I knew from that moment on
every word and every phrase and every sentence
thought up in my head and emitted from my fingers
would turn into cadaverous dead bodies
that would turn into silhouetted skeletons
that would turn into fine powder blowing in the wind
that would disappear into a deep and dark abyss
deeper than any abandoned tire in an old forest
and darker than the pupils of my eyes
I knew I would be forever forgotten

I watch the world turn; it turns to night--
My masks wear burns; I scorn the fight--
Night bleeds and away it dies.
Then day's reborn with a rebuilt disguise.

I watch the skies go red through dreary eyes,
My flesh feels fake from all the lies.
Dusk creeps in and peels to truth,
And I take to the night with jagged tooth.

There's little left to pray or beg for,
Not when your face is not your own.
There's little hope when you're their *****,
Not when your skin's gone cold as stone.

I watch the clouds burn in crimson skies;
My real self trembles behind my eyes.
I'm left as less a man, though more a god;
One who, though so perfect, is so flawed.

I sail through utter silence
Words are ceased
And thoughts freezed
Nothing more remains to be said, I reckon
Or there is too much
Yes
It is too much
that words cant capture
thoughts cant express
yet it flows
like an ocean which moves from shore to shore
and never finds an abode...

She reads
                                          And she sleeps
                                                      Way too much
                                                            ­           It's her coping defence
                                                                ­               When nothing else will suffice
                                                         ­               She needs to get away
                                                       Without actually leaving
                                             Because she's too scared
                                   And too tired
                                            To leave her bed
                                                      So she cracks open a book
                                                            ­     To escape somewhere far away
                                                            ­             And she'll sob for the characters
                                                      ­                       Whose brokenness resembles hers
                                                            ­                                   And then she'll sleep
                                                           ­                                   And have sweet dreams
                                                          ­              Of realities that are not her own
                                                       Because pretending is so much easier
                                                 Than facing reality
                             So she'll sleep and dream
          And secretly wish she won't wake up
So she can finally escape

On depression
                     I float
                     All day and night

The horizon? I’ve seen no such thing
The skyscrapers and condos barricade the shore like a picket fence
A crackling fire dancing alone in the woods? you hit your head?
With the flick of a switch you get the luxuries of light warmth and course; cellphone reception
Dude you have to stop complicating your life. He said
Listen man…Who needs lakes and springs when you have pools and hot tubs
Why walk or run, when driving is so much fun
Why read or write theirs a **** television in sight
What’s singing and dancing to techno and grinding?
How else do yeah fix the ugly? Without makeup and Gucci
Love?... Love?
Who the **** needs love, as long as she’s got a little leg and some cleavage you'll **** her to pieces
Man, what are ya? Depressed or something?
No I just… want to feel human
Buddy, this is the human


****..he’s got a point

Do you see that light?
It's straight ahead,
Do you see it?

Can you feel that breeze?
It all around.
Do you feel it?

Do you smell the salty air?
It’s from the escaping sea.
Do you smell it?

If not, you aren't alone.
I only know what I've been told.
But it sounds beautiful doesn't it?
It sounds like a world of hopes.
A world I couldn't even dream.

Life
Life
Life
What is life?
Greens reds and blues?
Blacks And whites for those deprived
Tints and hues.
Separation and unity
Combined from seperate views
In one as conformity
For passion
For love
For fashion
For hate
For fake
And for fate
We dress and we wine
We stress and we shine

stars they say
Scars the soul
As it heals in a way
Lies we are told
Lies we believe
Lies we repeat
Lies we never achieve
Lies we defeat
The truth indeed-
Without a doubt
Will set us free
Yet we scream and shout
We scream and shout...

Hidden in a box
Hidden In lies
Wisdom in detox
Purpose dies
Drugs stuck
Freedom a game
Of nothing but luck
Wilderness wildly tame