed for me, let it rest with me.

I can’t be there today
I understand
I’m still here anyway
Ready at a moments notice to offer a hand

You wonder why I’m here
But doesn’t it make sense?
I wonder why you’re here
Yet we know the answers

I’m sorry I can’t write more
But you don’t want to hear that
You want to hear anything I’ve said before
Don’t worry-I’m still intact

I miss you
I’m trying to be strong
But it’s really hard
Not to worry you or anything

I don’t want to be here
Or anywhere
Unless I’m talking to you
I miss you