Mother's pride

My mom taught me how to tie me laces
She taught me how to cry
I used to comb her hair back and
Make it look
beehive  
She used to bring me ice cream
Whenever I was ill
And fetch me favorite teddy
I'd cuddle him
Big Bill  
We'd snuggle on the sofa
Or play a game of cards
she'd shown me what
love is

Unconditional


Her cakes were something heaven sent
And gone before the night
My clothes all ironed
Socks and pants
we always wondered why  
She'd cook me dinner
Shepherds pie
With pudded rice to follow
Fighting for the burnty bits
A battlefield did follow
I'd come in bleeding
Knee all red
A soothing voice
A mothers gift

Unconditional

I'm proud to call my mom
Eh mom
I'm proud to be her son
I'm proud she gave me
Everything

Unconditional

My heart becomes the expired
As love leaves my cry
Each minute fails in a beat
Not biting
Nor bowing to the pressure from the sea of the enlightened
Watch my drift
Watch me drown
Watch me suffer in a pity bore from the fruit of the very land of begun
For I am the weakened
I am the lost
I am the never ending story
Wanting a found

Everyday they attach to us
They define our looks
Make our worth
Show our importance in this world
Yet what do they mean
They mean you follow

We follow whether we like it or not
The ***** on the street to the presidents men
Be it a fine wine or the cheapest ale
The label is always on show
Always there to prove your worth
Always there to show you follow

I don't like labels
My mind has a different kink
Yet everyday I follow just like you
Everyday I wallow in my shame
For being just a label

A label of sadness
A label for taxing
A label in age

And as my chuckle becomes a laughter
I feel that once again the label wins
As you read these lines
As you gather your thoughts
A new label is formed
For me
So it continues

So Rudolph made an appearance
Or so you'd think
Judging by the spot upon my forehead

All week in the dusk and nothing to fettle my beauty
Oh no
Till today

Planes tried to land on me
Cars stopped as I walked on by
And my mirror drooled awaiting its feed of white  

My head had a new head
Potion lotion fail
And I had turned into a fine shade of a red Umpa Lumpa

Squeeze it
Push it
Pop it good

Santa has a new hood ......

Amongst us walk the ghosts of our past
Silent screams that shout and hollow
"we died for you"

I look around and bow my head in shame
For I have let their giving be worthless
I have failed

They lost
So that we may have a future
A better place so that us siblings
Can live
Love
Grasp for life
Fade less hate

See the saying D Day is still used today
Yet how many think back to the lives lost
Our loss
Our granddad's
Our family
Their lives

My failure is mirrored in the failure of the world
Religion after religion
Gun against gun
Life fighting life

One day I hope words will be the healer
Language our fighters
And soldiers our builders

One day
Will
We
Have a better world

One day!!

I do not bark
But have a bite
I do no harm
Unless we fight
Yet I be the only dog of the sea thats
Unloved

I'm gentle and social
I travel
I follow
A scent is a dinner
Eating out

Be I misunderstood
Be I fair
I'm hungry
I feast
your ........
Fait accompli

Can you see them swaying
Under the glowing silver moon
Perfuming the dying embers of a winter near past
Shadowing the frost
Colouring the dead  

Did you hear that sound
Broke in the silence of March
Spring has sprung another life to this world
Small white fluffy clouds
Bouncing along in a sky of green

And in today I too felt the warmth of life
A sun stretching its arms
Glowing my face with it's smile
Showing me a path
Fading away my black

Alexis Helmer died a true hero
Like all that became
To save our future
Today I will remember him

It is now our turn
Our responsibility
Our role
To ensure we never need another rondeau

For last night I saw poppies
Fall and float from the sky
Tears from the fallen
Our Remembrance

The wailing ghosts  
Laughed at my sadness
Humorous in their intention to weaken me the more
I stayed awake in the earthen hour
Battling the clegg of thy cometh
To tell thee ones tale
  
Wash
They fly through me
Scream me awake
Stolen my wishes
Gone be my dreams  

So becomes the chatter in my head
Weak to the mind
I follow in stumble
Leave all
Comes behind  

It's now I must face them
The slugs chase in I
White trail
Their misfortune
My desolate mind  

The madness is in me
The ghosts have all won
I'm falling to pieces
My heart hears the gun

Bang!

