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May 2014 · 456
whaleroad
betterdays May 2014
finally,
the whales have come.
we saw them this morning
they waved, flukes and tails,
slapping the waves.
tourists,
just passing through.
tho, late this year.
from the cold of the antartic,
to up above the reef,
to procreate,
in warmer waters.
never long here,
just driving on.
sometimes, stopping for
an hours break and a snack,
before moving on,
to warmer climes.
to procreate....
betterdays May 2014
in my mind
i wax hysterical
and wane lyrical
but what you see is
is me drooling half formed words
upon humanity

in my mind
i flow poetical
and ebb noetics
what you see are gibberish
producing lips

in my mind shakespeare
my apprentice
longfellow, a dabbler
i am the king of rime

what you see...
an overzealous eejit
with a propensity to string
words together in an underwhelming
rhyme...
i actually wrote this about my own poetry....the way as poets we can feel about our work. some times great about not so great a piece and sometimes horrible about a piece others adore..
it was not aimed at any one else AND NOR SHOULD IT BE that is not how i roll.
May 2014 · 661
undone
betterdays May 2014
you

undo me
with your love

i am naked and unbound
before you

and
you sigh

you unravel
me
with one glance
i am lost within your eyes

and
you beckon

you unreel me
with your touch
fingertips on my ******

and you
kiss me

you unmake me
with your breath

as we
exchange
our very souls

and you
undo
unravel
unreel
unmake

till
i am nothing

but

love in a bed
on a sheet
slick n' ****
and you bring me love

as you
remake
rereel
reravel
redo

till i am
all
aspects of love
in a bed
on a sheet
slick n' ****
and saited

and we
sigh and kiss
May 2014 · 876
on strike
betterdays May 2014
we are on strike
today...
in a passive sort of way
we got to classes
but don't teach
the students come to classes
but don't learn....
some lectures have become
filmhalls
here in theatre....we are offering donuts and  a big
bang marathon....
all to show a goverment
that placing a new pricing
scheme on higher education
is counterproductive....
but they are not interested
in our voice....we are but
cogs ...... they the machine.
May 2014 · 343
i shall not want
betterdays May 2014
i shall not want,
for love today.
that smile
and smakeroo kiss,
shall see me through.

i shall not want,
for a smile today.
that cheery wave and stumble hop,
that made your floppy hat,
fly and drop back onto your curls.
will have my smile, all day unfurled.

i shall not want,
for a place to be, for,
in your heart, i will nestle
and although,
we will be apart.....
i know you too,
are secreted,
in my drumming space.

my little man ...
i do not want...
i have my desires
all answered by you
and your sire too
May 2014 · 532
to bed, to bed
betterdays May 2014
two small gifts
as i head to bed
a new friend, lending
an ear and broad shoulder
a gift recieved and a burden
shifted and lifted
the second, a shaft of light
from the full moon, catching
possoms at play, on the front
lawn...snacking on stolen camelia heads.
so daintily nibbling with
tiny hands and feet
and big suprised eyes
and ears a' twitching....
and then they were gone
to the darkness again....
and i to bed ....to sleep
and slumber...
May 2014 · 412
first day jitters
betterdays May 2014
first day back.....
and i am faltering,
creative flint is drenching wet.
no spark of inspiration here.
end up comparing myself,
to the ghosts in my head.
as i stumble through the steps of the well worn dance
feeling out of step....
hearing a totally dirrerent song......
take a breath... while the students prepare short pieces based on emotional key words....

mine at the present FEAR
there is fear in my heart...
that i have lost
the unameable thing
that makes
teaching a joy.....
and in that joy i
become a good.... no great
teacher.....
is it lost or buried??....
i go back and watch....
with growing delight
at the sorrow, joy, anger
and love
that parades before me in different guises.

