Beebz The Queen: Favorites

Sep 2014 Beebz The Queen

ryn

Sitting here alone with people around
But I only see one person in mind
She is the person so fortunate I've found
She is the person who loves me in kind.

My head is spinning as I sit here thinking
My heart is aching for the girl I'm missing
My lips they mutter, words of love they're saying
My hope is wishful that these words you're hearing.

I feel this love in my heart, it's growing
To proportions of unfathomable enormity
Sometimes it feels like my boat is sinking
When I think of the undeniable reality.

This reality that I wake up to everyday
Keeps hurling obstacles that I must face
I need the strength so my hopes don't fray
Wishing for more so I can finish this race.

I love her dearly; without her a life I can't imagine
I love her deeply; I never thought I was capable of such
I love her strong; with hopes so high, I would pin
I love her furiously; never thought I could love this much.

She is the sun that around, my world does spin
She is my star that I always look up to see
She is my moon that so clearly I have seen
She is my universe that I'm traipsing through helplessly.

I've never stopped wishing for a life beside her
I've never stopped wanting for her to be with me
I've never stopped hoping for the a life we'd make together
I will never stop trying for I believe it's meant to be.

I have pined for her so, many a sleepless night
I have yearned for her through the hours of the day
I have craved for her; craved with all of my might
I have longed to utter the words I've wanted to say.

Countless of times, these words I've spouted
In my heart I've said them oh so many more
These words are strong like a volcano just erupted
These words are true for they come from my core.

So I sit here still with these people around
They don't know why my heart aches so
It matters not if my feet don't touch the ground
I'd still dare to dream and to her they will go.

Dreams of you I'll never stop conjuring
Thoughts of you I'll never stop thinking
With words so sweet I'll never stop praising
For the woman in my dreams, my heart is loving.

So let me be, you people; you never will know
You'll never know who it is who excites my heart
You'll never understand what makes my love grow
She's the one who had ensnared me from the start.

Sep 2014 Beebz The Queen

I Miss you

Sep 2014 Beebz The Queen

Jason Cirkovic

I Miss you

I hate to break it to you but i miss you a lot
Missing like my ability to get over you
because people always say that there are many fish in the sea,
but you see you are the only fish i will ever need,
I swim for you like Nemo across the world.

Although my feet may be tired and my legs sore
you keep running in that treadmill that trumps my mind
so i know that I'm going to keep on swimming just like Dorothy
because i miss your face like hell
I miss your laugh and smile
I miss our long nights of talking because it was pure emotion.
it wasn't squeezed out like the mustard packets we call our friends.

it was realer than Real World
it was so real that it felt like i was shot out of this world with a rocket on my back
your words are rare but they aren't rusty like everyone else
like that Anvil that is making me sink to the bottom of this ocean.
I want to be like Dante and dive through hell even if my feet blister and bleed.
because you give me a reason to keep on being me
i know that no matter what i do you will always wont let me forget my roots
you're like the grass that hugs my tree because without you I feel incomplete

I miss you like a lot
Can you please come back
so I can kick up my blistered feet with you

Sep 2014 Beebz The Queen

Bored in class

Sep 2014 Beebz The Queen

Jason Cirkovic

Bored in class

Sigh
I tap my pen on the desk like my teacher extracting my freedoms
and plastering it on the whiteboard.
He preaches and preaches about how he lost a game of golf last week
I need to take a dosage of education,
But whenever I take it I forget to check the side affects.

SIDE AFFECTS MAY INCLUDE;
-Boredom
-Faeries pulling down on your eye lids making you fall into the pit of sleep.
-Drifting in a car called imagination across this classroom.
-Hands are under mind control as you draw twisters in your notebook .
-NOTE: when you flip back to your notes when you are studying for a test,
they will be useless

Useless like "excuse me sir but is your love for the Broncos going to be on the test?"
I feel like this teacher is testing me not on the subject,
but how long it takes until one of the students in this class to go postal.

Too soon?
Sorry I should ship off my mouth to my mother
cuz mommas got the magic of Clorox Bleach
momma oh momma, use your powers to clean out my filthy mouth

yet he is still talking,
why is he still talking?
I'm still writing this poem,
Should I be writing notes on his college days
Or should I wait until his head lands on this landing strip
So he get his head can leave the clouds

Sep 2014 Beebz The Queen

Asase

Sep 2014 Beebz The Queen

Jason Cirkovic

Asase

I awake from my slumber as beauty calls my name.
My eyes reach for the wooden roof that rests above the clouds.
They were adjusting from my dreams which occupied my mind

My ears are terrified
From the silence made by mother nature knocking on my door
I hear her looking through the window to see if I'm there
but I don't respond because I don’t know if I'm there.

