And I want that message to be from you.
Even though you and I are from two different worlds,
Even though I'm going to say no,
I want to be wanted.

I want what I can't have.

There are so many opportunities that I have deprived myself of.
So many things that I said 'no' to out of pure fear and awkwardness.
I guess that I'm too quick to judge things.

At the time, I thought I'd made the right decision,
But now, all I have are the after tastes of regret.

And they say she's 'weird.'
They say she's 'different.'
They make it sound like a bad thing.

Little do they know what is bubbling over,
Beaneath the surface.

2 years ago today.
Doesn't feel like it...
I didn't understand before.

I think that now I do.

I don't mind being alone on Valentines Day.
I can't be bothered.
Besides,
If it's really love,
It won't matter what day it is.

Grew up on a cloud of confusion.
We grew up far too soon.

Days of simplicity,
Now nothing more than a thought..

The fog is thick,
And it feels like forever.


All we have left are the memories.

To everyone who:
Doubts me,
Uses me,
Rejects me,
Hates me,
Back-stabs me,
And thinks of me as a back up plan,

I swear,
Someday, I'm going to make you regret it.