The cars roll up and come to a stop
You jump onboard thinking this rocks
But the non-stop ride has only just begun
Before long you’re up and in rages again
Things fly through the air and break on the wall
You’re pushing and fighting and out of control
Then you run to your room and lock yourself in
Crying and shaking till your asleep yet again
You wake from your sleep but you haven’t a clue
You really don’t know why things are askew

Another day and what will it bring
Today the rollercoaster is on a downhill swing
You’re sad and mad and hating the world
There is no one to love and no one who cares
Forget the friends and forget the fun
You lay in your bed wishing you were gone
I tell you I love you and you say it’s not true
You’re the love of my life what can I do

Day after day the ride starts again
The only change is the curves and the spins
We have tried all the medicines but to no avail
We have gone to the psychiatrist but she is no help
I understand your thinking son but what can I do
We have tried so many things and yet I haven’t a clue

You beg me to **** you and to make it all stop
I want it to end but your request I can not
Please don’t give in to this terrible thing
Stay with me a while longer till I find you again
The rollercoaster will someday jump the track
And you will be free from the ride at last.

He’s up
He’s down
I sit and cry
What happened to
My sweet little boy
One minute I love you
The next he hits
There is no happy medium
By which he lives
A roller coaster ride
That does not stop
Turn off the ride
He wants to get off
A variety of pills
That should do the trick
But not one is helping
We’ve exhausted their list
What to do now
Someone has got to know
This Bipolar hell
Is taking my son
There is no place to hide
No place to run
He is trapped in this nightmare
He wants it to end
Each day he gets worse
He starts to defend
The thought that he’d
Be better off dead.

You walk in the door stumbling
Wreaking of liquor and beer
I am suppose to be nice
But I just cannot bear
I listen to your *******
Till I can take it no more

I go to the bedroom and shut the door
You come in saying you love me
Another of your lies
Its moments like this
That I’d rather die

I know what is coming
I know what you want
You strip yourself naked
And climb on top

What choice do I have
It’s a means to an end
I close my eyes
I picture my friend
It makes it bearable
Till finally the end

You finish your business
And soon you’re asleep
While I lay there crying
Feeling ***** and cheap

You’re no better than he was so very long ago
Both selfish ******* thinking only of yourselves
The only difference that truly I can see
Are the rings that are binding you and me.

The one I want
I can not have
The one I have
I do not want
The one who wants me
No love returned.

Once just a dream
To soar and fly
He started as a little boy
And though the journey
Was rough and tough
He gave his all
And never gave up
He selflessly gave
To those in need
A boy scout he was meant to be
A young man now
He’s strong and tall
An inspiration to us all
For though the dream
He thought could not be
Has become today reality
For an Eagle Scout
He’ll always be!

That ******* may he burn in hell
For what he did to a little girl
The innocence he had stole
Never again to be quite whole
For his acts she must pay
For the filth can’t be washed away
The nightmares that do not cease
Of abuse stemmed from his ****** needs
A cry for help but no one hears
Because she is a little girl
He would not hurt her for you see
A big brother he was suppose to be
Who would believe he was pure evil
Surely not her loving mother
So as an adult before he passed
A request to admit the torturous past
But the selfish ******* could not see
The truth was what could set her free
Instead he denied what he had done
So he could remain the perfect son
So because of what you did to me
May you burn in hell for eternity.

In my world
So cold and dark
Lonely by day
And even more lonely by night
Left alone to hide the pain
Of what my life has become
The smell of beer
The fighting and tears
There is no escape
Remember I chose this
It’s not easily undone
To do so would cause so much pain
So I shall live my life a fake
Longing for happiness that once was
I’ll put on a smile day by day
So the outside world never sees my pain