Shout out to the girl running through my mind all day
The first letter in her name is A
Beautiful like these winter nights
Let me ask can i treat you right
Spend all tonight together no matter the weather
Call me and im there but only for you because i care
You're special to me youre all i see
Let me let me know if there can be a we ?
Us with a ton of trust

Alone alone alone
In my own ******* head
I swear im dying i swear im almost ******* dead
What i say or what i said
I want to play i want to live everyday
But we all have seperate paths
I just need somebody someone
To let me know that when i write im winning the fight .. i can see the light

Ive been depressed in a miserable state
Im trying to choose my own fate with weight on my back
Stack stack stack till i crack break my back
Get plenty of looks an  yes im shook
Lifes getting hard im to real not a big deal
Im expressing how i feel hoping that my cuts heal
Living life long filled with love ive been insanely obsessed with my dreams
What is god trying to tell me time temperature ties
Where does my Destiny lye
Im praying facing my head to the sky when i die
Where will i go

I had a dream they were going to steal from me
The people i talk to listen to hear
I had fear i was hiding out
Had a bunch of people shouting out telling me to leave
I didnt have sleeves i was in my work clothes that i chose
I felt i wanted to quit becuase i opose a threat
Three stories tall i was in the second floor they kept asking more from me
Walked up sat on the stairs without a care
Someone called my name but it was the same as another kids

It's sad when you give everything away for people to smile
While you're dying people are spying thinking you're crazy
Baby when i die dont bury me I'm going to die in the west
I thinks it's only best that i dissapear
People fear What they don't understand and.thats me

Its 12:05 and I'm not really feeling alive
I dive into situations understanding possible outcomes
But how come i can't have the things i want the way i want
Or maybe i can't have the things that downgrade me
I cant forget ive been saved
Lately you all have been forgetting about me

Beware of smiling faces that are good with you now
Later you here pow take the knife out your back
Bad stuff happens things change you dont know how to act
Extract my thoughts about you
Now.there all not true i see how you are

I write about what i really want to see
THats you & me under a tree
Staring at the clouds with crowds of baby blue skies
I want to look in your eyes and see your inner beauty
Tango under the stars
Watch cars pass by while we're on a walk
I want to listen to you talk becuase i care
This is all i think about when i stare at you
Glare me back let me know it isnt going to happen

I prefer to feel every emotion
Sad happy mad and more
Im not sure when death will come knocking on my front door
My heart drops to the floor everytime i think of love
Too the girl i want to hug i feel i always bug
A tug of war with pride and my own life
Am i winning ?
WHy do my thoughts keep spinning

The next 4 hours of my life are the most tiring
It's inspiring me to get a better job
I enjoy my days off with a little corn on the cob
People say it's easy but they don't even know
I'm wondering why time goes so slooowwww

You girl are an exotic flower
Your beauty posses mystical power
I want to hold you in my arms and never let go
Let me know youll never change
No matter the range of the weathers
Wether its with me or someone else
I pray you stay in good health
Dont let no one hold you to tight and wound you
Youll make it to see a sunny day and vroom through

I spray paint on the wall
Write on bathrom stalls
Its alot of trouble for a teen
But everywhere i go im a star of the scene  never get much attention dealing with a school suspension tension and stressing having a heart is a blessing seeing my art to