There's a feeling I have for you
I think it's love and
Disgust and many other things that
I do not understand

I need to
Express
My emotions
Somewhere

I
Lay with you
And
Want to be
Some place else

if only it were easier to travel
over oceans to be with you
to physically love you with the love
that's built up and overflowed into
the emptiness in me that consists of you
oh how i feel so empty
but so full of love when
it comes to you
and how meeting you would be an experience
one could die for because
i love you that much and i
wholeheartedly believe not many
can say that these days

i look at you
and i feel at home
and when i look at you
my heart feels love and
warmth after all of
the cold it's been suffocating in

You thought it was just a phase
To you, it's meaningless
And something I choose for attention
But you can't understand
How it feels to feel this way
All of the time
You can't escape it and
It becomes very real
You're trapped in your mind,
Madness and sadness
Nothing can really help because
The brainwashing is only temporary
And you're back to your normal
Depressed self

Those nights when
All you can feel is
The self pity drowning your
Entire mind
You're so alone and
Can't find any reason at all
To stick around
I'd be better off somewhere far
Away and nonexistent
Because that's all that I
Truly deserve