My love is burning evermore.
My love breathes ashes in the air.
She is the closest I abhor.

She is Despair.

My love is longingly ignored.
My love, she answers with a stare.
She is a cost I must afford.

She is Despair.

My love is pulsing with desire.
My love is anxious, unaware.
She is but one voice in a choir.

She is Despair.

"My love," I'm asking, "are you scared?"
My love is shaking, broken, bare.
She is forgiveness scarcely shared.

She is Despair.

Her body,
The canvas of each poem she couldn't write.
Each cut of a blade,
Each edge of a razor,
Each ink of a bleeding pen,
Each pierce of a broken page
Spells out all her unread poems titled-
'Maybe this is better...'

drifting alone
through this desert
through these solitary sands
isolated
and deserted
the desert fox
without thought or reason
without cause or purpose
this old heart
these young hands
this love I have to give
but no you to give it to
I am wasted without you
my life is shattered
my dreams are lost
where are you?
if not here?
where are you
when I am without you?
I am withering without you
abandoned here
in this barren wasteland
like a flower in the desert
without hope
without water
without love
won’t you free me from this heat?
this unbearable sunlight
too harsh for my eyes
the truth is just so bright sometimes
I do not wish to see myself
not like this
lost like this
but there is no cure
for all that ails me
only time they say
can heal these wounds
that sorry old adage
so I sit and wait
for something else to happen
and I say
**** me or set me free
twisting these sad young hands
as my old heart melts
in the memory of you

I found it after she left
This feeling she awoken in me
A feeling I thought I severed through my own will
Primal in its nature
Fire re-ignited
To want contact again
Spinning in a vortex of sweat and sounds
A woman's essence apart of me
In a pleasurable connection
I want you
I desire your flesh
But only if your spirit comes with it
Being gentle is in my nature
But also a beast when my blood is excited
I want to drive you wild
But not insane
So tell me when to slow down and maintain
I must know your rhythm
Being in sync takes things to another level
Mind Body and Soul
I want it all

Her beauty shone through her sullen eyes
Her exterior formed from a thousand lies
And with each passing day she transformed.
Her reflections became horrendous
Claws, slimy decayed skin and crooked teeth,
That resembled piano keys playing Fur Elise.
She hated herself more and more each day
spoke of hate-filled words to her own reflection
despite the world's attempt at showing affection.
She hated herself with a burning hate,
echoed tales of wicked witches and evil *******
She let her hate devour her soul.

Despite an army of friends and family
Telling her she leaked of pure beauty,
She saw nothing other than her own demons.
Despite a stream of people who were willing
to kiss her and turn her into the princess she
already was, she only saw herself;
a horrendous toad.

The lies she fed herself fattened her
depression,
The lies she fed herself fattened her
self-hatred,
The lies she fed herself fattened her
insecurities
And while she remains beautiful
The lies she fed herself,
Slowly devoured her.

It was all in her head
She closed her eyes
Tears
Lies....

He hadn't just said
I ******* love you
He had also said
I know I don't have to
But I do
I ******* love you
He even asked her if she heard
And now ?!.....

Now, all regrets
Taking back words
He even liked poetry
That stated the same
Words said but not said
And falling
Insane....

It was too weird
But he kept her love notes
Asking for letters
Emotions she wrote
Now it was
I shouldn't of
I don't love you....

******* all *******
And he knew it too
But what could she do now?
What could she say?
So she fought back the tears
Pushed memory away...

She fell into her dreams
And woke to his smile
In that instance
In that moment
He was hers
He loved her
And love was ours....

Hours of dreams
And she wished for her death
Darkness his arms
And his kisses
All left
Only in dreams
As she, sadly,
woke again
This time

Nothing left....
All alone....

©MV

Sit in stillness
Allow the unrest
Of idleness
Contour the shape
Of nonentity

Soon you’ll hear
A loud ringing
Within your ear

The same noise
Howling staunch
Before you sleep

The same sound blaring
As the world stagnates
And time loiters
And sorrow seeps up from the rug

I don’t think you realize
You will never see him again
As long as you live

For now he is a tall tale
Retold to offspring
A distant memory
A mythic architect

Nothing in the past has ever occurred
There is only now
And now
There is only the wind

And the world moves on
And time resumes clockwise
And his ashes are spread about the sea

you always distance yourself, and I've always told myself that I'm never going to put myself through hell to be in the middle of dating and friends but we both made sacrifices now

how can you say goodbye to someone who knows your body and your mind inside and out, who knows what to do and what to say and what to touch and what to make you feel so that you're on cloud nine all the ******* time

this is a letter to you to tell you don't stop - don't stop touching, don't stop caring, don't stop *******, don't stop wanting

**** the emotions are so rough but the *** is so fine, baby I can't let go this time