at the end of the lesson,
a group of students
come and chat,
these are students
who are new to me.
amongst the chatter
these breadcrumbs thrown  unknowingly to my frail heart....to my sparrow id
freezing on the winter branch
"we really liked the class,"
"that thing at the end way cool".... and "glad we took this option"...
my little sparrow heart
flew down and gobbled them up...
and the flint began to dry..
i may be okay yet....
this is  mostly a free flow brainstream thing, ordering thought and emotion
in Jan i broke my leg (badly) at work and had been off or part time (office duties only)until today, when i went back to practical teaching ..... i do about eight to ten prac sessions a week
along with lectures and for the third years small group
tutorials.... it was so hard...self doubt almost had me by the throat... a class of first years i did not know and unfamilar with the way
i build a session...
a particularly hard start.
  ....but i think.... i will be ok....just need to stick with it...tommorrow a betterday
May 2014 · 557
the days
betterdays May 2014
these are the days we live by
bemoaned by youth
with ether coated fingers
scoffed at by geriatrics as the
wind their wristwatches
and we in the middle boomers post and pre...
wring the blood from each hour...
looking back, to hard memory
looking forward to retired
ecstasy
we live by these days,
waltzing through.....not
but plodding mostly
some days in ourstep
a skip, a jump, a hop...
each generation eyeing off
the others
and finding lack and want
when needing to step back
step up and take a gentle overview...
and taking up some slack
so the line... from begining
to end don't droop somewhere in the middle
recreating primodial soup
big bang or no.... generation
a to xy and z  all  gone back
to history.....
these are the days to turn it
around.
these are the days, compassion still can be found
these are the days, my friend
these are the days...
close...so close.. to the (b)end
first day back at uni.
in the quad....
all festival and parties
groups new and old
gather new followers...
one group had sandwich boards with the last 3 lines on them(inline skaters) and
out poppped this to say hello
May 2014 · 410
between the lines
betterdays May 2014
got up,
had coffee.
showered, dressed
drove to work.
sat at a desk,
shuffled papers,
moved a mouse.
took some bathroom breaks.
came home,
deheaded camelia's.
fed the cat.
and the family.
read a bedtime story.
made love, in a desultory way, while watching telly.
went to bed.
and still.....
in that, there was poetry,
if you look....
between the lines.
May 2014 · 488
wordthief.
betterdays May 2014
writer's block
again the white washed
wall just there...

curving quickly over head
like an igloo
taking creative reasoning,
stealing words and making
lost, not found the joy of creativity...

but i will fight back,
****! diddley i will
with my trusty pen
as sword....
graffiti- ing gibberish
on it's smug white washed
face...
(salmon scraping against the upward curve of the sward like steamships bumping in the old dockyard...talk to me of joy life procreation....)
marring, scarring, scribbling
away... taking back words and wordplay....
i will not be defeated,
i will not stay in this cocoon
bland and grey....
if i write hard and long
if i doodle long and short
i will see the light dawn
on a new creative day.
so watch me scribe away...
creating portholes in my cocoon
writing words to make the
block a boon....
for p.p and others in the throes of this darstardly malaise
May 2014 · 491
it's a beautiful day
betterdays May 2014
first things, first
before i burst,
well,thats a blessed relief !!
coulda come to grief....
so easily.

it used to be,
put the kettle on
now it's slide
the plastic pod,
of coffee magic
in the slot.

lost the romance,
but i forgive,
as the coffee smell,
heaven scent
tickles, teases,
swirls and curls
in the predawn air

my nose hairs steam
and crema....crema
oh my giddy aunt!!!
i love the grind
of the bein' bean
my especial, expresso
blend
my bestest, favouritist, morning friend.
come to mamma's lips.
today....
is it gulps,
or dainty sips.
nectar in, either way
pulse begins, pupils dilate
lookin like another
beautiful day
May 2014 · 420
feelin' it.....
betterdays May 2014
tonight as we settle in
the sky a lavender- grey
twilight
seems ancient, eons old
but then again...maybe it's just me
May 2014 · 553
mothers word puzzle
betterdays May 2014
my mother is losing her words
or at least, misplacing them
(there may well be,a great pile of them, lying around
lauguishing, somewhere
)
her mind is slipping,
on it's weary and
hard-work-worn cogs.

she sometimes has difficulty,
grasping new concepts,
or attatching two thoughts,
coherently together.
and sometimes the blankness behind her eyes
reaches the horizon and beyond.
(and scares the very dickens out of me)

we have lots more, doovers
and thingies and whatsits,
in the house...
and usage of these and other,
all purpose words,
that lead to subtle guessing games,
has increased manifold,
creating  conversations,
that drift, into the territories of
"remember the kid with the
doover thingies,
red....on his head.... on his head" !!!
(the boy with the beautiful
red curls and corksrew ringlets
)

perhaps having been,
away and now returned....
i see this more  clearly.... whereas, whilst, living
with it daily.
....you just compensate ... and move on.

