Everything living
Requires things dying
Nature is beautiful cruelty

It’s thermodynamics
An energy gradient
A food cascade

Staggering connectedness
Exquisite fragile quilt
Sadly, loose strings pulled

soon all that will be left of me
is my miles and miles of words
and my lipstick stained
letters.
dearest lean into my shoulder
and let me tell you all about the man in the moon.
he fell in love with the sun
but i’m sure you’ve heard this all before.
the freckles on your face
make up all the constellations in the sky
and maybe some in the sea too.
i’ll trace your eyelids and nose
with the pads of my fingers
and marvel at how daisies and sunlight could be a person.
but i’m breaking apart at the seams
And summer can only stay so long.
we won’t talk about it
because words are too hard to use.
and they always clog my throat anyway.
you are quite scary
with your dead eyes
and small sentences
that you used to scream.
i have taken to biting my nails
instead of crying
and i don’t think it makes much of a difference.
i still can’t breathe either way.
you tell me that it’s easier to bottle up your feelings
but i’ve never really liked bottles
because they make me feel trapped
and alone.
i don’t think it matters that i can’t whistle
and then i remember that if i’m ever lost
i won’t be able to find you again.
i think it all depends on if you want to be found though.
shivers are wracking my body
and my teeth can’t seem to keep apart
i’m scared
god im scared.
and this time
i utterly and truly think im
broken.

Do you mind if I sing out loud?
The world doesn't want someone who is too sad,
but it doesn't care for someone who is too happy either.
It's unnatural, and it's fake.
I'm a liar
because I say 'I love you' enough that I have no regrets?
because I look in the mirror and smile at myself?
because I sing out loud.

They say home is where the heart is,
But my heart’s in a million places
All at once like pieces of a magnet,
Drawing together and pulling apart.

These fragments are sharp to touch
Stuck in fingernails and achy paper cuts,
They get in the way, some self-destruct
Once they’ve already been left in the heart of someone else.

My mom calls it
endearing,
the way that I pull people towards me.

I’m beginning to think that perhaps
she is correct.

I apologize for tempting you to love me.

With tears in my eyes I begged you to stay
stay by my side for how long it will take

take me to get on my own feet
and hold my head high

but all you did was walk away without a goodbye

I hate you
But you're a part of me and I don't know what to do

I love you
But you don't make me feel good

I want to leave you behind
And stay strong by myself for once

It's been 6 years
Please give me a chance

Summer,

I got your letters,
                           I hadn't taken you for granted or wasted the
                            the sunny days.
I never regretted
                            you being around
Just wish you
                             Stayed forever,
I have now an

                              Honey brown
Shade and the
                               Sharpest mind

Know to my tutor.
                                

I embrace everything about where or what you're doing by making the college and school closed
            Now we're allowed to hang out with our lovers or ex.

Thanks, summer for making me have the opportunity to relax in my mini pool with 50 loud, drunken neighbour.
See you around   the next 3 month