She chanted prayers
With her knees bended
She walked between the twin trees
With her eyes closed
She threw a penny into the well
With her palm opened
She waited for the falling star
With hand over her heart

*For him

On a long walk like this, my thoughts often surf above the clouds about the kind of future we might have. The one with you waiting for me walking down the aisle. The bunch loads of pictures we'll be taking as our little family grows stronger. Just me and you and the miniature of us. Somehow all the heavy problems in the world are easier to imagine with you holding on to my hand. I wonder if you ever feel the same too cause even with the fact that you're in love with me now is too good to be true.

Time with you is the time I'd stop
And repeat, over and over again

Like the time when I open my eyes to you
When you rest your head to my tummy
When we hold each other like Palomar knot
When you introduce me to your closest friends
When you kiss my lips like you're breathing me
When you take my hand in the crowd
When we slow dancing in your room
When you drive while gripping my hand
When you turn around after a back massage
When you stare at me followed by a smile

Those are the times I treasure
And always hope to be frozen

I'm done with love and its game
But for you my heart is tame
And if you ever feel the same,
Then let the vow be our aim

With a proper length of time
the temporal problems in your life
the suffering of your heartbreak and
the ****** people who put you down
will disappear
only if you make a firm decision;
whether to stand on your ground and fight
or quit
in between is never an option
breathe, think
use that brain and listen to your heart

if the pain you're feeling is worth it
if you insist that the result will make you happy
then make them all fall down
**** your problems
and stop drying your tears your lover caused you
be happy inside your battle

but if you quit,
I promise you will find something great ahead
you will be happier, better, all the -er
why?
cause you choose yourself
cause finally you're free from those
that makes you feel so small
cause you learn from your past

someone told me that the choices
you made is never a wrong thing
it becomes wrong if you regret it

so choose: yes or no
get the word 'but' out
be that person you want to be
stop trying
*just be

Is it real?
You
Said
You love me
And I don't know
That simple line
Has a meaning
And
That sentence
Could feels
So right
When it flew
Out of your lips

Sometimes a surface could
seems so cold and rough
with all the haunting past
and the demand to fake laugh
but if you'd take a long walk
on its wishful path
you'd find yourself lost
inside a pretty sunflower field
with all its warmth
you've always wanted to feel
along with the love
you thought wasn't real

so you really think I should be thankful
if you tell me that I'm beautiful?
when I know you only turn you head
but never once open up your heart

Everything will be okay
Time will ease the pain away
I know very well it's hurting me to stay
And the agony is mounting day by day
I need to keep my heart at bay
Though there's a big price I must pay
Maybe I should listen to what they say
Cause everything will be okay

I wish
the morning kisses we share on Saturdays and Sundays
will be able to be spend on the rest of our everyday
the goodnight calls before we fall asleep
will turn to warm hugs while we're counting sheep

I hope
our love story along with its tide of time
will become the unison in our prime
our trust for each other that we have sown
will change into my wedding gown

Ink went dry for me to describe
The overwhelming happiness inside
No more dark room to hide
Cause you've opened the window wide
I am covered in your winter-tide
Blinded by your smothering nights
When our lips locking tight
I feel the love we cannot fight
FYI, you're blowing my mind
Gosh, I am so glad that you're mine

sometimes when he's in the middle of talking
an "i love you" slips out of each breathing

it's also impossible to repressed the feeling
to kiss his forehead when he's smiling

when he hugs me, my heart is shaking
and the bottom of my throat is squeezing

if this is what they called falling
why does it feels a lot more like flying?

Bad memories,
Your faults,
Our fights,
Taught me a lesson
Not to take you back
But the good ones,
Your sincerity,
Our laughs,
Is crushing my heart
Into scattered ashes

My knees got awfully weak
everytime he smacks my buns
and pulls my amber hair
when he screws me from behind
but it feels so **** good
I secretly hope he does that more

"She is the one who kissed me"
but, Darling, that is just an excuse
she wouldn't took the chance
if you didn't open up in the first place
there are two walls in a relationship
your side and mine
if someone manage to broke into yours
then there's no point in keeping mine

