Out on the water stood the window
Our window
As we kissed we knew
Our future
Our togetherness

Hands held so tight
We looked
Our window
You smiled
Our future

The hours passed as minutes
A beautiful window
Our time so perfect
As we lost ourselves
We found us

We found love
**

Staring across I looked
I mean I really looked
It was them
The sick
The waiting
Their end
A place where the silence in subtle laughter
Fed the gurgling dread

Old amongst the young
Age against time
Eating away
Tempting a finality
Choosing an end

As dead eyes looked on through me      
I felt alive
Awake
Eager in my burst to scare away the dead
The devil smiled
His war was winning
A fate foreboding
The storm had come

My irksome mind begins its wallow
In the darkness of the moonlight glow
I stir to another turn awake

The place sounds still

I only wish my soul felt it too

Stepping up to the window I stare to a wasted view
The reflected pane shouts to me  
Horror in my face
My minds screaming silence
The waking always hurts

My silent madness spoilt as the wind scratched the branch against the glass  
A reminder of the cool breeze of winter waiting out the door
The shiver returns

I should be used to this
4 am
3am
2am
That feeling of a world stood still whilst in my head the waltzers ride
Never stops

Awake  

So here I am again
Bound to write my own self destruct
Ink drying on a mind fading away
Lost from the found
I cry for my own failed fame

Awake

One day these words may help someone
One day these lines may heal
It's all I ask
It's all I want

Awake

I can feel your pain
Don't hide the truth
Tell us out
Feed the love
Walk on over to the other side
Come on in and join the club

We wont bite
Just tell you good
Hold my hand
Feel the love
Walk on over to the other side
Come on in and join the club

See my smile
It's here for good
Just let go
Feed the love
Walk on over to the other side
Come on in and join the club

This is the club of life
Where good is good
Hurt is forbidden
Feel the love
Walk on over to the other side
Come on in and join the club

Just one small step
That's all it needs
A life for freedom
Feel the love
Feel our love
Walk on over to the other side

Here I sit waiting for the candle to extinguish  
Your return still awaits me
The room feels so cold
A cold thats missing your love  

My heart gone
It's heat now a distant faded light
Still waiting your footsteps
Still wanting you
Wanting love

A hint still tingles my senses
Perfumed sheets brings me your vision
Brings me alive
Come to my lair
My love
Come back

The years have gone and the candle burnt
Frozen out in a wanted room
I still look for your love
Amongst the faded pictures
Amongst the faded lives
I remember our time

Wash away my colour

The wind comes in and
It's cold
They tell us lies
Yet
It fits the colour
Hides the truth that
Under
We are all the same

I wear this coat of me you see
A rainbow coloured skin
like yours it's me
Warm
And full of life ..full of freedom

Yet if
I could wash away my colours
Dance upon the rain
Dust my legs in puddles
Under all the same

My red is in my blood
It bleed like all on here
Our heaven be thy earth
This kingdom of insane

So  
Wash away my colour
Treat us all as one
That's what we live and die for
Our hope
A dream begun

At last the warmth of the day comes
Longer
Spring is in the air
My pen returns the welcome

Beams of life perform their due
On wet cold earth
Soon we'll have the green
Soon we'll have the new
Welcome to the spring
We have been waiting

Breath not seen to a relief
Clothing loose and friendly
People now talk where once they ran for
Heat
Strains of music as children fill our gardens
Eden in full swing
Spring is winning

Oh the beauty of these times
Brings a tear to my cheek
Memories of a loss
Rains showers to my thoughts
Let the new take me over
Let the dancing begin
Welcome in the dawning
Welcome in the spring

As you sip your morning coffee
Or tuck into your toast
Remember all the good things
And those you love the most
Cos this could be your last day
For giving up the ghost

So we'll celebrate you madly and sing to Elton John
The bottle looks quite empty as we
Celebrate your gone
Now your 6ft under
We'll sing to you your song
We'll ...sing.. to you your song  

You could fall out a window
From way up in the sky
Walk into a plank thats there
Drops you like a fly
I'll bet your just not thinking as
It drives you of the edge
The devil an the deep blue sky are
Really quite impressed


So we'll celebrate you madly and sing to Elton John
The bottle looks quite empty as we
Celebrate your gone
Now your 6ft under
We'll sing to you your song
We'll ...sing... to you your song  

A look into the heaven's
Or is this living hell
To wondered all this fuss round here
It's hotter and you smell
So welcome to the place I love
Welcome to our world
Welcome to this place called earth
Welcome to my hell  
Welcome to my hell..

My mind inside became the stifling
No air to breath
No wind to cool the raging madness
Caging me in
Blocking the light
Masking the past into a blurred
Forbidden

My inner prison held me fast
Took my time
Scared friends into enemies  
Insanity with a grin that left me
Lost
Open
Broken
Wrapped in a cotton
To brittle to touch

Oh the day for a smile
For a beam tingled light
To warm me
To calm me
To show me a world I could live
And on that one day
When the sun illuminates upon the sapphire skies

I will be free
Free of the years
Free of the chains so painstakingly made to hold me
Free
Free I say
Free

See my face as I walk into the crowd
Another wasted moment  
Watch me melt away
Feel my breath
Faded
Lost into the forest of your dreams

The tasteless drink falls from my lips
My train likes to roll and sway me
This keeps me safe amongst the people
In my hidden life I feign

Smells of the earth from worn leather
I hope they fed well in their time
For now I was thirsty and my enemies
Close