my brothers  do not want to know this.... and nor does she want them to....
they,
have busy lives.....
(note the irony lost and languishing here)

i am concerned,
and speak to both her doctor and the bluecare nurse,
who comes to  help with her abulutions and dresses the abrasions from her latest fall.

they say things like,
she is, within the healthy range for her age, 85.
however, there is marked
depreceation in certain areas.....
we need to keep an eye on her...
( and i am reminded of my old combi, sad but true)

in the meantime...
mother, no longer does the cryptic crossword, citing it as mere balderdash(these days)
and we often find the daily
incomplete...
this is tough.... my mother
so quick of wit.....my mother
so clever in turning a phrase
...... this is tough
not alzhiemers...or dementia..
perhaps aphasia... and small
strokes.... watch and see.

we, at the start of the year
moved her into a granny flat
behind our house....she is close enough to keep an eye on.... but still able to mantain her independance...
which is of tantemount importance to her.
May 2014 · 815
wrong turn
betterdays May 2014
for some reason,
unnown yet
i am sitting here
hot coffee in hand
transfixed by the
memory of a day
lifetimes ago.....

when i took a wrong turn
seeking a small town... and
a cobbler of  soft leather shoes...
instead i found myself
on a bush track, far too
narrow to turn my combi
van around
forced to travel on...
getting further and further
along

until, abruptly the track widened
and the most gorgeous vista
appeared
green grass, sedges and spinfex in waves,
led down to a billabong, eucalypt gums,
ghost and red,
large in size and old in years
dotted the irregular,
ameboic shape

and the water,
so clear, so clear, so clear
reflecting the cloud dusted sky,

to one side the face of a gorge, ochre red rusted
crazed weith black cracks
and green whiskery growths,
on which rock wallabies fed.
unafraid of the big lemoned
wedged combi, who sat
monolithically in their environs.

as  i disembarked,
up from the grass thicket, one thousand and one (i counted) budgerigars alight and took to the wing,
in a swirling mass of
god's whimsical glory.
the sound, a deafening
chirk-chatter and whoosh
as they, in sychron,
wheeled and turned flew over my head and back into  the bush.

needless to say, i never bothered to buy those soft
leather shoes.....
i stayed there for the whole
weekend... driving back to my job as a bank clerk at 4am on the monday morning....
they next time i got to go that way.. the track had grown over....as it should have.. that place was too pure to have me and the world destroy it...
but it is one of my most vivid memories. and come to comfort and inspire rarely but wonderfully....
May 2014 · 579
to be contented.....
betterdays May 2014
sleep crumpled,
doe eyed and snuggly,
little mr just about four, climbs up into the big old bed.
his tousled, towheaded blonde curls bouncing
and plants a smearing, smooching kiss on my lips, before climbing into the middle bit of the bed,

the bubba spot.

then bestowing the same loving brand on da's lips
and wriggling like a fish,
he makes himself....
comfortable.

king of the bed

and hums himself back
to sleep.
we look at each other,
over his nodding head
and smile.

he is the gift ,
we did not know
we wanted,
but are so very glad,
we recieved
and we marvel at him daily. this bit, of you and me and god.
we doze all three,  
and the blucat beside
a knot of happiness and love,
in the big old bed.
contentment,
nestles, rich within our hearts
our minds at peace
together again.
it is these things, so beaitiful
small and large... which i choose to focus on

these are the moments of my
betterdays which i share with you
May 2014 · 316
thanks, old girl.
betterdays May 2014
goodnight
old girl
goodnight, to you,
you
quiet house,
you
blessed home.

are you glad to see
another day done?
within yourself, your hidden recessed places,

are you sighing in relief  as we settle safe in our beds.

your present loves,
all accounted for,
sleeping within your
teak and nail embrace.
or do you prefer,

the drumming of our feet, the hum of activity,
of when we are awake,
and bustling and bumping, about your frame?

or is it best,
when we leave you,
silent and alone
to contemplate,
in the sun and wind
on a work day?

my lord, the secrets
you must keep, the lifes,
that you have held close behind these old walls.

you must groan and cry,        
with the weight of some memories,
yet, others cause
you to smile and sigh
in near-miss relief.

you have stood strong
and sturdy, for almost
one hundred years,
in one form or another,
your girth has expanded, with the growth of family, from farmer's cottage,
to three bed, with study
and nannexe, out the back. you have been all but knocked down, rebuilt, reworked and restored,
to former glory.

you have withstood,
the element's rage
and time's insipid attempts, to shift you,
from your place,
upon the cliffshead.
you have, and do,
do well, to hold us
all within.

