Ashly Kocher: Poems

Drowning

Ashly Kocher Mar 2019

Drowning

Ever feel like your
D
R
O
W
N
I
N
G
But nowhere near
W
A
T
E
R....

Drowning

Ashly Kocher Apr 2017

Drowning

Tears falling down my face
Drowning in my own fears
One day my eyes will be dry
But for now I will try and get by

Drowning

Ashly Kocher Jun 2019

Drowning

Capsized boat
Drowning in fear
All alone
Since you left us here
Were left just drowning
In our puddle of tears

Drowning Alive

Ashly Kocher May 2021

Drowning Alive

Captivated by your eyes
Swimming through life in disguise
Drowning in all of your lies
It’s time to cut the cord, cut the ties
I’m walking on water, once again
Feeling so alive..

Drowning out

Ashly Kocher Nov 2017

Drowning out

Blast the music up real LOUD
Drown out the insanity of the world around
Get
L
O
S
T
          in the lyrics
Dance your heart out...
            Forget you
                            even exist
Just for a couple songs
As you get lost in the words of another artists thoughts

Drowning Tears

Ashly Kocher Nov 2020

Drowning Tears

To
Drown in your
Own tears or
Float on the top
Can’t hold the water
Of all these emotions I’ve got
But I chose to let it go
Let them flow
Catching them one
D
R
O
P
At a time
For then I can
HEAL
in
Hopes of moving on..

Drug Addict

Ashly Kocher Apr 2019

Drug Addict

I am lost
I need to mask the pain
Grab a straw
Snort some *******
Feel the powder
Hit my nose
Instant relief
I need another dose
Only have five minutes
Seeing double digits
Need toothpicks for my eyes
Feeling so heavy
This is my demise
Can’t keep my story straight
Or for that matter my lies
But, oh this feeling, so weightless and free
Wait, not free, draining all my money from me
I don’t care, it’s helping me cope
I need to get my hands on more dope
Give me, give me, give me more
This sweet stuff is making me soar
Trying to act normal
No one suspects
****, I have no money to pay for my rent...

I am lost
I need to mask the pain
Grab a straw
Snort some *******....

Give me, give me, give me more

Drug Addict

Ashly Kocher Jun 2019

Drug Addict

You reached your hand
Out to me
Reluctantly
I opened my heart
To give you support
Wow, was I a fool
To think you wanted to
Restart
Restart your life
Turn a new page
**** I’m the idiot
To think your over
That faze
You went to AA
Because you “were “ an addict
Yes (were) no wait
YOU ARE an ADDICT
Lie to my face
You are a disgrace
We smelled the ****
You can not lie
Oh look, your falling back into your old life
Don’t tell me that your sober anymore
Your sobriety is over
Whenever I look at you
All I see is a walking “drugstore”

Drying teardrops

Ashly Kocher Jan 2019

Drying teardrops

Teardrops drying on my shirt and pants
Leaving black stains running down my face
All because I miss you so much

Dying

Ashly Kocher Mar 2019

Dying

When you see someone you care about, who is literally deteriorating and dying in front of your eyes, you try and bring as much love and joy to the rest of their life...

Eagle

Ashly Kocher Dec 2018

Eagle

The eagle has come with a message...
.....wondering what that message is....
....stay tuned.....

Earth is our Blanket

Ashly Kocher Dec 2018

Earth is our Blanket

The earth is our blanket
Even though we may not see
The comfort from the world
Protecting me
Even with disasters and unforeseen events
It’s makes us grow stronger
In the end

Earthquake

Ashly Kocher Mar 2019

Earthquake

You make my body shake, like there’s a sudden earthquake

Easter

Ashly Kocher Apr 2017

Easter

Different colored eggs are scattered in the grass
Children are running down the path
To see what the bunny has left
It won't be long but just wait for the mess
Easter isn't about candy and fun
He died and rose for us, that's the real story of where it has begun...

