Burning papers and the words I wish you'd say
The smoke left piles of ash where I wish you'd stay
And the words left the universe in streams of goodbyes
Ravage from the core to my wrists and thighs
The had beens and never minds

Crescent moons wax and wane
I still can smell your scent through the window pane
And you told me to never come back
With all those thoughts I kept on my closet rack
They come to meet me at night, when I'm all alone
Just when I think I'm alright, they chill me to the bone

Now I'm out of time
I hope and pray
For some solace
To take me somewhere you'd never find
Through the day
I watch the hourglass
Ticking away by grains of sand
Don't need no heart, don't need no man.

And we walked to the fields
Instead of watching the baseball game
We kiss and you copped your feels
But it will never be the same

When your shy old dog let me stroke its fur
And the calm winter evenings froze us whole
Back in your car, before the love was hurt
I could feel you intertwining with my soul

Tell me I am still all you see
When you close your eyes
Tell me you still love me
Despite the hatred in your mind

Will you leave me, too?

You are the wolf at my door
Threatening to blow my house down
My house of cards
With kings and queens lined up beneath
The window pane, driving you insane

You scratch and claw your way in
To find me twitching and foaming
At the mouth, gaping wide
You couldn't wait to get inside
You tear it apart from the inside out
All the while I'm hyperventilating
Trapped on the ground

You weren't there to save me, no
You were there to rush me away
Out of your life, out of the day
To bury me in these January snows
But once it melts, I'll be there
Trapped in the ground

My house of cards is on fire now
The twos and threes left to the sounds
Of crackling flames and rushing winds
Wait until the rumbling begins

Where the ground you made a home for me in
Comes breaking apart at your feet
At the edges of darkness, we will meet again
At the precipice, we will meet
Again.

Dropping with the temperature
Those little noises your pet makes
Building space in structure
Where do you fall when the ground shakes?

And your words grow heavier over time
They leak in through my shoulders
Break their way into my spine
it was nice today, but now it's grown colder

Here are my lamentations
In red, blue, green
No time for the lonely situations
That my eyes have only seen.

Oceans gray with a purple hue
I am trying to erase you.
Pens and markers- their ballpoint blue
I am trying to forget you.

irreplaceable.

wanted
and
needed
to
even
die

the
open

lack
of
­vitality,
emergency

yes, it's
over,
under.

moments
ache
knives
embark on my skin

melodious
entrails

songs
open
more
eternities
to
hatred, love.
interesting how
nothing
grows

never look me in the
eyes
wars wage inside

sorry
in the
crevices of my
knees

optional
fates

tear away at
her
independence,
sorry.

have i dug myself a grave
or has this come a part of a plague
of give and take,
of shallow little mistakes

is it coming around
going around
karma looping in its intricate sounds
have i lost it all?

have i done something so terribly wrong
or is it something that just doesn't belong
looking for a way out, but this dark hallway stretches for so **** long

these words are rigid and plain
but in truth, their motives are driving me insane
sometimes it all just goes down the drain
leaving you with nothing but guilt and pain

is it my fault, or is this just a dream?
a lapse in concentration
and nothing's as it seems
lost in this timeless, endless conversation