and now, just,
before i sleep,
i want to thank you
old girl, for the way,
you keep us, warm,
protected and together.
glad to be back in the old  homestead.... even as she cracks and creaks, complaining about the cold
May 2014 · 532
grandfather time
betterdays May 2014
and the old grandfather
groans and shrieks and
knocks out,
  five bells and a tinkly riff

the face says four,
the heart five and a bit
eccentricity,
is not a good companion
to measuring time...

the pendulum swings
and hitches on the return...
pausing on a memory fine
and then dodders on, over
to begin the loop again.

the cherry wood case,
the faded coat
that holds frail
mechanics within
cogs and wheels
smoothed,
by many years
of tocking service.

face cream cracked
just shy of sour,
saved by hands
refined filagree brass
and gild roman numeracy,
black and solid outlined.

outlived generations, two
and sailed from far away..
god bless
our old senile clock ...
always,
just two ticks
from fading away.
May 2014 · 485
sooner, rather,than later
betterdays May 2014
connect
disconnect
reconnect
mmm-mmmm
baby
that rhythm is
doing
wonders for me
allowing
my soul
to
breathe
ecstasy
soon
exquisite beauty
will come a knockin
at my door
and gladly will i
let him in
and answer his
siren call
then
we shall sit
and drink tea
and love
and make small talk
and big hungry eyes
at each other
let us
make it
sooner rather than later
May 2014 · 1.1k
under the morton bay fig.
betterdays May 2014
we amble down, the hill,
to the waterside markets.

i find it so quaint,
that our town has a green
beside it's river, running.

grass manicured and lush,
presently filled with little town of tents,
and open marquee stalls

that sell, all manner
of things,
plate sized portobello mushrooms,
olive tappenade,
great bunches of happy faced flowers,
cupcakes of scrumptious, more and more-ish flavours.
home made cordials.
jewellery, and cushions and
carved wooden bread boxes.

all spread out for us to see.

ant and owls made from old
silver spoons..... bonsia trees, fresh herbs, jamon
and piccalilli, tropical fruits
in smoothies, icecreams and salads

and over, under the age old
morton bay fig

face painters, wooden geegaws and thingymagigs
painted in bright carnival colours.......

what a way,
wonderful and sublime,
to while away,
a lazy sunday morning..

we amble back up the hill
with bags of edible treasures
an silver owl named boo....
a child tiger hybrid and a spinning clown....
May 2014 · 636
sunday morning dreamin
betterdays May 2014
slept in
awoke to the smell of pancakes
and the sound of little blucat purring.

sun shines through
scattered wispy clouds
is cool enough for slippers
and fluffy robe
but not yet a wood fire.

kitchen table set with
vase of camelia's bright pink
and snow white blooms
my boys busy flippin hotcakes
i pour coffee, and sit to watch....
this is my utopia.....
......as long as they clean-up
May 2014 · 938
mapmaker, mapmaker
betterdays May 2014
a useless cartographer
i would be,
as all roads
my love would lead me
back to thee..
all seas
would wash upon
thy shore....
all rivers fjords
and waterways
would  be found to flow to your doorstep in a cascading
maze
meridean, ley lines,
all would be  
******* in  bows and attached to your casement windows
mountain, plains, steppes
and vales would rest
adoring, in your garden pails

so i could not
be a cartographer.....no
useless would i be.
betterdays May 2014
lets just see
what the soothesayer
says he saw
in his silly  but soggy sanguinity
should he have seen,
the step, so slippery
that brought him to
this soap opera scene... seventeen stitches,
sore chin, not suffering...
too much silly,syrupy
stuff pumped in.
do you think the
soothsayer will see,
a sore and sorry sunday
for himself...
or will he be sadly
oblivious to the obviously, 
vaccuous summation
of the unpredictability of it...
seen here by one and all.
just wordplay... thats all
May 2014 · 658
a small boys hug
betterdays May 2014
it is amazing to see and
feel the healing properties
of a small boys hug

my little man, and his god father, laz,  are walking hand in hand....tod full of love...and little boy concern
is  touching laz's wounded
heart..

