And there you are
I'm sitting next to you
And I can feel you everywhere
I wonder what you smell like
Is that weird
I shouldn't be so nervous
And there you are
Your lips are on mine and I feel infinite
Its as though I can feel for the first time
How did I breathe without you
I can't stop this
Or my feelings for you
How did this happen
God if only I could breath you in
And keep you with me forever
It was only suppose to be a kiss

Fading* in the shadows
Is where I feel at home
Hidden from piercing gazes
Up and down my soul they roam

Drawing back the curtains
They feed on my heart
Tearing at my emotions
A worn sadistic art

Driven through a world
Etched in toxic blood
Altered through war and greed
D**rowning in green mud

His eyes.
I look into them and see every longing, every passion.
The depth of them, I have yet to comprehend.
I can't describe the way he looks at me.
It's as if his eyes see right through me,
Penetrating every wall,
Exposing my every flaw.
Yet, when our eyes lock,
All I feel is safe.
It's as if he knows every part of me,
And loves everything he knows.
His eyes yearn to search deeper,
To know every inch of my soul.
Am I a fool to let him in?
Getting my hopes up, only to be left broken and destroyed again?
I won't regret, this time,
Never giving myself the chance to fall.
I will either fall straight into his arms,
Or straight to my destruction.


But fall I will,
And fall she did.

you were home and I was the traveler.
And I moved from continent to continent as the world was spinning faster
We held hands and rearranged the mountains,
We swam in each abyss below the waterfalls, the world's greatest fountains.
And we were never stayed in one place,
But danced with discovery at a romantic pace
Because I was in love with my home
And you fell in love with the unknown.
There was so much more to life
Than paying bills and being a wife,
And there was so much more to passion than a monotonous job and everything old fashioned.
We made everyday something new,
And if anything led me to believe in blessings it was you.
So tomorrow we'll cross the ocean,
We'll be brave and in love as we conquer the motion
Of an ever changing life, and ever changing existence,
All I'd ever love in life was home and your gentle resistance
To all that the world told us to be.
Because now.
I'm happy with you and you are happy with me.
--Emily Rutledge

some people live in silence lock the truth away
suffering abuse much to scared to say.
living with the fear  living in distress
living in there lonliness with there life a mess.

hoping maybe oneday there torment it will  cease
there suffering will go and they can live in peace.
at last they will be free. and they can have there say.
then at last there silence can now go away.

Say it before you run out of time.
Say it, speak it out line after line.
Say it before it's too late,
Waiting is just the biggest mistake.
What are you waiting for?
Until the waves crash the shore?
Why are you saving it?
For when?
Why are you afraid of this?
And then?
Words are here for minds to form
and mouths to say,
the courage to tell them is long gone,
on the tip of your tongue they stay.

You're afraid it might be annoying
to remind this person this one thing
every time, over and over again
It might make you look ridiculous,
showing a person that you actually care

Have you ever thought about the fact that
every chance you let slip away
could be the very last chance to make things alright?

doesn't it hurt
to see how nobody cares
when you're gone

doesn't it hurt
to be on your own
when things go wrong

doesn't it hurt
to feel like everyone could
be just perfectly fine without you

doesn't it hurt
how nobody ever asks why
when you're feeling blue

doesn't it hurt
to realize that everyone
is thinking of their future
without you being part of it

doesn't it hurt
to feel alone
even when you're with friends

doesn't it hurt
to feel invisible and unwanted
in a crowd with so many people