Amber Jade

Amber Jade Sep 2011

Haunted

She falls asleep in early morning
And awakes to screams of shame
She jumps at every noise that’s heard
And hopes you’re out there
Suffering the pain

How dare you do that to a child
She was only six years old
Now she’s haunted by those days
Every night I can recall
Too scared to close my eyes
Sleep won’t come easy tonight
Because I fear that you’ll be there
Hiding in your old disguise

I fall asleep in early morning
And awake to my screams of shame
I wish that I could tell my mother
But I know she’ll never look at me the same

So I lock up the memories
And I drown myself in sorrow
Hoping one day
Hopefully tomorrow
The memories will die
And fade away

I fall asleep in early morning
I wake to screams of shame
And now I hope you’re out there
Suffering the pain

Now you’re haunting my sweet dreams
Waiting for my unconscious to take over
But I won’t let you have that power over me
Now leave my mind
And take the memories with you

I fall asleep in early morning
And wake to screams of fear
I feel your presence stalking me
And I really wish that you weren’t here

I don’t want your apology
Don’t want you to say sorry
Don’t wanna see your face in my mind
Don’t wanna remember those days
Don’t wanna think of those nights
Just leave my mind and leave my sight...

I fall asleep in early morning,
when the light will arise,
cos' i know you won't be there,
cos' you can't hide in the darkness of the shadows...

This is actually a song i wrote but i thought I'd post it anyway....

Amber Jade Sep 2011

She can't

She can't switch off the memories,
Can't turn out the light,
I hope you feel just as bad,
I hope you can't forget,
Can't get it out of your stupid head.

How dare you do the to a child,
She was only six years old,
Now she's haunted by that time,
And she can't see to confide,
In anyone at all,
All because she believes,
She's the one who committed the crime.

She falls aslppe in early morning,
And wakes to screams of shame,
Jumps at every noise,
And hopes your suffering with your boys.....

Amber Jade Sep 2011

tears falling to the floor

we've just said our short good-byes,
and you've walked out that door,
and now all i have to say is,
here's to my tears falling to the floor.
i hate the way this is all set up,
i forget your there,
forget i can talk to you,
and all i remember is,
your gone,
outta my home,
how much i need you,
and how much it hurts when you say good-bye.

I know this might hurt you too,
but it hurts me more,
i cry every Monday,
Sunday, Christmas, Easter and Birthday,
that's every day you say goodbye...

sorry this one isn't too good. my dad has literally just said goodbye and left and i'd rather write something then just keep it to myself. this isn't finished i'm unable to finish it because while i need to say this its too hard to type in tears....

Amber Jade Aug 2011

Lightning

Lightning falling from the sky,
So strong and bright,
Producing electricity,
For the whole world to see.

Bright white strength,
Raining from the sky,
Pure and feared,
Making people hide inside,
And wait for the storm to pass.

People fear it's capability,
To cause havoc upon the world,
So they run in terror hating this amazing power,
But i stand and stare completely astonished,
At it's magnificence.

This was written for school as a concrete poem. i know it doesn't rhyme or anything and it is supposed to be in a lightning bolt shape but oh well.

Amber Jade Aug 2011

***** this forever.

My head is aching,
Because of my loud screams,
My heart is breaking,
You've murdered my dreams,
Hurting me more than ever,
Now I'm starting to think,
***** this forever.......

You want me to choose,
But i have no clue,
Your smothering me half to death,
And soon there will be nothing left,
So back the f@#k off,
And leave me alone,
Get the hell out of my home,
You've burned me,
Cut me,
Buried me alive,
You've killed me from the insides,
Out...

You've murdered everything i was,
Everything i wanted to be,
you've ******* me up,
and taken over,
so now get the f@#k away from me!

Shut your mouth,
And back away,
Nothing that you did was okay,
I want to **** you,
Just one blade thought your heart,
Not that you have one for a start,
You've made me moody,
******,
Some one who doesn't care...

And you think your so great,
you think that your the mayor,
So now go take a few steps back,
Before i kick you in the sack!

i'm so furious with you,
Drowning me in anger and blues,
And because you used me,
Stripped me down to my bones,
And remade me into a monster,
Just like you,
You should know,
Just what i can do,
You know that i could **** you,
Just one little blow to your head,
Just one hit,
And you'd be dead.....

Amber Jade Jul 2011

The Man That Changed My Life...

As i walk down this path,
I look to my left,
There stands a man and his calf,
He appears to be standing still,
Not moving down his life's path.

I walk over and talk to him
"Whats wrong?"
He replied,
"I'm near the end of my life's song."
I say and talk to him,
He seemed so lonesome.

He starts explaining his life,
Talking about his kids and wife,
The he says about his beliefs
I listen as he talks of god.

He says,
"I may believe in god,
But i do not worship him,
I do not fear him,
I do not love him."
"Why? What do you have against god?"
I asked.

"He plays with us,
Like we are toys,
He spreads the cancer,
Kills the people,
And murders the hope."
He said,
"I write to god,
But when i write i say...."

'Dear God,
How are you?
What have you done lately?
Spread any more cancer?
Made and more parents childless,
or children parent less?
Have you taken any more best friends?
Made people cry till their end?*

Killed and more hopes and dreams?
Cut people straight at their seams?
I know from this letter there will be consequences,
That i do not deny,
But i do not fear you,
You took away all of importance,
And i already suffer,
So now take me!'

As he talked i started to cry,
I wanted to stay,
But it was time to leave him behind,
As i walk down my road,
I think,
This man was the most brilliant person i have ever met,
And up to now i still remember what he said,
It has made the most impact on my life.

The letter is real. I am sorry if you believe in god and worship him, but these are my beliefs. I believe that god spreads the death, and it makes me angry, it makes me angry that he can be so cruel, i know at some point every one needs to die, but taking away parents while children are young of taking away young children from parents. Recently my mothers cousin died, leaving her two children of 21 and 13. To me that's just awful.
Part of the reason i also blame god is when i was 8 my best friend was taken away from me and what helps me cope is to have some one to blame....

So again i'm sorry if this has offended your beliefs of god, but this is my belief and its what and how i think and feel.

Amber Jade Jul 2011

Daddy Dear!

Daddy dear,
Please come home,
I need you here,
Without you here this just isn't my home,
I need you near,
While your gone this is my jail.

You remember those stories you used to read me?
Well this life is no fairy tale,
It's missing too much,
Its missing a happy girl,
And a home of love and dreams,
its so full or depression,
This is making me wanna hurl,
Since you left I've been full of aggression.

I know mummy told you to go,
She didn't want you to come back,
But i need you to know,
I need you,
I cry for you every night,
I need my dad who,
Is supposed to be here,
But right now your outta sight.

I guess what i need you to see is,
You have to come back,
Fix my life,
Help me cope,
Go back to your wife,
Bring back my hope.