A major work of art is showing how much love your heart can hold…

With each passing day
The feeling of becoming a mother
Is slipping further away

I could write about a million things
But the one in a million things I write about is
               You

Should I keep writing
Should I give up
Am I wasting my time
It’s just never enough
People read to much into my work
Some is real
Some is fiction
Some is just a play on words
I don’t think I’m great
I don’t think I’m grand
But hey, I love it and I do the best I can
Almost 1000 poems in a little over a year
I don’t want to pat myself on the back
But I want to cheer
Thank you to all
Who have followed me and liked my work
It is much appreciated
So I guess I’ll continue to write

I’m sorry I had to leave
I’m sorry you blame yourself
I’m sorry the timing just wasn’t right
I’m sorry I left you in pain
I know you feel broken inside, you just won’t admit it
Something wasn’t right, I had to go
Leaving you feeling helpless
Broken and confused
Not understanding why
Saying hello and right away goodbye
I’m sorry I had to leave
Don’t blame yourself
The time wasn’t right
But I will see you one day
When I get to look into my mothers eyes, for the first time...

Lost in the whirlwind of colorful words
Swirling around the air of my brain
Trying to escape through my imperfections
Releasing the toxins from my life
Embracing my uniqueness
Showing my battle wounds
Looking through the mirror
Just like through the looking glass
Sometimes can be distorted or upside down
Unscramble the picture as we do the words
To find a beautiful story of thy inners self
Revealing ones true self
Even if it’s all blurry and underexposed

Being torn down
Ripped apart
Like a piece of paper
Blowing in the wind
Seeing your confidence being tossed away
Constantly being put down, shamed and causing blame
Who do you think you are, causing so much pain, what do you have to gain?
It only makes you look weak, picking on me
Maybe it’s you that you should speak too and take the shame
Look back at yourself and see what went wrong
I did nothing, I am just me, but here I am singing this song
A sad song, not just for me, but thousands of people who get put down, just like me

Just like me
I get bullied and ripped apart
Just because I’m different
This is me from the start
I am who I am
Isn’t that enough
I guess I’m just worthless
Yet I am tough

People like you should get love from the start
Then maybe we wouldn’t feel like world’s apart
If it was up to me, I would stick up for myself
But here I sit in a puddle of my own self pity
Wondering why you pick me, telling everyone that I’m not pretty
So what if I’m not, so what if I’m fat, so what if you don’t like that
I done with it all
I’m not gunna lie
Sometimes I just wanna die

Just like me
I get bullied and ripped apart
Just because I’m different
This is me from the start
I am who I am
Isn’t that enough
I guess I’m just worthless
Yet I am tough

This is where I change
Stand up for myself
Stop feeling deranged
Grab hands with those around
Like a childhood game
Let our confidence be found
Let us stand up to the bullies
Let our voices be heard
Once and for all
This is just absurd

Just like me
I get bullied and ripped apart
Just because I’m different
This is me from the start
I am who I am
Isn’t that enough
I guess I’m just worthless
Yet I am tough

Yet I am tough

Yet I am tough

Yet I am tough

Yet I am.......

The invisible energy from the sun and moon
Allows you to recharge within yourself
Manifesting your aspirations, hopes and dreams
Shedding the negative weight off of me
Center yourself
Relax your soul
Good things await
For then, Your heart will be full

The trickle down effect
Like filling a jar full of loose change
Hoping one day to pave the way
Making a statement, taking the stand
Different perspective, being a better (wo)man
Glass half empty, glass half full
Some superstitions, breaking the rules
Whisper down the alley can be fun
But remember the consequences, you’d better run
Some things good, some things bad
It’s all about the life you create and have
Be that one to make a change, stop the cycle, or you could be detained
Fill the jar of that loose change
For someday you’ll save enough
To stand up and be happy with the way you have changed
Your life.....

........I come alive.....





......when your by my side......




Because with us....


....There’s nothing to hide....

Sad that my latest post didn’t get more attention that it has..... I’ve fallen in love with the piece. It’s called, “ lay next to your grave”

What kind of evil play was that Mother Nature
Bitter cold, freezing temps
Turned into a beautiful warm spring day (in the middle of winter)
At 12:01 the next day it was a high of 63
In less then 5 hours the temps drop below freezing again
The wind is howling, it’s freezing again
When will spring come back
Warm our bodies
And shed light on us...
For now the fireplaces will burn for some time
Until the temps rise again in due time

The power of poetry
Powerful words
Can transport you to a different world
It takes you on a journey through our minds
Letting your imagination run wild
Even if it’s for a short time
Allowing your inner feelings and workings to surface and be free
Accessing the true me....

