Antonena Ishkova

Mar 2014

Seth Connor Jackson

The night terrors have gotten worse now
And it’s been so long since I last slept
The thought of rest is starting to sound surreal

Yet every time my lids grow heavy
This nightmare becomes reality
My greatest fear becomes my fate

In dream after dream I am forced
To see myself die, each night in a new way
Over and over I witness the end of my life

This does not scare me for I fear not the reaper
But another detail never changes
It is what I see as I draw in my final breath

This mirage of my mind stands at my side
Though she’s always just out of reach
Her eyes telling the tale of heart break

This nameless woman bears my child
For my greatest fear is not my death
It’s leaving behind the family that I never met

#fear

Antonena Ishkova Mar 2014

Two Words

**** you.
My life was on a treadmill-
Simple steps and common sense.
Then you stopped by
And dared me to
          Jump off

This roller coaster we rode
Whizzed by all who watched.
Not certain of what they saw,
They smiled-
And marched on to the next
          Big thing

Chains and gravity take this adventure
To new speeds and bigger heights
But we both know-
The end is coming
And it's coming fast so
          Hold on

Soon I'll get back on the treadmill
And you to the Ferris wheel.
And back to the groove
Of organized chaos.
And looking back, I'll only think
          Of you

I'll think of adventures
Of maybe finally getting what I want;
Of sunshine and late nights,
Of what is and what could be
And say to it all
          **** you

Mar 2014

Xyns

What Is Love?

It's giving someone the power to break you
But trusting them not to

It's giving them the keys to your soul
And believing they won't wreck it

It's hearing their worst secrets
And still adoring them

It's wishing for eternal existence
Because one life with them isn't enough

It's you and me
And everything between

Mar 2014

Miranda

Lovers Beware

Lovers beware for love is a dangerous thing
It consumes your heart and your head
It will leave you gasping for breath in moments where you need it most
You're blinded by something that can hardly ever be contained, no matter how hard you try
You can't trick or hide love for very long
It eats away at you
It becomes the motive behind your actions
Everything in life is secondary to what or who you love
Love is painted to be the panacea of all troubles
When in truth, love causes most of them

But what a life you live when you're in love
Every day has a purpose
You feel as though you understand everything
Being in love brings peace and comfort
Yes, you can still be hurt by anything, but love offers you reassurance
That someone will be there to pick you up and care for you
At the end of the day when you have been beaten and battered by the everyday world
Love is a tricky game to play
And some people don't ever win
Because they don't know the secret

Love isn't perfect in any way
The art of loving someone isn't something you can master over time
You may feel as though you can predict it,
But when you find that person,
You forget all that you ever thought you knew about love
Love can't be defined simply
For it is unique and different for each person
You can't compare the love you give and receive to anyone else

And that's the beautiful chaos that love creates

m.h.

Antonena Ishkova Jul 2013

Just like you

Changes creeping up
And you never agree with them.

I say that I don't see things the way you do
You say I'm wrong.
We'll never find a common ground now.

You say I need to change my ways,
Follow your foot steps.

I don't want to be like you,
I'll never be anything like you!

How can I be so naive?

I'm exactly like you,
Always will be

And the cycle will only live on.