You weren't any more special
Than he ever let you be
And you never let me tell you
That you were special to me.

I'm in a bad perspective
Selfish in my worldview
I apolpgize for judging everyone
I'm just as messed up as you.

Grown-ups were supposed
To be good role models; then,
You realize they're not.

I liked to fancy
That I could throw you a look
And pierce your stone heart.

I ate too much food
America's a ninja
Suddenly you're full.

Nobody knows me
I am a stranger to all
Especially me.

Someday I might be remembered
But probably for something boring.

You use such big words
I wonder how you *speak.

Who are we when we're spacing out
Or watching someone mindlessly?
Who are we when we let go of it
Because we forget about stressing?

Who are we when we forget to be angry
And release the sad thoughts inside?
Who are we when there's just nothing left
That we feel we have to hide?

Will we find that we are words
Tossed mindlessly to the breeze
Will we find that we were a sigh
An smile seen only by the trees?

Cut on my finger
Right under the knuckle, red,
Blood from somewhere deep;
Startled me when I saw it--
From whence did you come?

Walking through imaginary woods
I tripped over a root strangely square
Fell and hit my head on a log
And radically, I'm still there.

What are you doing
When I'm not really looking?
Do I want to know?

Think it's a headache?
Your mind lies to you, it's not...
What is it really?

Let't not just break it
Let's take that silly record
Annihilate it.

Half the world does things
They hear or see or are told;
They don't really know.

Complicated things
Now seem commonplace somehow
When innocence fades.

If you are honest,
You'll say the same as them all
That you never knew
The world was so big a place
With so much sadness.

Sometimes you're so deep
That no one could possibly
Understand or know.

Some people call me young
But to others, I am old.
How you see me depends
On the way my impression is sold.

I only wanted
To be free without the cost
But it wasn't easy.

Sky, oh won't you cry
And sing a song of sadness
Rain and run the risk.

I want to explode
Grow, shatter, spread, fill the sky
'Till I don't feel small.

Go away!* he said, Just leave!
I don't want you here anymore.
But she replied, Oh no, I won't,
And with her love, he soared.

All my muscles tense
I want to release and rest
But I am tight strings.

My mother puts chocolate milk in my lunch
She puts it in an empty juice bottle
But today I forgot my water container, so
I'm filling up my apple juice-chocolate milk-bottle.

You told me that you were fine
But I knew you never said that
You'd always answer, "Wonderful!" or "Great!"
I knew the place you were at.

There was something in your mood
The way you held yourself
It was obvious that you were bothered
But what was behind feeling depressed?

I tried to go on as if I hadn't seen
That one look in your eye
But I couldn't act the happy way I do
When you looked like you wanted to cry.

I was afraid that you would start
To pour it all on me
But that was unhealthy, because I knew
I couldn't be your one and only.

I didn't want to pull away
You'd know and wonder why
Our connection and our friendship knew
The meaning of every sigh.

I couldn't ignore what was bothering you
This you couldn't outlive
So I just held you as you breathed
Knowing that was all I could give.

I'd seen your scars in the past
You'd told me what they were
But I knew there was something deeper within
That made you feel impure.  

I wouldn't pursue the subject of your pain
That I knew was inflicted by you
I'd keep you in my prayers, and someday
You'll find a love that's true.

Dari mana datangmu?
Apakah kau cari ku?

You were a whispered word
I wished I'd never heard.

Some of my fears frighten me so badly
that I just wish I could find the right one and get married already.

You're caught in my throat
Partially in my sore lungs
You're why I can't breathe.

We escaped the night to find
That day was so much darker
For all our biggest fears and doubts
Were visible shapes much sharper.

Drag me down, go on
I can lift myself higher
Than you ever thought.

Anxiety, fear,
And doubt that I could be one
You'd listen to now.

He was a grey wisp
Of thought, and of feelings deep,
That I couldn't catch.

So the only pain
That I feel this late at night
Is my chapped lips. Yeah.

If I were to be a day,
It would be overcast
And I'm not even sure that light
Would come, or ever last. 

If I were to be a breath,
I would be shallow
Hard to take, hard to keep
From a chest too hollow. 

If I were to be a heart,
I would be almost whole
Except for the time I let it sit out
And you pinpricked a hole. 

If I were to be a house,
I'd have an iron-bound door
Nothing would enter without my say
And I wouldn't go out anymore. 

If I were to be a song,
You'd never hear my words
They'd be in a language you don't know
The language of hurt.

Honestly. Just stop.
Mock me one more time, and boy,
I will slap you. Hard.

She wil be angry
When she finds I'm not asleep
But she can't hurt me. >:)

My brother Noah
Won't get off my computer
I'm tolerating.

You ask what I am afraid of
But the truth is, that's just it
I'm afraid to tell you my secrets
And that, I am afraid to admit.

Run
You must
Just keep going
You have a chance
Get out while you can!
Don't slow down yet
Don't look back
Don't stop
Run.

There is a certain apathy
That arrives at two AM;
I don't care what tomorrow is
I just want some REM.

It's 2:30, sir
And I cannot fall asleep
Why can't I? Tell me.

I spent the last half hour
Looking up names of fears.
Fourteen I named mine, but
I'm afraid to tell my peers.

When you don't know how
And your answers feel used up
He's always listening.

Gave him my sandwich
Because he was hungry, and
Wouldn't have eaten.
But I have something greater...
He needed that more.

Beauty can be sharp
It can get you the worst way
So let the tears fall.

You lost yourself, true
But it was in music, so
You aren't to blame.

Hey, looks like we're friends
Again, or maybe anew
I just hope it lasts.