The day that broke me was the day that half completed me

Scattered words turn into beautiful creations within the soul that can not always speak for itself

I was never told “I can’t”
But I never want to hear those words

If I can’t have a baby with you
Then I don’t want a baby at all

I have you and that’s not important to me
A baby would be a blessing
To start a family

It’s not the end of the world
I still carry hope

But if I can’t have a baby with you
I don’t want a baby at all...

I'm sorry I couldn't make you a father
I guess that wasn't in Gods plan for us
I want nothing more then to have a family with you
Trying so hard but our dream doesn't come true
I know you would be an amazing dad
But no matter what I am so happy I have you
In my life
Always and forever
And maybe someday
Our dreams will come true

Take my hand it’ll be alright
As the raindrops fall from the sky
The moons rays will guide our way
Letting us land safely the end of the day

10 minutes of fame
On national television
Can’t be beat
But boy, did we feel the heat

I’m breaking down like a melting sculpture
What is left to be seen
Is your reflection in the puddle of my dreams

Share a smile with someone today
It could change their outlook and make them happy
Even if it’s just for a minute, a hour or the whole day...

Capturing the moment
Freezing that moment in time
Is time well spent for the future ride of past memories of your lifetime

Healing is hard
When you feel alone
Yet, surrounded by love
Silence overgrown
Fading into the background
Darkness overtaking fast
But, one simple smile
May help change that feeling
Finally, at last…

I hate that I
can not breath
when you are around
But, ****,
you take my breath
away

I think I’m done writing....

Or at least taking a break....

Not quite sure yet....

Happy Holidays if I’m not back before then....

Goodbye for now...

Trust in yourself and you will see, as clear as the reflection staring back at me
Into the waters so deep and blue
Like the tears falling from your eyes, sad but true
Creating a puddle in which you stand
Trusting in yourself that your are strong enough to withstand the drowning feeling of love at your feet
Trust in yourself and you will see…

Ever just wanna cry
Having tears fall from your eyes
No explanation on why
But, just to sit in a dark room and cry

Catching emotions in the palms of your hands
Dripping like a leaking faucet
Falling through the broken cracks in your fingers
Collecting like a puddle after a hard nights storm

Ever just wanna cry
Having tears fall from your eyes
No explanation on why
But, just to sit in a dark room and cry

Sometimes, you just need a really good cry
With absolutely no explanation on why….

Happy Birthday Mom 2
I hope your day is wonderful, just like you
Now, close your eyes and make a wish
Here’s to another year of happiness

Getting lost in the silent conversations inside your head
Only, to you, they are just invisible, not silent by any means
Getting louder and louder like a drum solo waiting to end
But then the encore starts right back up again

I still can’t believe your gone
I don’t want to believe your gone
This can’t be happening
This can’t happen to you
This is a rough one...
I’m not sure I’m strong enough to say
Goodbye to you (for now)

Leaves slowly changing colors
Gliding down with the wind
Piling up onto the ground
Beautiful backdrop
Nature creates
For us to see
And enjoy
Fall

Just because the picture lacks in color

Doesn’t mean it lacks the beauty

Feeling so helpless
Yet being so hopeful

Wish and dream
You and me
We close our eyes
Think happily
Believe in you
Believe in me
Together we can
Wish and dream
Just you and me
Forever and always
We will be
Loving each other
If we continue
To wish and dream

Timeless moments transforms into timeless memories woven into puzzle pieces left in our hearts

Hey.....

Hey you....

Reading this....

You are loved and worthy

Always remember that!

Sincerely,

A friend. :)

It’s starts with a dream....
...ends in reality...

The fear in us
Apprehends the loss
We have not yet had

The majestic colors of the sky
Ever changing before our eyes
It's Gods canvas he hand paints for all to see
If you look hard and just believe
There is a hidden message for you and me
Our loved ones are watching over us
Thank you for the amazing work of creation of the castle of heaven for our loved ones to be...

The thoughts in my head are bleeding out of my ears
I wonder if anyone knows what I've been thinking all these years
Sometime the noise is so loud I forget it's actually reality I am hearing
Where is the off button to shut out the world from all the ruckus that swirls around my head
Is it real?
Is it fantasy?
Word, feelings, images bouncing around trying to find a way to escape
For now I will keep it all inside of me
Until I figure out a way to stop the noise, turn the volume down and release the mysterious things that I have been through in my existence....

Ocean waves in your eyes
Crying begins at high tide
Tears are crashing
Emotions high
In your crystal
Ocean eyes

I’m sorry but you said you have anxiety/ panic attacks?
That’s not a real thing...
....Your making it up....

If not being able to:
catch your breath
Feel like your going to jump out of your skin
Sweating uncontrollably
Want to crawl in a hole
Hide from everything and everyone
Can’t control yourself
Cry for no reason
Hot and cold
Freaking out...

If that’s not a real thing...
..... then I don’t know what else is....

You don’t change yourself
You grow into the person
Your meant to become

Fighting this fight
You think your alone
Treatment after treatment
It’s getting old
Tired of fighting
Just want to give up
Getting two steps ahead
But then being pushed back
Jumping hurdles, being pushed to my limits
Contemplating my options, counting the minutes
Even at my worst, I still push through
Having my family and friends support, I couldn’t ask for a better crew
My name is Stephanie, I am battling breast cancer, but I wanted to say thank you
To everyone near and far helping me fight this fight
Sending your love, thoughts and prayers
I will win and conquer this with all my might...