Am I not pretty enough?
Thin enough?
Thick enough?
You've cheated me on me twice
Now its my turn to roll the dice.

Am I not good enough?
Smart enough?
stupid enough?
To get stirred by your words
So my mind can miss the worse.

Aren't I enough for you?
Funny enough?
Sweet enough?
I was told I was a fool
For falling in love with you.

Don't I love you enough?
Am I clingy?
Am I distant?
I forgave you the first
Thinking you'll never do worse.

However, I was dead wrong.
Thinking it would be a beautiful song,
But my heart has been torn
As my mind has been worn
By the lies you had spew
And everyone knew.

I gave you my trust,
But all you wanted was lust.
You had put me in a trance,
But there was no romance.
I gave you one last chance.
Now, I don't believe I can trust another man.

You took my heart
And broke it apart
But from this tragedy
I had grew rapidly.
So I say thanks
For no longer leaving me blank
So I could be able to see
That you were never right for me.

I catch myself from time to time
Not thinking about how bad you hurt me
But how well he treats me
And I think it's a pretty great improvement
From howling your name at 4am
Trying to not wake my roommates.

white and black ripping me in half
clenched tightly in each desperate fist
blood drips down my feet
African
forced through **** to become white
sorry we got so upset
for being ***** for so long
so many times
rising from a genocidal cocoon of
a new human spreading wings
shedding colonization and decolonization
we can no longer be white like you
we just want payment
for the work we have done!

Smoke plumes diverge first on humanity
In the vacuum of relativity
Speak no evil
Abandon vanity
In the name of created flesh let's purge cursed profanity
Scribbled scribed the language without tact, profess the profane
It's chalk bordered a casualty when actually bitten bullets are vitamins for the majority
They won't tell you, you are not alone
The shadows fall on the sunny side gradually
Granted, every dog sniffs a bone
But fall just the same
They'd sell you a soul if you'd pay the tax annually
Asphyxiate a voice manually, with only verbs to gain
Throat totes the only fear to fear is the fear of shame
Accused versions of deities disappear repeatedly
Kingdom came unfiltered
Child was raised estranged

The reason you live
The reason you die
All has to do, with
Loves evil eye!

The reason your partner left
Your child cried
That politician lied
That warrior died

All the hands of love,
Cruel yet fulfilling.
Dark yet light.
Its heaven and hell.

We need it.
We want it
You have it
You fear it

Love of power
Love of lust
Love of passion
Love till we're dust

I need to give in
just sometimes
I've been told I hide things
but even now I can't let go.

I will disappoint you
so don't hold your hopes up high
I ignore what's real
just to cower.

I would let you in
If I trusted myself
but I don't
so think I'm unkind.

It's better that way

Surrounded by the white noise of others
but how lonely do i feel.
All around are the smiles of peers
yet I have no one.
Portrayed as the light in the dark
I rise higher
so not to despise my friend.

All but forgotten
not love but loneliness
that prevails
in profound sadness
and self pity
you could be loved
you might be cherished
no one sees the pain
asking how you are
with a smile in the morning
or how the day went
over a cup of tea in the evening
never a serious question
never sincere

You try your best to tell them
the sensation is not unlike
biting your tongue when eating
the mouth opens and
you want to say "ouch!"
but you're in too much pain
to move your tongue
then you remember
as the pain finally subsides
they don't care
this is just one of life's formalities
you keep it bottled up
and move on...