Carterrae aunders

Apr 2019

Issac Zeppelin

Evil

Killing animals for an idea
Killing animals for the sake of food supply
Evil it is
Not a effort to manage food
No no no
It is a scam
Breeding animals
For the sole purpose
Of killing for feeding
Feeding the indulging ones
Feeding for amusement
Feeding for anything more than survival
Except the sole purpose
Of survival and existence
Is an evil in itself

Carterrae aunders Apr 2019

this is real

I'm so hungry
my stomach is rumbling
through mass destruction

food makes me want to puke
up the lies that are holding down my truth

I'm so tired
my eyes keep closing

though these thoughts run wild in my brain
my mind is wide awake

I'm so scared
I'm so angry
I'm so lost
I'm so alone
I'm so weak
I'm so nieve

why did I trust you
why would you do these things
putting me in the middle
of my sanity and my family

I was finally happy
someone, please help me

my heart has beaten around 661,059,360 times, and when i focus hard enough i can feel my heart beat take over my body

#help #confused #scared #alone #lost #please #stuck #bad #people #creeps

Carterrae aunders Apr 2019

comfortable

i still call you, just to hear your voicemail.
i wish one day you would pick up the phone.
but at least i can still hear your voice

uncomfortable

i needed to call today
i dialed your number
and i knew there would be no answer
but today
all i heard was an automated voice message
now all i think about is what happened to you

this was a draft, but today the phone didn´t even ring
and i feel so lost
what happened to your phone
what happened to you
will i ever see you again
what am i supposed to do now
why do i still miss you

#love #scared #new #alone #you #him #fear #lost #stressed #sorry

Carterrae aunders Apr 2019

live under mind

I've been doing some reading
on some things
those of which do not matter to this article of self-consciousness
the glory
of the unknown theory
have you ever had that feeling
i cannot begin to deepen your physical understanding

i will change the world
this is my glory
this is my understanding
i hope you find yours

#circle #life #theory #change #world #views #understand #mind #glory

Carterrae aunders Apr 2019

intrusive

i wish i could lay in the bathtub
in the middle of the night
i wouldn't plug the drain

i would pick off my skin
peel it back
starting from the tips of my toes
i wish i could extricate
all of this body

my soft smooth skin
laying beside me

my raw
ripe
***** and muscle
vein and bone

would you be scared of me

would you please stay
i feel like a liar
i say im fine
i wish i could tell you these things
but would you be scared of me

is there anyone out here that listens to me

im surviving
but my mind is dying
i dont want to be stuck inside anymore

#thoughts #intrusive #open #relaxation #confused #freedom #skin #within #glory #inside