Easter

Ashly Kocher Apr 2019

Easter

Easter
It’s not about the candy
It’s not about the bunny
It’s not about the plastic eggs
Filled up with (alcohol) or money
It’s about the one who gave up his life
To give each one of us life
Remember that first, everything else is secondary
Happy Easter

Easter

Ashly Kocher Apr 2020

Easter

Today we celebrate Easter a little differently
Most, if not all of us, not surrounded by family
Our homes and dinner tables are “empty” and “quiet “
It all seems so strange, you can’t deny it
But one thing remains
That we can all stop and pray
For peace and healing for everyone today
On this Easter Sunday, just as he resurrected for us, may we all rise above this uneasy feeling, so that we may all begin to have proper healing...

Happy Easter!
May today bring you comfort and love forthcoming with your friends and family to reunite soon, someday...

Edge of the Water

Ashly Kocher Aug 2021

Edge of the Water

Take me to the edge of the water
Where there’s no end in sight
Yet the sight is unseen
When you dream big and believe

Election

Ashly Kocher Oct 2020

Election

When one battle
ENDS
Another uproar will
BEGIN
It’s like closing a
B R O K E N
Door that never really shuts right...

Electricity

Ashly Kocher Nov 2017

Electricity

Electricity illuminating through the air
Small fireworks paint colors into the dark sky
Pure bliss for us to deliver our ideas
To light up the sky for everyone to see

Eleven years with you

Ashly Kocher Aug 2019

Eleven years with you

You grabbed my hand
Like you had this all plan
But it was just in moment
Which to me was a godsend
Eleven years ago, you took a chance
Since then my heart has danced
Everyday has been an adventure with you
Can’t wait to see where life takes us
Making more memories together....
With you....

Embrace It

Ashly Kocher Feb 2022

Embrace It

Embrace the beauty that surrounds us.
Open our hearts to be filled with love and open your eyes to seek out the little signs that are being given to us from above…

Embrace the Day

Ashly Kocher Jul 2019

Embrace the Day

Close your eyes
Reflect on your day
Dreams take you on a journey of come what may
Eyes open wide
Smile on your face
Place your feet on the ground
Embrace the day

Embrace the Day

Ashly Kocher Jul 2018

Embrace the Day

Close your eyes
Reflect on your day
Dreams take you on a journey of come what may
Eyes open wide
Smile on your face
Place your feet on the ground
Embrace the day

Embrace The Day

Ashly Kocher Jul 2017

Embrace The Day

Close your eyes
Reflect on your day
Dreams take you on a journey of come what may
Eyes open wide
Smile on your face
Place your feet on the ground
Embrace the day

Emotional

Ashly Kocher Nov 2019

Emotional

I’m very emotional
I don’t know why
In a drop of a hat
I will instantly cry
For no reason at all
What’s going on
No one really cares
I just don’t know what’s wrong
Maybe I just need to make a call....
Is Heaven long distance
Probably so

Emotional Rollercoaster

Ashly Kocher Dec 2020

Emotional Rollercoaster

I have a lot of feelings I am working through, I wanted to be honest with you. If I didn’t have a miscarriage back in May, I would be holding my baby today. Finally having a family with Brent, making you an Aunt. I’m sorry it ended in such a horrible way. I feel a disconnect in my heart, I need to find me again, but that’s the hard part. I know in my heart, that I am ok, but this emotional rollercoaster haunts me everyday. I don’t talk about it much, I hide how I feel, but you are the one person that I can be truthful too. It *****, it rough, I feel worthless at times, but I’m trying to be positive as much as I can. I am sorry again but I want to thank you for ALWAYS being there for me and us.

I wrote this for someone who is very close to me. Pouring out my emotions is hard, but she is one person that I can be completely open and honey with.

Emotional Rollercoaster

Ashly Kocher Oct 2019

Emotional Rollercoaster

To be happy and sad at the same time
This emotional rollercoaster has no rhythm or rhyme

Emotions

Ashly Kocher Jul 2018

Emotions

Emotions running wild
Excited
Happy
Sad
Anxious
Laughing
Crying
Did I mention excited?

Only to be let down...

Ever have these emotions at the same time?

Emotions in Disguise

Ashly Kocher Aug 2019

Emotions in Disguise

I see the tears billowing in your eyes like a fog filled street covering your own demise trying to hide your emotions in disguise

Emptiness

Ashly Kocher May 2019

Emptiness

Emptiness
Starving for attention
Trying to protect my aggression
Feeling like a ball and chain
No resistance from this pain
Crawling out of my skin
Crying tears within
Someone please send help
Before I completely fall in...

