i've been having recurring dreams
of the beach
last night you were there too
lying in the shore, just me and you

the drink you poured all over me
missing the love we shared
but so you remind me, it was never there
loveless records play on repeat

so it was lust
wrapped in a gentle breeze
with each exhale we must
remember what we want to be

these words are growing tired and old
and my hands have gotten frigid and cold
this has been going on for far too long
replaying like some worn out song

the radio sings to me
these stupid songs they always repeat
i cannot wait to meet
the one to set me soaring free.

you threw me away
wish i could do the same
cause baby you'll never hate me
the way i do

ocean shores are begging for me
to come and drown at sea
don't really care what comes as eternity
how bout you?

you told me not to hate it
just go ahead and change it
well babe i've sure been trying to tame it
could you do the same?

watch me as i go
down a loophole, i'll put on a show
you are my high, you are my low
i'll go away now

if you're going to call me easy
for giving all i have to give
then perhaps you don't deserve my pleasantries
i'm not quite sure where to begin.

formidable in your fleeting ways
i come crawling from beneath the sheets
of the earth's gentle waves
my lips trailing down
from your head
to your feet

and maybe this love is dead,
darling
but that's no reason to say what you have said.
scarring
my thighs and taciturn wrists
my heart goes racing after
the taste of your lips

letting go ain't so easy
for this star crossed lover
for you, it seems as simple as breathing
while i lie under covers
in your bed
in your home
on your street
on my knees
i'm running red
now, why don't you pick up the phone

it appears i've caught a cold
in those winter winds
it appears my antics have grown old
after all, i'm just a kid

what are you, where are you,
my lovely young wanderer?
i didn't mean to smother you
possessive is just part of my nature.

where you tread
alive or dead
i will follow you.

Hang your head in dissolution
We are victims of evolution.
Do you hide behind your lost ruminations?
Have you kept your heart delicately sanctioned?

Keep your words to a minimum
No ones really listening.
We are all lost in ad infinitum
With coal black souls, glistening.

Are the chains tight enough
On your scar tissue wrists?
Has the blade grown dull, the skin grown tough,
Have you lost yourself yet, to the autumn mists?

It gets cold around here
I suppose it's about that time of year
When the leaves fall, torn and halved
These winter winds could drive a man mad.

Keep watching for words
You never sought to hear
Eyes to the skies, envying the birds
For all the distance they're yet to clear.

do you listen for the things that are not there?
sighs in the dark, in the cold crisp air.
there is not life among us, here.
sheathe your long-life'd fear.

keep it simple, dear one
lose yourself in the dark night
find yourself in the bright lights
spend your evenings chasin' the sun

recover from the emptiness
decaying from within
you must accept, not suppress
the bottom echoing again.

and when you've found it,
the place of no return
there's no doubts about it
forward you must go, so you will begin to learn

about a world lying at your feet
above everything you've been running from
all these years, they've been dying to meet
your shining heart, and it's reverberating hum

don't question the facts,
young one
sit back and relax,
bite your tongue.

the eyeliner
i left on your pillow
will haunt you
for days

the system
is breaking down
i cannot see straight anymore
the mystery
is an open frown
i cannot feel bad for a sorry *****.

scream the words like you cannot
speak any softer
and remember how i fought
for you to love me after
i stabbed you in the neck
with my depressive borderline destruction

do not break
my darling soul
live past me
and love

do not hate
my love is full
run away, fast from me
and the angels call from above

do your eyes ever gaze past everything
straight into nothing?
can you see anything there, still?

does your mind graze the evergreen
as it soars out of your body?
does it ever land on me?

do your hands match the finger prints
i've left on your skin?
do you want to feel them again?

does your body twitch and itch with loneliness,
does it, tell me this,
do you feel it when it's missed?

i'm feeling pretty sullen
left alone.
i've been trying real hard to pretend
then i'm not so prone
to death and all it's ends
i just watch the sun and all the places it's shone
messages left to pend
my heart is solid as stone
shattered, and it depends
on you, alone

my mistake
was letting you in
my heart break
will never wear thin
so, stay
my darlin,
wash away
my sins