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 Oct 2014 Beebz The Queen
Skylar
Yesterday I really wanted to die
Now I understand why so many get high
They get to forget-
I still haven't found a way to do so yet
I have found a way to not let my tears escape
By taking a blade to my skin,
It allows me to keep my mind off emotional pain
And focus on my physical pain

Depression is like a disease
but we hide it oh so cleverly that no one sees

I tried to tell my father
But it ended up being the day I lost all respect for him
He told me it was a phase
He said I'm overreacting
But I never told him that I tried to take my own life-
Sometime's I wonder if it would even matter if I had been successful
personal,
When did it visit me?
I really don't know when.
It came out of nowhere,
I feel that it's a sin.

Naked in the shower,
washing up clean.
I felt this little lump,
scared and unforeseen.

Feeling all alone,
I looked up to the sky.
Fingers locked together,
I asked the Lord, "Why?"

Now, I lay in silence,
while the tumor grows inside.
Putting up these walls,
all I do is cry.

Months have gone by,
with the chemo and the draws.
The sickness took my *******,
now that's the final straw.

It's been six months now,
I struggled for my life.
I beat the **** cancer.
I AM HAPPY, I WILL SURVIVE!!
My mother is a breast cancer survivor. But I also wrote this for all the survivors and to the ones to whom that lost their battle with this disease!  PLEASE SHARE AND LET THIS TREND!!
 Oct 2014 Beebz The Queen
Autumn
yes mother its tight around my neck I'm all ready to go
is the chair set up?
camera ready?
okay.
bye.
the mother pushes her daughter off her chair, the noise of a cracking neck lingering in the
bitter air.
the body is removed.
the mother watching the entire time, participating even.
family.
tying the noose around her neck.
taking the chair.
ah the love.
dearest you can be sane now, in your dark new home.
all by yourself.
finally.
you can be at peace with what was and will now never be.
thank you.
sweetie, the noose it's all set.
bye.
honey, I love you.
a few chuckles lacking innocence
torment their quiet minds
...
 Oct 2014 Beebz The Queen
Jack
~

Violins sing of purest flame,
alluring harmonies warm the air
Heart beat crescendos keep time
as ember’d flutes whisper beauty
and misty cellos lull wondrous dreams
on the aria of our love

Treble clef desires
curve softly upon your tender heart
while clarinets breathe amorous
melodies of soothing affection,
enchanting serenades
caress our every silent sigh

Forever playing an eternal
symphony of fire,
burning euphonious,
heated temptations
in ever lasting
*orchestral bliss
Inspired by a conversation with an angel who has completely touched my heart
I have written too many


I wont tell you my feelings
I have told them
to many

If telling you and writing to you
would make you believe
I would write a book and read it to you..

But i know it wont be enough
I know it wont be true
Some of it will only be
So that i could make this look good

Good doesn't lasts
And so we wont too
But i know one thing
That you have made me better
That you have made me true

Those words have meaning because they are actually meant for you .
I wont show but i do care for you

I know you are hard to b with ..
I know i am not easy to understand..
But we will try and make this work
Until the pages of it all lasts..
 Oct 2014 Beebz The Queen
Lukas
So the sun loved the moon,
He died everyday to let her live

Every evening the moon would rise
Her beloved sun would set
He would grasp on to the night
He always failed

The moon shed tears
They came to be known as stars
She would sulk in her sorrows
Once every month she was able to escape

And be with her beloved sun
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