Emptiness in our Hearts

Ashly Kocher Aug 2019

Emptiness in our Hearts

Trying to put into words
This massive pain in my heart
But also remembering the extra 6 months
We were able to share, make memories and give love
We know your happy, free of pain and having fun
But this emptiness in our hearts, hurts so much...

Emptiness on this Father’s Day

Ashly Kocher Jun 2018

Emptiness on this Father’s Day

Empty chair
Empty wine glass
Emptiness in my heart
Photographs for memories
Broken hearts, missing you
A poem, a writing, a song, a cardinal, a butterfly, a penny, a dream....
All these things remind me of you
A strong and hard working man you were
I have the same traits, as I live for you
I hope I am making you proud in all I do
I talk to you everyday
          Do you even hear me?
In my heart, I know you do!
Even though you are no longer here
Believe me, it’s been a hard almost 4 years
Another day we celebrate YOU
For on this Father’s Day
I send my love to heaven for you
Broken memories will never fade away
I wish I had more time, wish you would have stayed
Unfortunately you were sick and there was nothing left to do
So I told you to close your eyes, relax and just let go
It was he hardest thing I ever had to do
But I am thankful I have many years, so today it’s all about you

An empty chair
An empty wine glass
An emptiness in my heart
Photographs for memories
Broken hearts, missing you...

         Happy Father’s Day Papa Bear

Empty

Ashly Kocher Apr 2020

Empty

Empty classrooms
                       Empty buildings
                Empty studios
         Empty gyms
Empty churches
             Empty restaurants
                     Empty bars
      Empty feelings from within
Empty homes
Empty beaches
Empty birthdays
Empty celebrations
Empty world
Empty life
But what’s not empty is our hearts full of love and drive....

Even though everything is (empty) emptiness causes happiness when oneself emerges from a dark place and overcomes the battle to find that dim light at the end of the tunnel...

Empty

Ashly Kocher Mar 2020

Empty

Empty minds
Shallow hearts
Rattling brains
Fallen apart

Empty Arms

Ashly Kocher May 2023

Empty Arms

Todays the day
Three years ago
You went away
Never knowing I had you
Until it was too late

I never got to meet you
Since I was saying goodbye as soon as we met....

My arms are empty and my heart is heavy..

5-11-20

Three years since my miscarriage. Stilled not healed and comprehend why…

Empty Arms

Ashly Kocher Sep 2020

Empty Arms

I would be due in a little
Over a month but I’m just left
With empty arms...

Wrote this in my last poem and it hit hard for me...
Sending my love to anyone who has had to encounter this pain of losing a baby at any stage of life.

Empty Arms ( repost)

Ashly Kocher Sep 2020

Empty Arms ( repost)

I would be due in a little
Over a month but I’m just left
With empty arms and a broken heart...

Wrote this in my last poem and it hit hard for me...
Sending my love to anyone who has had to encounter this pain of losing a baby at any stage of life.

Reposting this since it didn’t get a lot of notice and this piece is powerful.

Empty Bench in the Woods

Ashly Kocher Mar 2018

Empty Bench in the Woods

Walks deep into the woods
Full of bright colors
No one is around but woodland creatures
Come across an empty bench
A little red cardinal sitting on the edge
I sit down, take a deep breath, close my eyes
I talk to the one I miss everyday
Dad, I miss you
I hope your doing ok up in Heaven
I talk to you all the time
Do you hear me?
Dad, I love you....

The cardinal flies and lands on my shoulder
Whispers in my ear
“I love you too”
Flies away...

Tears fall down my face
As I watch my dad fly back up to his “Home”
To watch over me each and everyday...

To find a quiet place surrounded my nature and talk to the loved ones you have passed on...

