Perish the thought of guilt
for I love you and
I expect nothing

My dear, I love you not
for what you have done
not for what you will be
but for who you are

Perish the thought of guilt*
for I do not regret a single day
that I am in love with you

She asked for my help
To stay by her side
I just smiled and told her
Everything will be alright

I grabbed her hand, I held it tight
She asked me to sing her a lullaby
I did,I sang her favorite song
When I finished singing, I realized she was gone

She was smiling, her eyes closed
She went off peacefully, a silent death
She didn't say nor hear the word goodbye
It was painful for me to just let her slip by

I remember the time, and the place
And even the clothes she had on that cold winter night
That was the first time I met her, in an unexpected way
Yet, it felt planned like it was no accident

I was buying gifts for my family and friends
In a local store down the street
Down the shelf of trinkets and presents
I saw a doll my niece had always wanted

It was the last one there, and seeing no one else
I reached for the doll, ready to get it with my hand
However, it looked like I was not alone
There was another woman, who wanted it as well.

Being the man that I was, I let her take it
She told me it's mine, but I insisted she take it
Not wanting to feel guilty, she asked me to dinner
To repay me for giving her the doll we both wanted

I was hesitant at first, but I gave in
She was happy with my reply, joyful even
I just smiled, I realized how beautiful she was
We found a restaurant, and hastily went in

We talked the whole night, like friends reunited
When in truth, we had just met by accident
Annie was her name, and I never forgot it
The night passed by with us talking and laughing

I felt weird, not knowing what it was
It wasn't bad, it was actually the best feeling I've ever had
We had to part, as the night grew deep
But not before I asked for another time for us to meet

Weeks passed by, she and I just fell
For each other, not noticing at first
But slowly we realized our feelings for each other
And at the same time, confessed our love for one another

I was happy that time
Happier than I have ever been in my entire life
But unfortunately, the universe had other plans for me
And also for my dear sweet Annie.

About a year after we first met
On her way to the restaurant we had set
For a date to celebrate the day we met
She met a horrible and tragic accident

She was ran over by a car that lost control
Due to the wet, slippery road
And came speeding towards her direction
Soon screams and sirens were heard

I was contacted by her mother of what had taken place
And told me Annie was in a critical state
I frantically asked where she was now
I heard hospital, there was only one in town

I rushed to her, wanting to see if she's okay
I got to her room, everything seemed alright
I saw the doctor, and asked if she's fine
He just pat my shoulder, and gave off a sigh

I went to her and slowly stroked her hair
Waiting for her to wake up, or show signs she's still there
She did, and she gave a weak smile
And shed a single tear that slid down her eye

She asked for my help
To stay by her side
I just smiled and told her
Everything will be alright
But now, I know that I had lied

Do you remember when...

I called you cute, and you growled at me and punched my gut gently?
Do you remember when...
I said you were the most beautiful on this earth and you looked down cheeks burning bright red calling me an idiot?
Do you remember when...
I said I loved you and you opened your eyes in surprise and pouted at me embarrassed mumbling you loved me too?
Do you remember when...
I said I loved your eyes and how I got lost in them and they opened wider upon hearing that for the first time?
Do you remember when...
I said you were funny and witty and you laughed at my joke?
Do you remember when...
I met you for the first time and you threw yourself into my arms crying like old friends reunited?
Do you remember when...
We first saw eachothers bodies and you kept telling me how horrible yours was but I insisted otherwise and loved you all the more?
Do you remember when...
We stayed up till 4 in the morning on skype whispering and giggling away, then got up a few hours later and did it all again?
Do you remember when...
I said I would be there for you always and would do whatever I could, you came to me in tears and I wiped them from your face?
Do you remember when...
You were having a nightmare so I wrapped myself around you and held you close and everything went away?
Do you remember when...
I said I loved you more than anyone or anything? I meant it

Do you remember these?
I remember each and everyone like it was playing out in front of me
I am forgetful of everything but I never forget the things that hold the most meaning to me
You  hold the most meaning to me, so tell me...
Do you remember when...?

Without you I cannot function right
Hear me out as I utter this plight

You take care of me and play my mother,
With me to you, im like an older brother.
I forget things, and never think straight
You pull me up on the things that ive left too late

You take such good care of me, and I secretly love what you do,
Deep down inside you wish id do it for you.
I wish with all my heart to care for thee,
Look out, and to provide all I can for ye.

I know I'm a child, incapable of taking care of me,
In everything you do, it opens my eyes of how Ive come to be.
You needn't the stress of tending to my problems and flaws,
If anything problem wise I should be attending to yours.

*I am childlike
In personality
And being

I love to be mothered and am how I am, just dont tire yourself out over me
Cause when the time comes, for strength and help I'll be there for ye