I start walking towards the door
She has her web casted on me as she was luring me to this door
This flimsy door.

I open the door to view what she has to offer
And I offer my eyes to see what she has created.
you see, my eyes are her canvas to paint the meaning in this world

I saw a lake from afar
It's flaunting its blue dress at me
Telling me to come closer for it holds a secret.

I look around and see the path that rest before me
I see the sharp rocks that flood the empty path
I can't turn back because mother nature locked me out of this house

I slowly make my descent down to this lake
My feet are screaming from the rocks.
It feels like I am dancing on top of needles.

I have to stop though I think my feet are bleeding
I stop around Newton’s tree to see where the blood is falling from
but all I got were fruity smells tickling me

Oh ****! I lost my pair of glasses
Without my glasses I will go bananas
But Nature makes my eyes a little clearer

I finally make it to the lake where a dock rests upon my feet
It’s the morning, yet my toes feel so warm.
They seem to be hugging the deck making me frozen still.
But you, mother nature, grabbed my hand and led me.

All the way to the end
The end of this dock
I look behind me and see my loved ones
Floating above the ground

And they were crying
Like they were going to miss me
Will they?

Mother nature whispers for me to jump into the lake
So I face this lake
And
I
Let
Go

Sep 2014 Beebz The Queen

She

Sep 2014 Beebz The Queen

Jason Cirkovic

She

She
She is a *****
no, no not the dog kind
but the one that makes it hard to breath when she is around

She is the reason why I don't tell people who I am
because she uses oil as lipstick
you see my secrets seem to slip out of her mouth
and land in front of people that I don't even know

“ I did not know you were a bad kisser”
Do I, know you?

She is the reason why kids are afraid of monsters in their closets
I remind them not to get close to them
Or they will **** all of the skeletons out of your closet
Show everyone who they really are.

She haunted my nights
Staring at photos that now mean Jack

Then I got this funny feeling
Whenever I see you
Smiling
Looking
Down
ON ME?

You had these eyes
They sang me a beautiful song in a strange language
Telling me that everything will be okay.

We fogged up the car one night
Not because we were having ***
But it was because we were trading music to each other
You sit with me in a book store for three hours
And never look at the time
Because time was on our side

Whenever I'm with you I see time slowing down for us
And our kisses pass stories of embarrassing moments
Religious beliefs
And the brief story of your adventures in Europe.

Every kiss taught me that You are such a keeper
We are like grade school kids
Completely innocent to the slime
That modern dating has become.

She noticed us
She didn't like You and you know what
She was sad because She couldn't pull my strings anymore.
Whenever I saw She
She would be jealous
And you know what
Good, let She!

Sep 2014 Beebz The Queen

You're the reason

Sep 2014 Beebz The Queen

Teenage Mess

You're the reason

You're the reason looking in the mirror is so painful.
I can't even glance at my reflection in fear that you'll be there.
You're the reason i don't let guys touch me.
The thought of feeling the way you made me feel is sickening.
You're the reason dragging the blade across my skin feels so **** good.
Honestly it feels better than remembering what you did to me.
You're the reason suicidal thoughts come so easily.
So please just leave me be.

So this is about my former step dad. um so yeah.

#suicide #cutting #pain #abuse #hurt #suicidal #selfharm #****

Sep 2014 Beebz The Queen

evanescence

Sep 2014 Beebz The Queen

Poppy Johnson

evanescence

you were fleeting
gone
in an instant
but you left scars
on my heart
and in my head
and I don't think
they'll ever fade

Sep 2014 Beebz The Queen

Dammed

Sep 2014 Beebz The Queen

ryn

Dammed

What is this wall
That keeps us in
Over each other, we trip; we fall
We are like fish with no fins

Head on we crash
With fists we beat
We hack and we slash
Screaming, kicking with invisible feet

Blocked we remain
Let us flow
Us you can't contain
Let us go

Strengthened with aggregate
But held back by concrete
Cerebral wall with no gate
We're packed with angry grit

You know we're here
You feel us roiling
You hear us clear
Boiling and brewing

We understand the reason
You deem it necessary
Thinking it would lessen
Subdue the rage and fury

Your illusion of control
Of us, you'd pick the best
Surely you're taking the toll
Of being nothing but suppressed

All of us, we are you
We make you what you are
From the subtlest cue
To the high achieving star

We are many but we are one
Your thoughts and emotions
We are your loaded gun
We're the answer to false pretensions

You can't have us dammed
We've initiated a coup
No...we'll not be ******
Too late...we've broken through

#thoughts #mind #emotions #resistance #protest #oppressed #suppressed