oh how i wish you could patch me up like you want to,
if only i'd let you,
if only i could do it for myself.
oh silly boy
i may be raining on the outside
but inside there's a hurricane.
it's so much more than skin deep.

where were you.

am i in love with you
or am i in love with the idea of being in love with you

are you in love with me
or are you just in love with the attention i give you

do i love you
or do you just make me feel a little less alone
and i haven't felt "together" in a long time so i think i love you

do you love me
or do i just make you feel like you're worth something
and you crave my validation so you think you love me too

are we in love
do we love each other
do we want each other

or do we just need each other
to patch up the holes other people left behind

yes, loving you
was a mistake but
never has guilt tasted so good
until
"hello" was painted across your lips.

oh baby
kiss me under a midnight sun,
a full moon,
a garden of stars.
replace the neurons in my brain
with phantom thoughts of you.
i want your name
d r i p p i n g
from my tongue like honey.
shower me in your words,
let me bathe in your stanzas
and drown in the syllables that escape your frozen lips.
the passion consumes me,
your eyes ensnare me,
oh baby,
let me be your queen.

we wrote more poetry
in the wrinkles of your sheets
in one night than
I have written in the pages
of my journal all year

i crave you
like an addict
searching for their fix
oh sweetheart
relapse
has never tasted so sweet

s.s