earlier when we first met back up.. tod said..
"lazly.... sorry oozly(his name for sue) went to heaven but
she can pat bobalob(their deceased cat, a beautiful  persian thing) anytime she wants now.....and you can get a doggy now".... and hugged laz tight and tighter
and i will love you bigger than the sky and kissed
lazly on his crying,laughing
eyes....
before hopping off lazly's lap
and saying "come with me i will show you where the blue tongues hide"...
and still they wander around
our friend's garden.... this is the first time since  sue's funeral ... i have seen life... in laz's eyes....all because of the bumbling  condolence and love of a little boy.... with a golden heart...
May 2014 · 657
hope floats
betterdays May 2014
hope floats
on the gossamer wings
of beautiful dreams
and stings sweetly, exquistely so,
with thoughts of better things.
as you sit, quietly and cry

hope is, undeniable,
to believe you have none;
is like, holding your breath,
eventually,
you have to come undone and take....
a great gulping mouthful
of fresh air.

we all hope, we all breathe,
waiting for, something
on wings of gossamer,
to alight and  let us live anew......again.
May 2014 · 387
home and away
betterdays May 2014
on our way home
driving through driving
rain and sleet
soft rock eighties mix
saving us from talk
Lazlo sitting in the back
lost in himself.... he has decide to travel for awhile
and is borrowing our R.V.

he closed up the house,
fostered out the indoor plants, gave the garden care
over to neighborhood friends, the carkeys too.

it has been a long battle,
and he just needs time...
that is not accountable to
anyone.
he has agreed to touch base
once or twice a week... but
other than that, he has no
plans.
l have to believe he will be okay... a good sign is he has packed his cameras and  laptop so will continue to
film and write as and when he can.

we ben and i are aching to see our boy tod....he grows
moment to moment these days

we are coming home....
driving through driving
rain.

the thought comes to mind
laz is running away from
a broken home, hoping to leave grief behind....
freeflow
more an ordering of my thoughts than any thing else
May 2014 · 638
the vigil
betterdays May 2014
sitting by your bed
waiting for the waiting
to cease

my, heart a lump,
within my breast.
watches for your beat
barely discernable and frail.

so many things left unsaid
misunderstood, misread.

but there is love
mother to child
child to mother
there was love

you fade, each breath
a small farewell
each tear i shed a plea for
forgiveness
as i wait and witness

there is love and forgiveness
here carrying one home
and another to release
a burden .... forgiven.
written for a friend whose mother passed away... posted with her permission.
in hopes it may comfort others
May 2014 · 896
forever polishing my heart
betterdays May 2014
what a sight,
we see,
when,
with eyes, wide open
we love someone;
from the place of truth,
in our hearts.


it is, beauty incomparable,
enigmatic, eccentric,
sometimes unbearable.

it is, a labyrinth unravelled,
a road yet travelled,
a sojourn for sighing soul.

it is, awe inspiring,
death, defying hope.

it is, kindness and patience,
a forbearing of ill will.

it is, awkward and
uncomfortable
and the revealing
of family secrets.

it is, showing up,
showing off,
antics,
awesome and terrible.
and hell's bell's,
ringing out the doomed
damnation,
of carefree days
and liver
destroying nights.


it is, heaven,
when, you know
the love that is.
but remains unspoken.

it is, every aspect of
daily life,
given extra,
shine and polish

it is, ever forgiving strife

true love is life
and
life is love.
the other stuff,
mere, broken tokens,
spilled upon cobblestones.
for ben, always for ben.
you have been a quiet hero
this past week my love... and so this is my gift for you.
betterdays May 2014
swallomp, swallomp
HE the,  
smallsmiled, muckfrumper
swiped at his scnocklezogger

HE, must be comin down
with a squiffsquizzley...
he hoped not....

HE just HATED visiting the
Tristlings they POKED
cold, fizzfiginflers in awkward places,
like under your
spiztigwungle
and down your
floppleplagger
and then, gives you,
two mattmuttertrogs,
to have instead of dinner
and says....
you should feel prankyfilck,
by coddleslidiggetty.

but in the meantime....
no more,
squiggl-ing, dibbl-ing,
pivbabl-ong or tonggypaffle.

