berry

berry Jul 2013

there is really something horrible
about being understood by someone.
having another soul that just - "gets it"
having another living being that relates.

because it means that they have felt your hurt
they've cried your tears, thought your thoughts
they have lived the terrors in your head and
endured the anguish that lives in your heart.

that is why it is terrible to be understood.
my heart breaks anew when someone tells me
"i get it"

berry Jul 2013

Recovery

recovery is not pretty.
it is not painless or simple or instant.
it is a road littered with backsliding and obstacles and doubt.
a path marred with reopened scars and sleepless nights and feigned smiles.

recovery is rubberbands and ice cubes and pacing and cigarettes.
it is phone calls at 3am when you can barely breathe and all the walls are closing in.
it is screaming at the ones you love because they love you too much to let you break your skin.

it is long sleeves and overly-cautious internet browsing and lots of movies.
it is eating way too much ice cream and taking walks in the middle of the night.
it is hard. recovery is hard. it is messy. it is painful and chaotic. but it is not impossible.

berry Jul 2013

your chest

ill
    at
        the
             thought
of
   her
        head
                 in
                     the
                          spot
where
           mine
                    ought
                               to
                                   be
but
      is
         not
                 -

berry Jul 2013

haiku three

once made to believe
i was as the moon & sun
truth showed, i was naught

berry Jul 2013

haiku two

like cream in coffee
so did the light within your
irises swirl 'round

berry Jul 2013

haiku one

patience, little dove
the sweetest love comes to us
when least expected

berry May 2013

bed

bed
keeper of secrets
catcher of tears
bringer of restoration
a sea of blankets
sanctuary,
solace
the only flaw being-
it's half empty

- b.