"I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
I lift my lids and all is born again.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

The stars go waltzing out in blue and red,
And arbitrary blackness gallops in:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed
And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

God topples from the sky, hell's fires fade:
Exit seraphim and Satan's men:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I fancied you'd return the way you said,
But I grow old and I forget your name.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
At least when spring comes they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)"

Staring into the depths of a bottle
Trying to warm my bones
"You look lost," he said.
Smiling, I replied
"Not all who wander are lost."
His eyes were sad and grey
Long roads I longed to travel
And then his sad eyes spoke
"Maybe not, but you are."
He knew me.
Knew how I'd been spending my nights.
Seeking comfort in the open road
Finding home with each new person
In this beautiful broken world
With its beautifully broken people
The only people who can know runners
Are runners themselves.
He takes my hand and the roads stretch and melt
The hallways dim and all the doors close
My heart races
"Run with me."

The pain finally caught up to me today
I'd been running
Hiding in the arms and the minds of others
Sneaking through smoke-filled corridors
Diving into a lake of liquor
But I stopped running today
And, having no place else to hide,
It found me.
All because I met a man
And I asked him If he let himself feel the pain before he fought
Or if he started kicking and screaming immediately
"Run." Was all he said
So I did.

The streets are cold and unforgiving
Smothered in white silence that cuts you to the bone and makes you wish for hell just so you can find warmth
You may find peace in it but not tonight
Not when the winds howl and threaten to knock you flat on your face
You promised you would be the one to keep me warm
But the only thing I have now is this lit cigarette and the chattering of my teeth spitting out "Where are you? Where are you? Where are you?"
Because you're sure as hell not here.
The only thing colder than this frozen wasteland is the soul-numbing emptiness of the world around me.
You must have left along with the sun
You promised me
But you're not here

What can I do other than cut.?
It seems nothing gives me the same rush.
Seeing the blood drip from my hand
Makes me wonder if it's time.
But then my fiance comes to the rescue
And tells me everything
Will be alright.
I want to believe him
But you see I can't.
I've been lied to my whole life
So why take a chance.
He'll hold me and whisper sweet things in my ear
But with him behind me you see
I get this great fear.
I've been through it all
I know what it's like to hurt
I knew the moment
That pervert went up my skirt.
Now I'm afraid of every man.
And this is the reason
I am who
I am.
I want to love him but it's hard
Even though he can see passed my scars.
I still get the chills when he touches me there.
And this I feel is my fault
Cause I wasn't aware.
I didn't know what that man was doing
Nor why.
Now I know and
I hide inside.
He haunts my dreams
And because of this I will not sleep.
Now let me be.! Please have mercy upon me.
This is it I can't take anymore.
This will be the last day I walk out that door
And to the willow tree I will go
Not to sit and read
But to be hung by a rope.

A beautiful love,
Young and fresh,
Granted to take your breath away.
So new to the world and to this first true love,
But it's taken a toil on both of us.
Your mind runs crazy with violence and fear.
She goes mad inside as she fights off tears.
The love you shared is slowly fading,
As all that love turns to hatered.
Neither talk to others outside their "love",
Or conversat with their own true blood.

You want to hurt her but you won't let it show,
She wants to leave but won't let you go.
Your mind as driven you both crazy and it's because she left for a night,
And came back with black and blues on her thighs.

Suicides the only answer,
Unless we can erase our memories,
And with that said I'll shed a tear as my heart gives way,
And your fears take your mind away.

He sits on the swing,
Watching the leaves fall from the trees.
He's scared but won't show it,
He's worried about his wife but won't let her know it.
He plays it off like he does not care,
And trys to run from his fears,
He hides his feelings behind a mask of tough, raw, meanness,
But he can not fool us.
We know how bad he's hurting, we can see through him and see the pain.
We just wish he would see how much we all love him.
Because everyone knows you can't fight cancer alone.