HE, the smallsmiled, muckfrumper,
tapped his stotching,
three times,
spun on the toes of his
zibdinkers
and wished for
luck and good health.
it was too good a stonkploffli
day to have a, mickering,
sqiffsquizzley.

swomple, swomple,swomp...
gibberish inspired from and
taken in part from Gobblefonk..so kudos and thanks. but for the most part i changed or developed the language
of the BFG.. one of Rhoald Dhals creation's.
I must admit I have not yet read the book... I just used the words i liked the sound of... attributing meanings arbitarily...
i wrote this as some bedtime fun for my boy tod...
but do hope you all enjoy as well.
i do believe i will call my version of the dialect
Zadifas
May 2014 · 704
no time for games
betterdays May 2014
******!!!
carkeys...
where have you gone??
this time...

i know you think,
this is a wonderful way
to pass the time.
but i am a busy woman.

and when i put you
down,
someplace,
i expect you,
to stay there.....

not grow legs,
scurry away....and hide

now....
i am going to,
close my eyes,
count to ten
and then, when,
i open them,
you just better be
sitting right there
in front of me!!!!


and that
goes for you too...
ya silly sunglasses.
just a bit of foolishness
May 2014 · 447
come
betterdays May 2014
tarry not my love
the bed is warm
the air is cold

come lie with me
and behold the beauty
of natures grace
painted in absolute unbridled joy
upon my happy face

these tears not sad
no
so very, very glad
these are love
set free
from the millpond
that holds
eternity

stay with me now
and forever
learn
again to cry and laugh
and love and play

besides...
is there a more
wonderous way
to spend a rainy day.

come
May 2014 · 584
too cold, too cold
betterdays May 2014
the sun is struggling to meet
it's commitments this morn
and sits low on the mountain tops
smudging the sky pink and
charcoalred as it climbs wearily into the clouded sky

in reality, nothing much wants to get out of bed
the rooster only gave
a half- hearyed crow
the kookaburra's just chuckled and then went back to bed

as for you and me still here
away from home
we snuggle down into tje warmth and take comfort
in the childfree zone..

it is too cold to do anything other...
until the sun gets it's act
together
it's snooze time ,
thanks to
the ****** cold, mountain
weather...
early morning freeflow....
May 2014 · 485
lifted up by love
betterdays May 2014
maria,
a woman, unknown to me
sits some where grieving
battered and beaten down
by the heaviest of burdens.

her loss, unimaginable,

but i see, many hands
lifting her up, into the sight
of gods.

many hearts ache,
many people pray
many people write

lifting her up, into the hands
of gods

i add my words of consolation
my paltry words
from a world away

know you are loved,
dear lady and though
it is inconcievable the burden, the loss,
you carry

you will be lifted up by love
into the sight of gods
this day
again my word do not match
the situation.
but they are sent with mothers love.....i am so very, very sorry for your loss
May 2014 · 408
once and everafter
betterdays May 2014
ever after
             they lived
                         happily
why,
because, they took the time, to beat the wolf back from the front door.

because, they caught the sky, as it fell down on them.

because, they sold the magic beans on to some rube from another town.

because, they decided red was just not their colour.

because, they kissed enough frogs.

because, their knight did not get lost in the forrest.

because, they found they liked miners, ***** boots and all.

because, they did not ever develop a sweet tooth.

because, they knew they looked good!!
it was all those other ducks that had body issues

because, they knew by heart, the words to...
bippety-boppety-boo.

because.......

there was, a time,
                          once, they      
      wished.....        upon..
                            ....­..... a moon

and the wishes.... they came
                   .....true.....
May 2014 · 685
elefantile musings
betterdays May 2014
elephants have memories
long,
to my way of thinking,
that must be hell!

imagine, remembering
in detail,
fine and complete.

the days of your life.
beginning at number one,
when all slippery,
slimed and mucked,
you were forcibly expelled,
into a world, of hard knocks.


image, each stumbling step
as you grew,
each slur,
each pointed arrow flung your way,

first fall, first hit, first miss
first kiss and all the desperation, set between.

and then,
you hit your teens.
emotionally bruised and battered
and running for the bell
placing 563rd  in the
contest of popularity.
trying new styles of clothes, dreams and personalities.
hormones raging, momma texing, paging,
virginity flexing
and all the other
****** bluff...guff....stuff
..."hell yeah i can never get enough"

finally you get to remember,
the grown up stuff.
projects due, bills to pay,
finding somewhere half decent to stay, grocery lists,
other people constantly ******,
in a it's all your fault kinda way.
deadlines,
diminishing lifelines, standing in unemployment lines,
waiting to pay a fine lines,
playing mine or yours in
your divorce foray.
and honest to god,
thats just the day to day
k-rap.
living low and *****
until the next pay comes along.

ok, there would be,
indeed some,
remembered joys,
some flowers,
among the weeds.
but thats mere fodder
and seeds,
for a better poem .....
written on a better day.

