You told me I was beautiful,
A cigarette between your teeth.
I raged at the careless gesture,
You laughed and smiled.
The first meeting,
A beautiful metaphor.

A first kiss,
A shared wish,
And the silent love.
A beautiful metaphor.

Happily Ever After came crashing down,
Our demise up in lights,
You held on 'til the bitter end,
A flickering candle in the dead of night.
A beautiful metaphor.

You'll live forever in me.
Augustus and Hazel,
Okay? Okay.
A beautiful metaphor.

Pretty words,
Filled with lies.
A web you're spinning,
But getting caught up every time.

I couldn't see before,
But now it's plain.
You've done this before and you'll do it again.
When will I learn?

Why can't I see?
So blind,
I'm crippled,
And you aim to torture me.

Struck down by your madness,
Confused by your words,
And angered by your actions that reveal your lies.
Why can't I see?
I really should leave...
Why can't I see?

I've always been there,
I've always cared.
I've given up sleep,
Foregone birthday joy,
Listened until my ears gave out.
So tell me,
Where are you now?

You're tired?
So am I, but I'll stay awake for you.
You need something?
Ok, let me drop whatever I'm doing.
I need something?
***** for me...

I'm not your counselor,
Of course I care,
But I can't always be there.
I have my own issues.
My life is crumbling you see,
Oh wait, you don't,
You don't even see me...

Crouched on the bathroom floor,
Devoid of breath and clearly a mess.
Time slows and for a moment, everything stops.

The fears that were once kept at bay,
Stored in the back of my mind,
Are now released,
Closing in, one at a time.

The air grows thick,
Choking out the peace,
Slowly strangling me into submission.

Heart quickens,
Breathing shallows,
Is this how it ends?
Is this how it goes?
Stuck in the bathroom and no one knows?

Trembling and shaking,
Quivering with fear,
But then it all ends with
"Darling come here."

Put down the bottle,
Step away from the drugs,
The procedure of life is hard enough.

It's good in the moment,
The euphoric high.
But once you come down,
All you can do is cry.

Depression sets in,
And you look at your life.
Broken pieces,
Withered and dead.
Like a rose on the ground.

You do it again,
Just to feel whole.
But this time, the high doesn't come 'round.

You took too much,
Trying to numb the pain.
Life flashes before you,
And you see it slip away...

Don't look back.
Keep running.
They'll only hold you back.

Ignorant to your plans,
Uncaring for your future,
They'll only hold you back.

Grabbing your arms,
Shackling your feet.
Break the chains now.

They'll say you let them down,
They'll say you disappoint.
Shake it off,
Block it out,
And run.

Though you may love them,
Though you may care,
If you look back,
You'll be ensnared.
Keep running.

Wake me up with a tender touch,
A soft kiss,
And a pretty word.

Lie with me,
Watching the sunrise,
Holding me close.

I'll snuggle in an we'll talk about the future,
Waste the day away.
Say you love me,
And I will too.
You lean in,
But then you're gone...

I wake up...
You're still gone and I lie awake,
Wishing that it was reality...