Annie

Annie Apr 2018

Look at us
Together again..

And as you're burning me down in ashes
For the last time you speak to me
Yet there is no more of "we"

This might be just a co-incidence
But while ending my existence, you smile
And I feel happy that I am still on your mind

This evening, it's romance in its rawest form
But the people out there think we're fighting a war,
You know they can't see -now we've come so far

When you walk away from my concluding lifetime
I ask you to walk like a hero
I know you broke me, but it takes courage to do so

#selfdestruction #love #life #lonely #sad #desperate #romantic #surrender

Annie Apr 2018

Aesthesia

I have this whole world within me
Speak to me
Take me as I am
Set me free

You say I exaggerate things
But what if
What if my emotion
Is itself exaggerated?

Have you ever
For even once, thought that
Maybe I were a speck
Coming close, flying away

Why won't you ever
Pull me close
Make me sway

Keep your eyes off me
Strange how you seem to find reasons
To stay close when you shouldn't
And you could stay here forever but you wouldn't

I don't really need you
I don't even crave you
Except some days

Yet if you ask me, will I be here?
I'll whisper
Always
Always
Always

#slampoetry #love #selflove #obsession #pain #feelings #affection #sad #desperate

Annie Apr 2018

Drowning ; a little bit more everyday

Crazy to see
How many wish to die
Just to know
How many will miss them or cry

I do not need death
To show me if I'm needed
I disappear for a night
And my conscience is defeated

Funny what time can do
Bury us down
Pull us up
To make us feel lost and found

Been told I'm weak
Left after coming too close
Once or twice
Or maybe a hundred times

How is it that I'm still standing here?
All naked so you would see
The scars that won't heal
Someone that's just not me..

#lonely #love #sad #depressed #betrayed #alone #life

Annie Apr 2018

The Act of Hating

It starts with a stare
Not calling back -pretending at first
Then actually never care

Walk a thousand streets,
But that bridge is burning -I can see
And I'm not the one scorching in heat

Smile so much that it hurts
Not to please you this time
Glad I learnt to put myself first

This beautiful, dazzling night
Just to spend alone -be on my own
Relieved -I've got nothing to fight

Shook hands with "kind",
Cleansed up my head -a new person there is
And now I can speak of my mind

This -the art of hate
Squeezing my brain -till all ekes out
I'm learning ,hope I'm not too late?

#hate #love #strong #strength #life #alone #sad

Annie Mar 2018

Six Feet Underneath

You came,
After all those awful years,
Sat beside my grave -nothing's the same

You never apologised,
Broke my heart,
Didn't even call to rationalise,

Today, I don't have a voice to speak,
I am gone in the dark,
While your affair with her is on fleek,

You're here and I wonder,
How you abandoned my love,
Threw me out and I surrendered,

I don't want to change your mind,
Leave while you can,
It's time to put the past behind,

They say, "You can't bring back the dead."
So forget about me as you shall,
Toss my memory out of your head

#lovestory #sad #life #love #betrayal #lonely #depressing #death

Annie Mar 2018

The Last Utter

I did cry
For so many days
So why must I lie?

Felt like an empty house
With squealing doors
Can you be here, once more?

They say I'll find somebody else,
That it'll take time,
But I'll be just fine

A few more years
And I'll forget we ever met,
He'll caress me -take away my fears

My body aches in pain
Only you could take away
But hey, there's nothing left to say

I hope I never see you again
As long as I live
For I have –with me, nothing to give

#love #lovehurts #sad #lonely #crying #depression #romantic

Annie Mar 2018

Unhinged

Your love,
Is the surreal of all,
Make me wonder if I'm high,
Or is it making me fall?

Hush! Don't spill -
The words in your mouth,
In your world, the Sun rises from North,
Sets in South,

It's been so long since you left,
I've already died through the sweater weather,
If you ask me how have I been,
I'ld say, Never been better

I shall think of you -unapologetically
Even when I die,
My bones will remain,
And the silence will make you cry

#death #sad #love #lonely #depression #alone #life