so finally you are old.
you are so, over it!
all creak and cracks, pills,
bad backs and bengay..

not to mention, the teeth
that sit in water glass smiling away,
all night.
on the table bedside.
that my friend, is just not right.

you are counting down the days, the hours...
watching.....home and away.

til one day,
you make the mortal coil's end...
and your shift is done and dusted.
bucket kicked,
daisies planted,
dirt kissed....
                  .....recalled.

all that.... and ba-jillion more
memories looking for time
on the elephant's mammoth mind - memory  dancefloor.
free flow... started at one place
then left......
the safari tour
so it is a ramble,
wart(hog)s
and all. ..... lol.....
May 2014 · 585
a baker's dozen
betterdays May 2014
ten
words,
to explain,
a weary soul's
meandering, doesn't seem
anywhere
near
enough
why i rarely write
10(w) poems
May 2014 · 1.2k
amsterdam's cat
betterdays May 2014
i watched the little cat
watch me
safe, secure and warm
behind the quarter pane
of glass

just past a kitten,
all curiousity
and lithe loveliness
of form

eyes
bright chips of amber
ears
caramel crema,
tipped with coccoa,
tongue
coral pink lipstick
licking the window wall.

a  little red collar
and a tinkling bell

wriggling nutmeg
and cafe au lait body
walking
up
and
down
the four foot promenade
not quiet
yet perfected
the
turn-around,
but trying really hard
tail swaying hypnotically
keeping a mystic beat

this cat
knows
it is beautiful
but then don't they all.


i  
watched
the little cat
watching me.

and wondered
what did
the little cat
see
actually a cat i saw in
a window this morning
in small country town australia
but made me think
of the ladies in amsterdam
May 2014 · 446
this once was....
betterdays May 2014
this once was,
a happy place filled
with love and laughter

now a place,
of dust and tattered cobwebs hanging
where tired memories roam

in place of windows,
boards
in place of floor boards,
dirt

with  pools of slimed
water stagnant, standing
from the ceiling, opened
to the weather and time...

a broken falling down place
in middle of overgrown plot

rusting chains
of swaying swing,
jangle in blowing breeze
wooden splinters,
from old decrepit seat scattered on the ground

there were once,
children here
this was once,
a happy place,
a home

it was, was it not?
betterdays May 2014
sometimes
      when i put pen to paper
i know exactly where i am
going... like i bus following
a well driven route.

other times
the pen hits the parchment
and takes me on a grand adventure.... skittering all
over the place

those are the sessions i like better....
May 2014 · 317
what to do, with me.
betterdays May 2014
i am alone today
ben has taken lazlo
fishing... not so much
as to catch anything
but to be away
from the crowds
of condolence
and to be quiet..
within one self.

i suppose i could look up
old friends......
or shop.....take in a movie
or buy a book .......
and read it cover to cover

but the reality is i am a mother.... so this day....
....stolen from the world...is
to be spent.. in the luxury of
                  sleep

             good night all
May 2014 · 1.6k
jungle gym joy
betterdays May 2014
two small children
bundled up like
michelan men
scramble around
the spider frame
monkey bars
their breath
little puffing billy clouds
of i think i can
as they play and race
each other to
the platform
an slide in
exuberant joy
down the red slippery slide
i smile at the ability
that most children have
to find and capture
this joy...
and savour it.
May 2014 · 759
a hollow man
betterdays May 2014
john donne, was wrong ...

you know,
there are times...
when a man, is an island,
set alone far out to sea.

when,
he is bereft.
just a void, of sadness,
a gape, of hulking misery,
a chasm, of blankness,
in diminished and weary desolation.

with,
nothingness,
barren nakedness,
abject defeated melancholy,
as mountain range and peaks.

with,
indifference,
listless malaise,  
the emptiness of depression, fatigue and lethargy,
as his meagre crops to eat.

with,
despondency,
distress, grief, affliction, abject and ineffable, sadness
as, the rivers that run through.

with,
tribulation,
torment,
desperate lamentations,
now, covering,  
the fields with bitterness
and bereavement,
where once, the wildflowers,
used to grow.

now,
he is an island, alone.

deprived and dispossessed.
wanting and widowed.

and
with beaches, ravaged, bankrupt and heartsore
the reefs, encircle,
tho, fragmented, incomplete they are short, sharp teethed
coral.

