Close your eyes- confusion-
The Dark Lady beckons thee,
Always open to intrusion at the hint of lessened fee
Sell out heart and self at the cost of toes to knee
Rest upon the layers and the edge of sanity.

I can hear them ******* singing,
All these voices in my head.
And this glass won't break the silence
Spilling words you left unsaid.
The stars were never brighter, and the nights never as dark
as eyes as blue as oceans and their last remark
Are you happy now, my dear?
Are you ******* glad?
The skies outside my windows were all you'd let me have
I'd taste the frost from icy panes, pressed firmly on my lips
Like poison kisses taken in,
Lovely little sips.

I'm in an affair with words,
Because they grip me on my darkest nights,
and give me something to chew on when I'm hungry
They provide themselves up as sacrifices
To my God
When I tell the priest to **** himself.
They excite, and escape me like a teasing lover-
But they always come back.
I will love no one
Like I love their words.

April stole my sister,
And all her breath and youth.
You stole all my smiles
But left what you cant use.
My heart sits here so heavily
My bottles feeling light
This darkness holds my heart
But my body holds the night

Theres nothing like
Making my bed in the military style
(I learned how to in the hospital)
To make me feel
Like I've really got my **** together.