The day goes on
And on

The sounds continue and the voices shout
My world is screaming
Change your life
Get of the bus
Remove that cloak
The fear is old ..the love all gone
Yet the train keeps coming
My heard is loud

Into the whispering night I stay
I like the moon glistening silver shadows
Feeding these eyes of hope
See the twinkling diamond dance and leap towards me
Feel the silence as I walk on frosted strands
Everything looks beautiful
All is fine
This new world is mine all mine

Bands of glitter fall from the rays of
Pure blue
Such a sight made for
Heaven
In luck for the few

Cold to the nose as a crystal
Formed its perch
My eyes crossed in view
Of such wonder

Miracles from the sky
Filled my heart with a smile
The snow gods were busy
This eve

Their work would bring life
To our parched earth
And joy to the many
As this place now became
Our playground

The days became that longer
As colour fell away
Tide was for turning
To a spring summers day

Snow became the wine
To the green seeking
Shoots
This winter had faded

Oh in my longing for white
Crystal flakes
To fall on my tongue
This quiver in haste

As I wait for the clouds
In the fall i might see
A miracle sparkle
Winter complet

I wonder what people would say upon my death

Would I be this great man of stature
Be so generous in life they'd stare in wonder
Would I be so loveable
Be the one you could hug at a thousand paces
Would I be the kindness of kind
Be so helpful in every way possible holding a thousand doors

I wonder what people would say upon my death
Would I be a name just forgotten
Be the one so annoying that I'd clear a room in seconds
Would I be cursed forever
Be hated for all that I gave to others till the last of my breath
Would I be so ugly
Be written in stone he did his worse go be the better man

I wonder what people would say upon your death

The worlds breath does not feed me as
I gasp into air
Such dark days upon us as we
Fail to control ourselves
No proud'ness felt
That ruin after ruin
Takes hold
Our dust is a becoming so
Blindly I see the green fall away  

These are the sad days that
Fall into our lives  
So much hurt into pain as I
Watch flesh fall away
At the cost of metal
From words

Words that mean nothing
Made up to mean something
Words that do killings
To control our race
Words full of hate
To ensure us slaves
All from a blank page of hope

Many lands place hope from the
Ink of life
Instead of living
From the shame of it
The whole world continues
It's ******

My chargrin comes from not
Leading a way out
From not shouting the wrong
From not showing the path
From a wrong to a right
  
I will bow my head as another past
Walks on by

The blunted edge played a tune to my mindless stare
In and out my focus waned
Time was on track

My chair had become my prison as the week fell away
The dawn of the tomorrow wanted today
And a tear formed in my sadness

The smile all for show
Cracked
Faded
Worn
Worn like a frock for the masses
And the sheep do follow

So I seek the golden liquid
The one that feeds my thirst
My elixir of life
And
The white hare has won

Till I wake under a new light
Crawl back into the past
Lower my head from the view
Let the shame go on

Writers edge

6am and the darkness wallows
Sounds of life outside
Only silenced in my mind
Echoing
Bounding
Screaming on deafened ears

This shout for help
Numb to all but me
And my tingling skin
Ti's a wanting need
A tasted crave

My writers edge in force
As words pour
Yet the pages read empty
A day not yet ready
Let's begin

I've never met you
Yet
I know our love is true
I feel that all I trust is
The trust in me and you

No sense from past betrayals
Now
Two birds sing loud in swan
I wait in desperation
I be your magic wand

So darling as you view me
Please take my hand as yours
My hope forever always
Forever in your heart

If only he could see
The you and the me
My father above
Would smile at our love

He'd laugh and just grin
My dad so his style
His wish for us two
Be happy and true

So here lays my heart
Please take it ..sweetheart
Forever I breathe
I love you complete x

I'm thirsty
Yet no liquid quenches these forgotton parched tears
Tis the sugar of my soul that seeks its redemption
A wanton pleasure of mind
To waken such lasting slumber

It is you my love that has rejoiced me
Your taste that does me complete
And that warmth
Oh that beautiful warmth
I so so miss

And in this night that become day's
I long for your reach
Come kiss me my choosen
******* salted skin
For I am the waiting
And
You are the one

Let us sleep

Flames of anger feeding my breath
As I walk through the valley
The valley of death

No fear in my purpose
My march to victory near
The doors will open

I'm alive
This voice is loud
The earth awakes

Fear not into your future
I am here to hold your hand
Take my choice

Live a little
Grow with me
This place is our oyster

One day the world will come to an end
And we will return
To the dust of the universe
Life will be no longer  
And the
Zero covers all

Yet with a rye smile
I know that I have lived
Many times in many bodies
As have you
Dust be life
And the
Zero covers all  

Many gods promise life
After life
And it sooths me that
I drink the same water
And taste the same sea
And breath the same air
For they
Must be in all of us
And the
Zero covers all  

One day the world will come to an end
But there is no end
Only a new beginning
And the
Zero covers all

My night time nightmare came true
I visited a place where the strange
Is the norm
The sun takes its blame in allowing these leeches
Of the earth to creep into our shadows
And last night they sought my eyes  

This room that they beckoned me
Felt so cold
In every way  
Icy chills blasting my heart
Searching my warmth
Quenching their thirst
And then

They sit
These men of the dark
Waiting
Staring
Mumbling nothings
It felt very cold

Their faces so ashen
So ghostly
A look not from my world
Yet here I sat amongst them
This was my place
This was my time

I too have joined
My darkness feels good
Only my blood redden eyes
Give away any life from my being
A life I once remember
Yet am now banished to the
Graveyard shift
And memories begin the fade
Away