here I am, once again,
in my corner, music in my ears,
and there's everyone around me,
enjoying time with there friends.

maybe for a change,
I don't want to be the person people ignore,
I am like an outsider,
i mean nothing, nothing at all

there is a wall between me and the world
I try to climb it,
I try to break it, or even chip at it,
I try to stop the essence of this wall from torturing me
but I fail, and don't succeed one bit

it hurt at first,
that no one cares
but over time,
you get used to it

but as time goes on,
and nothing changes,
with the loneliness,
the ostracization,
i grow content

maybe they were right,
i am nothing,
nothing but an outsider looking in

my walls are thick,
three feet deep
that's why i'm protecting you
so you wont see the side of me i don't let people see

I build my walls so thick,
you cant break through
I build my walls so high,
you'll never be able to climb

I know, you want me to trust you,
but I cant
i'm afraid i'll get hurt again

I build my walls so high, so thick
that you cant get in
I know you want to be there
but i'm so scared

why?
why did I do it?
why did I start what I stopped?
why did I think of the things I shouldn't have thought?

so there I was,
blade in my hand,
getting ready to cut again

you ask me why?
why is it that out of everything,
the cutting is the thing I find?
I know its hard to hide,
but I don't mind

the pain is the thing I need
I feel the pain again as I bleed
I need something I can control
please don't call me a fool

I know I relapsed
but telling you was the only thing I could do

maybe, i don't fit in
maybe i don't belong
this place hasn't been right for me
since everything went wrong

i walk, the lonely streets
i search for something deep inside of me
but i find nothing,
nothing but blue

i feel blue
always, forever blue
the days are lonely,
the nights are cold
but i will always be blue

as i walk along the busy streets
and the lights of this city
i begin to think, its not worth it
i dont matter, not one bit

i walk, the lonely streets
i search for something deep inside of me
but i find nothing,
nothing but blue

i feel blue
always, forever blue
the days are lonely,
the nights are cold
but i will always be blue

when did it begin?
when does it end?
when will i be happy again?
always blue
forever sad
i am nothing

i feel blue
always, forever blue
the days are lonely,
the nights are cold
but i will always be blue

i feel blue
always, forever blue
the days are lonely,
the nights are cold
but i will always be blue

im just blue
never happy
never smiling
just blue,
so blue
only blue
i am very blue

I started the first day of my sophomore year with excitement
I wanted this year to be a better year
I finish the year depressed annoyed and *******
This year wasn't a better year
I used to speed down the hallway to get to class
Now I dread going
I know the year is almost over
But I want to give up
This year was tough
I can't concentrate
I barely sleep
Why?
One word
Finals!

This is it
This is the end
The end of us
The end of you being there

I am now nothing
Because I don't have you
That is why,
That is why I'm so blue

I now have no one to trust
You have to go, you must
It's okay
But I have to stay

You know I'm upset
I'm loosing my best friend
I'm loosing the one person
I know I can always trust

It's fine, honestly
I'm just loosing you