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 Jan 2013 Emma
JL
Axis
 Jan 2013 Emma
JL
Somewhere the wiring is crossed
Neurons fire haplessly
Patterns emerge in the chaos
The strongest survive
Again I search for sleep but
The thoughts descend on me like a pack of wolves
**** yourself
Put your hand in the fire and don't pull it out
Concentrate on the pain and you will feel it blossom
It would be so easy
To slip into the endless chain of reincarnation
It seems simple almost childish
To exit this shell
No longer fighting against the current of the river
I gaze at my own face in the mirror
Blind rage and a tear falls from my eye
The monsters gaze back at me
I am a ***** for your acceptance
As if any strangers positive opinion would validate my life
Tonight one last dream
Of your hands white in the moonlight
Soft upon my face
The caress of your voice will keep me from blood
The smell of rain soaked pine needles
I would live here forever with you
No longer sickened by the constant spin of the universe
 Jan 2013 Emma
Hana Gabrielle
Hate
 Jan 2013 Emma
Hana Gabrielle
hate
is a strong word
I assume that's why you use it
hate
is perhaps
the one emotion
I've never felt
 Jan 2013 Emma
Hana Gabrielle
self induced mania
greeting 3am,
hello, my old friend

lately daylight seems surreal

every static breath
revives the throb
of gaping emptiness

obvious, constant screaming
unfinished
incomplete
howling

muffled by
harmful habits
daydreams
and shallow company

crawling from distraction
to distraction
to sleep
but even in dreams
I find
only temporary relief
My clock, my watch,
I watch my clock.
The whip, the chains
The weight, the lock.
No time to lose,
I lose my time.
Wish I could take
The time to shake
and break this watch of mine.
 Jan 2013 Emma
JL
Do you really
Blowing smoke into my face
In my pocket a razor blade
I run my finger against it
Pick anything
Anything you want

Cough Syrup
Cigarettes
Liquor
As if you weren't white trash enough

Walk in
You are calm and no one cares
Pick anything
Anything and walk out
You own it

Some lie to themselves
Pseudophilisophical teenage masturbations
As if shoving a couple cold beers into your boxer shorts
And downing a bottle of robo in the toy section of wal-mart
yeah bro, youv'e totally thrown a wrench into the gears of the corporate machine while we drink these cold cans of beer that were pressed against your *****

Marijuana
I wish I was alive for once
Then I wouldn't waste my time typing poems on my cellphone
While you finger your girlfriend on the couch
Sleeping on the floor is great for a while
You appreciate a safe place to sleep
Something different than the bus seats and train stations

I wish the universe didn't
Whose idea was this whole life thing anyway

Tomorrow you will wake up
And stealing DVDs from Best Buy will consume the day
I found a little bag of ****
And we are kings
Of a personnel universe
Your girlfriend
Is
eighteen
She still thinks I'm cool
Cause my General Education Diploma
I hate everything in my life
It's all breaking apart
The seams I have carefully sewn
I need to get out of here
I am tired of January
Appreciate each moment
Appreciate each moment
Because the tumor on my brain waits on nobody
I cant overcome the sense of meaninglessness
It's just the comedown
Xanax
Cigarettes 1:12 a.m
1:13 a.m
Follow my noble eightfold path to oblivion
#1 go **** yourself
 Jan 2013 Emma
JL
The Ego
 Jan 2013 Emma
JL
Wonders what you may think of me
Did you feel it? A slight tremor in the puddle of consciousness
I! ME! MY!
Mother and father. School. Society.
Impressively the walls were built
Brick by brick lain in ignorance.
It is just that subtle. The voice whispering in the mind
Who are you?
Enlightened to my own selfishness
A sense of meaninglessness
I shall overcome. I will walk the path of my choosing, and if any other (soul) shall join me I will share my allotted portion of love that this universe has granted me
The ego shed
IwasworriedaboutajobandagirlfriendandifImattertoanyoneatall
­The walls crumble and I am free now to taste beauty of each moment.
 Jan 2013 Emma
BarelyABard
You told me that I would never be abandoned.

Tell that to the boy I left behind.

Because he never knew what friendship was until God appeared in the form of harsh words.

Now he doesn't know what to say.
 Jan 2013 Emma
Darkin
An open heart
 Jan 2013 Emma
Darkin
Write in the fields,
hold your sister close,
everything is changing
and you are going to be whisked away.
She will smile at you when your hands part ways
and the auctioneer casts the final decision.
Sold.
Ownership of persons has split bodies,
but the love permeates through time.
In a smile, love rides everything.

And in another place, the invaders ride over the horizon,
and we melt into the hill side.
No one can catch us singing in the wind.
No one will harm us dancing in the sun.

Laughter is the best medicine, even in
the somber circles of ascension.
Stalks of grass pulse with our hearts.


In the fires, we all become ash and the space in between.
Like it's said with everything.
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