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Jul 2017 Elliott

Empty

Jul 2017 Elliott

morning glory

Empty

A ghost of what I used to be,
though I'm not quite sure what that was.
She likes the rain because it
reminds her that even something
as beautiful as the sky is allowed to cry, too.
Skeletal hands trace the space where fire meets ice.
She was a freshly bloomed rose,
one look and I was hooked, but
I shed blood every time we touched.
My words ghost right past my lips
and she doesn't know that I like the rain
because it reminds me of her tears on
the day she left me. A little peice of her
in every small and watery drop.

God, I miss you.
It hasn't stopped raining since you left.

#love #her #heartbreak #lonely #depression #suicide #rain #run #sky #nature

Jul 2017 Elliott

Untitled

Jul 2017 Elliott

Jellyfish

Untitled

From one mood to another,
it's always "fun" being on a roller coaster.

#moody #roller #coaster

Jul 2017 Elliott

She.

Jul 2017 Elliott

Ember

She.

She breathed in and out came cotton candy clouds

She laughed and music notes danced out of her mouth

She didn't just exist she lived.

She didn't wait for an answer she made her own question instead.

She wasn't trouble like they say

She was happy simplicity

Am I allowed to look at her like that?

To want her sun loved skin to touch mine

Am I allowed to want her?

My own breath was fog

My laugh a brick falling to the ground, heavy

My own hands calloused and rough from the work of surviving.

It's a long way home but I'm willing to walk all that way to her.

She is what I want.
She is what is good in this world.
She is what I need.
She isn't what they say.
She's mine.

Sometimes you see the one

#gay #love

Jul 2017 Elliott

A Wonderful Woman

Jul 2017 Elliott

Xander

A Wonderful Woman

Saw Wonder Woman.
I am really gay for my
love, Diana Prince.

#wonderwoman #gay #lgbt #movie

Jul 2017 Elliott

Triangle

Jul 2017 Elliott

Kristine Funch Lodge

Triangle

She walks like a ballet dancer
headed for a fight.
Hands in pockets,
elbows akimbo,
the whole a pair of isosceles triangles
balanced above the rapid
heel/toe heel/toe
rocking grace of her strides.

She knows--
where she goes, who she is
what she wants.

#love #lgbt #lesbian

Jul 2017 Elliott

Dough

Jul 2017 Elliott

Kristine Funch Lodge

Dough

I worry myself,
pushing and punching my anxiety,
seeking some transformation
some alchemy to remove it,
sticking, stuck,
from my fingers.

Instead, it spreads,
thickens, fat
strands of yeast
linking, tangling,
then rising
in the space I give it.

A question--how to let it rest
so my bread isn't
tough, sour in my mouth
rich but nourishing,
filling/fulfilled?

who can resist a bread metaphor?

#life #anxiety #metaphors #bread #baking

Jul 2017 Elliott

Washing Day

Jul 2017 Elliott

Kristine Funch Lodge

Washing Day

In this time of change
When I'm spun around
Turned inside out,
wrung and twisted
with all these
old clothes
that don't fit
and show all the holes and tears
that are the product of this life

When I'm waiting for the spin cycle
to wind itself down
I try to remember
Your love is always there.

Jul 2017 Elliott

New Vocabulary

Jul 2017 Elliott

Kristine Funch Lodge

New Vocabulary

I need a new vocabulary
to describe happiness now.

I didn't expect it,
the need for new words
to say "I love you."

But why not
since it means,
you mean,
how much more
than the sum total
of what was before?

Not to be measured out,
counted and qualified,
but felt along the
fibers of my heart.

I say those words
with a new clarity ,
a depth and humility,
springing up
from my heart

not the mouthings,
vain whispers,
of others' dreams.

Woken up now
I speak happiness
that is mine.

#life #love #lgbt #happy #happiness #hope

Jul 2017 Elliott

The impact of her

Jul 2017 Elliott

Moeshfiekah

The impact of her

She loved me even as I stopped loving her. Years later and still the same. So I had to text her and tell her , another had my heart and she broke all over again. I wanted her in my life still but not the way she wanted me in hers. With words I never wanted to say. My lips uttered coldly "you have to move on" as they left my lips I wanted to shout I didn't mean it. I want you in my life I want you here I want to see you. But I never did . So with her last goodbyes and her final words "I love you" that was all needed to be said. And I felt it all. I felt the love she had for me all these years all that was hidden under her mask and I looked at myself and a single tear fell . I then felt the pain,the hurt ,the heartbreak. All of which she had to carry along for so long.
So I turned in agony and switched off my phone , she had come and gone so fast but I deserve to feel what she felt years before.

This is about a girl who's ex girlfriend still loved her. She forget about her but never truly and one day she found her number but wanted to be friends but soon realized the ex was still in love so she didn't want to hurt her again because she already had someone . She told her ex to move on but in the end she felt all that was felt by the ex with simple words of "I love you"

#pastlove #pastlife #lostlove #forgottenlove