I don't know how to tell you,
I don't want to disappoint you
I'm depressed Mom
I wish I could say it to your face
Instead of writing it down
I want to be able to tell you
Because
I'm sick of these voices
Inside of my head
Telling me how fat I look
Or how I'm annoying everyone I talk too
But I try to be happy for you
I smile but do you look me in the eyes?
Can't you tell that there's a war going on in my mind?
I know you see my scars
But you don't say anything
why?
I'm slowly killing myself
And I try showing you signs
So when I'm gone
Don't hate me because I didn't tell you
I just loved you too much
To say it out loud

Broken bones
Of love
Used to be taut
But now all for naught

What did I do to deserve this
Endure this ordeal
Unasked for
Unprepared for

Beneath the shadows I lie
Torn limb from
Limb
My shut mouth
Made no moan

Silence

Drowning
I see a light
Of hope
To mend the bond

Alas
It faded
Shaded
By the ever-growing cloud
Of hatred
Anger
Separation
Making rifts
Between the loved

Bombardment of needles thrown
From all directions
Twinge you
Bleed you
Every droplet exuding my suppressed despair

Death is an option
But even death has a cost

There is no escape
Only pain
Only pain

With eagerness of heart
I shall wait on you and
My heart shall embrace
Your love while my lips
Drink joyfully its nectar

And I will eat until full
At your table because
Everything is yours and
Blessed with many spiritual
Delights

Even in the darkness of night
I am wrapped in the radiance
Of your love as its glow fills
My spirit with its beauty and
Truth

When you arrive before me
I shall wipe your feet and
Anoint your head with the
Most precious of oils and
I will bring out a better
Meal than yesterday

And I shall wait on you always
Serving with an eagerness of
Heart full of a most splendid
Love from deep within where its
Well is made full each day

And I will sing praises to your
Name for you are my dearest
Treasure, my precious pearl  
Of such great worth, the life
Force whose strength shall bring
Alive in my spirit a peaceful rest


For your mere presence will cover
Me erasing any fear or doubt which
my heart has ever embraced for I
Shall be forever safe within your
Grace and love

You are the greatest blessing in my
Life, a jewel whose beauty will never
Diminish always filling my heart with
A genuine love for you.

I am but a small
part of you, yet
you are such a  
large part of me.

I can but serve
you humbly, yet
you keep  and
guide me in all
things.

I have such little
knowledge of you,
yet you know all I
have done and yet  
to do.

I am but a small
part of your living
body, but you still
cry if I am lost.