It’s bittersweet when I take a bite  
The juices are a delight
Your sweetness quenches my thirst for love

Suddenly, you realize that grounding yourself, makes the center of gravity, less rocky…

I may be a semi cold girl
But my heart is warm as ever

Family time
Is just divine
Making memories
Having an amazing time

The pressure you find
Immense at times
Carrying the weight
Your whole life
Seems to be just fine
Because that’s who you are
99% of the time

A very Happy Birthday
To the person who gave me life
A very Happy Birthday
Now let’s have a slice
Of cake
For you
To celebrate
Your birthday
Another year older
For you
But for today
You’ll be young
At heart
To celebrate
Your birthday
Hooray!
Happy Birthday Momma!!!!!!

Apparently
Whatever
I
Do
Isn’t
Good
Enough
For
You
So
Close
Yet
So
Far
Apart
Love
Hate
Relationship
Coming
Lose
Like
A
Fire
Under
A
Corse
Thick
Rope
One
Shift
Of
The
Wind
And
It
Will
Go
Up
In
Flames

It’s easy to breath
When you are near me
Even though you take my breath away

There is no spotlight needed
When hiding behind your words or stories you write
Gathering your timeless words of coexistence that translates into your minds eye
Yet, never being noticed, that maybe you really are in the spotlight…

Say it loud
Say it proud
Do whatever you feel
Say it loud
Say it proud
Let’s go and make a deal
Say it loud
Say it proud
No regrets
No mistakes
Say it loud
Say it proud
It’s all give and take
Say it loud
Say it proud
Let’s all make a change
Say it loud
Say it proud
Let’s band together and exchange
Say it loud
Say it proud
Stand up and say your name
Say it loud
Say it proud
Well all rise to fame

You don’t think

You know

The uphill battle is rough

Yet, the climb to the top will be

EVERYTHING

When you reach you destination

Why now?
Why all of a sudden?
I don’t understand your logic or thinking about what is happening
It doesn’t make sense
Take back everything you once gave us
And tell us you’ll get the items promised to you in future...
We have had these items for many years
And just like that you want them back
Tearing us more apart and making us shed more tears
What’s your logic?
What’s your motive?
Can you explain?
Take back everything I don’t want it at all
I want to disengage myself from this negativity you bring within me
Anxiety and stress levels rise high but now I’m Focusing on my husband and I for once
Forgetting about untold stories written in this books ending...
Now it’s time to say ...


THE END

I’m dreaming of a warm Christmas
Just like the one two years ago
Where’s the waves were crashing
The palm trees swaying
The smiles and laughter filled the air
I’m dreaming of a beach filled Christmas
Just like the one two years ago
Where the sun was shining
The little lizards were roaming
Surrounded by our Florida family
I’m dreaming of a warm Christmas
Just like the one two years ago
I’m dreaming of a warm......

Searching for the lost hope
Covered in pain
You keep me grounded
You keep me sane
Loving me for what I am
Standing with me hand in hand
You put the happy in
“Happily ever after”
Always making me smile
You fill my heart with laughter
Even in those darkest days
You remind me to stay strong
Baby there will be brighter days
You keep me grounded
Always giving me hope
Guiding me and teaching me
We are stronger then we both really know....

In the distance
Through the dense fog filled path
She see’s her dreams
Approaching fast

You dare to dream
You dare to wish
You dare to believe
In your own
Happiness

When the feeling is right
All will gently fall
Into place creating
Happiness

Just take the jump
Close your eyes
Believe in your dreams
That’s where you’ll find
Happiness is everything

I wish I could understand you
I wish I could help you
I wish I could give you happiness
BUT
I try to understand you
I try to help you
I try to give you happiness
BUT
You need to understand, help, and find happiness yourself first
BUT
Always know...
I am always here for you...

Life is turned upside
Feeling like we’re going round and round
Please make it stop
When will this end
My dear, it’ll happen
When your new journey begins
Be patient with life
Dodge the curveballs that are thrown at you
Breath and relax, it’ll get better
When it’s all suppose too

You are my flashlight
Since you light up my world
Turning my darkness into a spotlight
Casting a shadow on my own loving heart

My heart is shattering into a million pieces
I don’t even know what to do or say
Right now we’re just taking it day by day
My little buddy, I don’t want to suffer in pain
I just want snuggles, and kisses and watch you play
I love you Stewie, well get through this together
We will just see what happens and pray you’ll get better

When the stars align
All is right
You’ll hear or see a sign
Knowing your going to be alight

Defy the odds
Trust your heart
Following the road less traveled
Even if you have to “restart “

Trust your instincts
Grab ahold of your dreams
Make them a reality
All you have to do is trust and believe...

It never gets any easier, you just cry a little less everyday. Always in our hearts will they remain, memories we made, cherishing them always each and every day. Love is painful especially when they are gone, but forever on our minds and in our hearts, a special place that will stay until we meet and then never to be apart.