I promised not to moan today
The feeling sad
The road to rage
I promised not to show these thought's
A promise made
My god
Oh lord  

I lasted but a day or two
The madness swelled
The air turned blue
I promised failed
A head in shame
My shout out loud
It's you I blame

Now some of you will laugh at me
But just you watch
I'll wait you see
Cos just around the corner here
You'll moan at something
Be that clear
And when you start you'll
Stop and smile
I promise you
A laugh out loud

In her little black dress all covered in white
She looked at me and turned
Eyes away  
Eyes so sad
Waiting and needing a better place

Sad are the eyes in her heart
Sad are the lips that want
Sad in her face comes a cry for the help
A one day near
A one day home

Her love was lost
Gone
Far away and so the eyes sighed
A sadness
Life that told me a waiting
Wishing a better here

But that is not the now
Then is not the here
When is not the want
Now is not the need

Sad are the eyes in her heart
Sad are the lips that want
Sad in her face comes a cry for the help
A one day near
A one day home

My reaching hand held a chance
A turn away
A sound of silence
Broke my madness
I tried
Sad are the eyes before me
That turned and looked away

So whats ya problem she shouts as I sit there sniffling in me own little world
Man cold ......I whisper
Uhhh is the response
Take some drugs and crack on I hear
Did she not hear me
MAN COLD .......

The slow shuffle from my seat to the kitchen creates a groan
Even the dog looks at me sad
Man cold ....... I whisper
I'm sure I see him smile
Pheerrrr
GIVE ME DRUGS .......

Ahhhh ...back I go to the safety of my chair in a walk so remote from my normal bounce
Man cold ...I whimper  
Blanket ready for a tissue overload
Remote cuddled and ready for the daytime dross TV
Man cold ............

Sympathy found they crowd round me to leave me unattended
kissed from afar ...I'm ready
Man cold .....party
All alone the switch is flicked I'm up and dancing
Man cold... prancing
Video games ....It's FIFA time  
No pots I'll wash nor face to brush
It's beer o clock lets party rock
Man cold .......

The toll is heard, my blanket wrapped to a weary sound from a snuffly head
I'm back she calls with sympathy shots
How ya feeling
Man cold ...I whisper...
Oh bless you please Ill look after you now
A cup of tea ...she is my hero  
Man cold ......

Remember guy's don't shout it out
Man cold rocks there is no doubt
Just keep it quiet when she does sniffle
You know the drill
Don't blow the whistle

OK love
Just going to the pub for a couple
Will you be alright ....!!!!
Yeah ...I won't be long!!!

The silence in the sun spread a smile  
Fields of green,gold and red lay before me
Birds in flight still new to the breeze
Swayed and sang to my rested heart

This is my England
The place my breath was born
A world within a universe
A place I call my home

Chatter from my fellow man
As liquid filled our souls
This garden lay before us
The pub our other throne

This is my England
The land I take my steps
A love for living life here  
A place I call my home

My thought a week is over
A drink like Friday's do
The rest from all this madness
Relax with friendly hue  
  
This is my England
The land that we do best
A life for living be here
Home sweet home
I bless

The selfish edge
Is a place I like
Is my world's delight
it's my home I praise
Is a sod you
Face

This space I own
Is free ya know
No tax
Not yet is said  
Till last my
Breath

This grid I'm on
Has long since gone
I'm free you see
The way for sure  
The selfish
Me

The colour never changed
and its purpose
Well...who are we to challenge?
The muddy puddle held it's dankness
And I was ready to jump

A place I'd spent my life avoiding
This wet and murky
An avoidance that held no solace
No wanting
And for sure no appeal

The days,weeks and finally the years did pass
As bones became a little older
My mind wandered
Why had I avoided it?
What had made me jump like the sheep for their master?
And so became my question

The very next day
I continued on my walk
The path ...my life
As always the puddle waited for me
Only this time
When I jumped

My aim sharp
As quiver gripped my body
I flew
Higher than ever before
With my head held high and eyes wide shut
The middle of muddy puddle was ready
This place
My unknown

An avalanche of cascading water
Deafened my thoughts
The water was deep
My muddy puddle was playing its role
For not a single drop of water
touched me
I remained the dry

I was scared
Why was I dry?
Dare I open my eyes?

Of course I do

A smile broke out over my face
As my aged eyes took in their view
Such beauty bequeathed me
For the muddle puddle had painted my world

All my greys and blacks now gone
Flowers seen like never before
and a sky of blue so perfect
I could cry
The tears flowed as blurred eyes took in the reality
My life of past had been so colourless
And now
And now I would smile to make a million people smile with me
As I splashed and danced
I began to live

I write of loneliness and fear
The demons rattle
Inside me all is not clear
These wishes granted
Washed to the sea
Darkness cometh
Blindly I lead

Walk as they do
For they know I will drown
Follow the blind man
Join in the crowd
No fighting the water
No screaming allowed
Follow the blind man
Follow the crowd

They wash in my sorrow
They drown all for me
For I am the wanted
Be raised from the sea

And so I look on them as down they must go
The blind and the foolish
I'm watching below
For now I am risen
Above all my sheep
My dreams all awaken
The future I weep