Empty Christmas

Ashly Kocher Dec 2020

Empty Christmas

As so many are blessed with their bundles of joy, or their happy announcements of expecting, I am reflecting on journey over the past several months. I have been blessed through an emotional time in my life. Something I never thought would happen for my husband and I, finally did, but ended up with sadness. This should be our first Christmas with “our little one” yet the unbearable pain knowing that we don’t have it is indescribable. As I am overjoyed for all of those with their little ones or their expecting announcements, I can’t help but feel jealousy and sadness.
If I can take anything from our situation, this is what I personally have learned...
I am blessed. We are blessed. Even under the circumstances. It is hard, frustrating and leaves us feeling empty, but a miracle did happen. That’s the positive within the negative. You’ll always be in our hearts and even though you never made it here, you are always with us.
Merry Christmas 💜

Empty Churches

Ashly Kocher Apr 2020

Empty Churches

On this Easter Sunday....
....The churches maybe closed and empty....
But God is always open and listening no matter where you may be.....

Empty Conversations

Ashly Kocher Jan 2020

Empty Conversations

Spinning on broken wheels
One
On
One
Empty
Conversations
If you only talk to yourself
You can only let
Yourself
Down
Opening up
Feeling another’s support
Can help fix you
Fix those broken wheels
Fill up those empty conversations
Heal opened wombs
Giving you peace of mind
One conversation
May help heal you at this time...

Empty Eyes

Ashly Kocher Mar 2019

Empty Eyes

Looking into the emptiness of your eyes
Hearing nothing come out of your mouth but lies
How do you keep all your stories straight
A pathological liar I guess is your fate
Turn on the “charm” when your deep in high water
Yet fall back into the slump of your twisted stories and sorrow
How do you live with yourself being this way
I’m done, I’m fed up, I don’t give a **** what you say

Empty Eyes (repost)

Ashly Kocher Mar 2019

Empty Eyes (repost)

Looking into the emptiness of your eyes
Hearing nothing come out of your mouth but lies
How do you keep all your stories straight
A pathological liar I guess is your fate
Turn on the “charm” when your deep in high water
Yet fall back into the slump of your twisted stories and sorrow
How do you live with yourself being this way
I’m done, I’m fed up, I don’t give a **** what you say

Empty Feelings

Ashly Kocher May 2020

Empty Feelings

Sometimes things appear then disappear
Leaving you with unanswered questions or leaving you in fear
Wondering why and where did it go
Just like a butterfly drifting away suddenly as the wind blows
Never knowing
Empty feelings
Emotional rollercoaster
Ghostly occurrences
One minute there, the next gone
What is the feeling?
Is it wrong?
Happy yet sad
Heartbroken yet positive
Sometimes things appear then disappear
For the timing is right but also wrong
Looking for the silver lining within all of this sadness, (happiness) and fear of it all...

Empty Feelings ( repost)

Ashly Kocher May 2020

Empty Feelings ( repost)

Sometimes things appear then disappear
Leaving you with unanswered questions or leaving you in fear
Wondering why and where did it go
Just like a butterfly drifting away suddenly as the wind blows
Never knowing
Empty feelings
Emotional rollercoaster
Ghostly occurrences
One minute there, the next gone
What is the feeling?
Is it wrong?
Happy yet sad
Heartbroken yet positive
Sometimes things appear then disappear
For the timing is right but also wrong
Looking for the silver lining within all of this sadness, (happiness) and fear of it all...

I reposted this because it didn’t get to be seen by slot of people and this is a great message to be seen.

Empty House

Ashly Kocher Aug 2019

Empty House

Today is the first day I’m home alone
Since the day we had to say goodbye to you too soon
Today you made your presence known
That I really am not alone
I still can’t believe that you are gone
The house feels so empty
It’s not real
It feels wrong
Keep reminding us everyday
That your still with us in every way
We miss and love you buddy
This I hope you know
You’ll always be in our hearts
It was just your time to go...

First time I’m home alone since our cat passed away...

Empty Wine Bottle

Ashly Kocher Sep 2020

Empty Wine Bottle

A empty wine bottle isn’t just empty it’s a work of art
It relaxes your mind and lets you speak right from the heart...

Encouragement

Ashly Kocher Nov 2018

Encouragement

Hey...

Hey you....

Yeah you reading this.....

You are loved
You are amazing
You are beautiful
You are worthy
You are blessed

Your welcome
Hope you have an amazing day!

Love,
A friend

End and Beginning

Ashly Kocher May 2019

End and Beginning

Is the end really the end or the end of a new beginning, beginning with someone else end to begin anew