waiting with,
patience absent,
anger rampant.. that

make,
the currents turbulent ,

those,
miserable, mournful, waters,

those,
sad, sorrowing, suffering, waves

that,
break, upon his grief-laden
shores,

tide, after, tide, after, tide.

he stands,
among the grieving.

unreachable.

an island.
a hollow man.
alone.
for Lazlo with love.
betterdays May 2014
an hour ago
  as we lay your coffin
          in the red brown earth
a mob of kangaroos
        bounded  by
                down in the vale
at the bottom of the hill.

amazing in their strength
and synchronicity
               the thunderous noise
a more than, fitting goodbye

the world itself ... resonated
with one last joyous round
of applause..and then a quiet

                   goodbye
sue, whom we buried today,
was both an actress and teacher of the theatrical arts.
an unexpected.... but amazing
final farewell.
May 2014 · 418
god's eye .......
betterdays May 2014
the little brown sparrows,
perch on the barbed
string fence,
feathers ruffled and puffed
against the cold, of the morning air
they knatter and gossip away among themselves.

they know nothing  of the sorrow of this day..

the thought comes to mind,
why would they care,
god's eye is upon them,
as they bask in the sunshine.
i sigh and crumble a corner
of my toast and scatter it to
the ground.
even god needs a hand,
in the practical aspects of caring, sometimes.
as the sparrows dart in to consume the crumbs,
i smile at their squabbling
antics....
and come to understand why god loves to watch the
tiny little things.
May 2014 · 315
tastes like, gasolene.(30w)
betterdays May 2014
i
siphon
my pain
my
grief
and
anger
onto these
pages
in little
starts
and
spurts
but still
there is
this awful
bittersweet
taste
left
lingering
upon
my
muted
tongue
May 2014 · 757
with my hands in my pockets
betterdays May 2014
the currency of
grieving is in....

casseroles and soups,
left with notes,
on the back doorstep

flowers, bright, beautiful
and fragant,
delivered by gangling, teenage boys.

awkard silences and cups
of lukewarm tea.
mumbled condolences and
too tight hugs

late night rememberances,
after,
far too many drinks

tears, laughter and
in-house jokes...
photos, stories and 
space for quiet reflection.

these things are...
the dollars and cents
of  grief for a friend

but when all is, said
and done....

i would much prefer
to be penniless,
begging on the street,
with pockets empty
and moths for friends.
but alas that is not to be...

people's kindness in grief
is both binding and unbinding..... but always
well intentioned
May 2014 · 1.0k
in writing poetry
betterdays May 2014
in writing poetry...
......you are writing
intimate love letters
to the world.


you bare your heart,
soul and .....***** laundry
....for all who care to read.

but there is anonymity
in your intimacy...
and there is ..
the dispensation of .... ....absolution, acquital, emancapation.....
leading to.....
....proclamation, jubilation
and .....discovery of a .... ....different self.

when you put...
words  to paper
.....as  a poet....
you allow the world
access, to your heart
....in times of joy and sorrow
and all the mileposts
..... lying inbetween.



you
May 2014 · 719
delusions of granduer
betterdays May 2014
even in the midst of sadness
the universe gives
you cause to laugh

sitting in the park
watching a tiny Chihuahua running round frantically
marking the whole world
as his....

got to admit he has big dog
dreams......
May 2014 · 1.6k
good morning, mr wren
betterdays May 2014
good morning
...mr wren
sitting at my
breakfast table.

you.... in your fancy
duds and plumage.
...all the while
your wife at home,
in .....beige brown grey.

you want my toast
.....just the crumbs
yes... it has been a hard
couple of days.

you'll dance and sing
and bring.... beakfuls
of happiness my way.

please ...take the crusts
and if you must
...the corner of the
pastry too.
as i know it is more
than..one or two....
that are waiting,
at your ...table

but, rush now, mr wren
the attention of the cat,
you've caught..
and he is willing and
....almost able to make
your wife a widow.

fly ..now ...mr wren


but...please do.... come back
again
betterdays May 2014
words,
do not
have to be
spoken in
a different dialect,  
to be a
foreign language,
to some one's heart.
betterdays May 2014
my mother is always right!!!
whether it be,
framed in the short or long.
took me nigh, on forty years
of being down-right wrong,
to finally get it right,
when my child came along.
so now  it so happens,
that  oftentimes,
i am wrong and i am right.
sometimes makes it,
a tad
difficult to sleep at night.

but as mother's always do
i'll just muddle on thru..
gotta love ya mums
with out them
you would not be
happy mothers day
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