I never knew how scary love could be to me.

Avoiding reality
Is the normality
Of my formality

Wasted away
I'm unaware of today
Unsure what to say

My mind is twirling
As I'm hurling
My fists curling

I'm gone again
As I continue to pretend
That this isn't the end

I'm sorry I could not love you
through all of your endless metaphors
or in all the ways you handed me words
of what your heart had in store.

I'm sorry I could not love you
when you loved me with so much magic.
I'm sorry somehow I made you realize
that fairy tales did not happen.

I'm sorry I could not love you
for your hands or for your eyes,
for the way you kept me laughing
or for the way you loved my smile.

I'm sorry I could not love you
and you decided to say goodbye.
But now here I sit and write
remembering your lullabies.

I'm sorry now for telling the truth-
but this has become a tragedy.
I'm sorry I only learned to love you
when you had stopped loving me.

You're waking up next to skin and bones
Because my souls become stone
You're now basically alone

I am a drained out body
My emotions have spilt across the floor
And my mind has gone scattering out the door

I don't love you anymore.