It's June
But somehow it's still raining
And you
You knew I dwell in the rain
How I love the cold of being wet
But still
You cover me up with sweater
And hold your umbrella for me
As if you'd take the fall
If I ever run into the rain, *again

Do you know what magic is?
It is when my heart is falling
down to your hand palm
yet it’s still beating—fast
pumping butterflies all over
my veins when you kiss me

"Hey, come closer"
           "What?"
"We should give it another shot"

you ******* my world up and turned
you chose not to do what I asked
you always took me for granted
you never let me win over her
but
you were all I cannot live without
you made me laugh the hardest
you held me like I belong there
you loved me hard, you did try
and
I love you, I love us
I still do
but what is love again?
it's just a myth, my darling

My first love, May
Gave me the first kiss
My bittersweet love, June
Gave me the time
My quicksand love, August
Gave me the knowledge
And my only love, April
Oh, my dearest number four
For him, I'd give away my soul
Without him giving me
Anything at all

I swear that even if the world
separates me from you throughout
the interstellar of billion stars until
forever withers and blooms over again,
I will always manage to remember
the shape of your phantom that is
created by symmetric lines
mirrored to mine
because the love I have inside me
is the kind of love I always carry
from one lifetime to another story
simply to return back to yours

sometimes when he's in the middle of talking
an "i love you" slips out of each breathing

it's also impossible to repressed the feeling
to kiss his forehead when he's smiling

when he hugs me, my heart is shaking
and the bottom of my throat is squeezing

if this is what they called falling
why does it feels a lot more like flying?

Be my guest and tell me
How am I suppose to
Forget the sweet taste
Of sugar by eating
Chocolate?

my eyes are the first to open
when his lips touches mine
because somehow I thought
I am in the middle of
kissing you

I have a bad feeling
that if I don't leave him
something even more hurting
is drawing near towards me
and I've been standing in the way

cause I'm so afraid of going astray

however
I must take my first little step
even if I end up in hell
the happiness I long for
will extend its road to lead me there

Is it too big of a favor
to rewind the time

when we were together
in your dark room
with your long stare
deep into my soul
as you sit on the cold floor
with your heart open
while I wore your t-shirt
and listening to the silence
then you circled your arms
around my hips
and use my tummy
for a pillow

and play that one moment
on repeat
in slow motion

That's how you like it
my legs on your shoulder
while your palms holding my hips
That's how I like it
my head at the edge of the bed
while my vision went upside down
That's how we like it
your eyes ****** me
while I keep biting my lips
and the air is filled
with the scent of our honey

For eleven days
I've been crying
and justifying
your absence

For fourteen days
I've been longing
and wishing
for your presence

On the fifteenth day
I've stopped crying
I've stopped asking why
I've stopped hoping

*And start praying for your sake of happiness

There goes the guy
Wearing a scarf like you
There goes the song
Saying 'somewhere only we know'
There goes the poster
Movie of begin again
There goes the dead escalator
Reminding me of our date
There goes the friend
Who has your name
There goes my eyes
Dwelling in salt water
There goes my heart
Breaking like I can't bear it

It's impossible
not to fall
for you
even
the stars
above fall
for you too

I must say I adore the way his closing eyelids
moving rapidly when he was sleeping this morning
Perhaps he was dreaming about the place
where his homesickness disappear
in between the sand and the breeze of trees

But secretly I was hoping
that the dream he had was about me
cause little did he know
I've always been a home for him

He used to repeat
His silly bed story
About a singing bunny
Before I fell asleep
He was as protective
As a fortress
But inside those walls
Flew hundreds of fireflies
And beautiful flowers
From sweat and broken bones
Made for his little princess
Needless to say
He is the only man
Who created permanent
Heartbreak
To my fragile heart

I love him so much that
when he touches my skin
he makes me want to dance
when I'm behind him
I think of how I'd hold him
when he's in front of me
I wish I'd taste his soft lips
and when he's away
I write hundred of sonnets
about his haunting eyes

You know those kind of nights
when he did something to you
and for some unexplainable reasons
you thought your heart was going to bursts
right before his eyes
because it was full of happiness
then your body heat will horribly rose up
and there's only one thing you could do
to decrease the sparks within you;
you kissed him—deeply—repeatedly
*simply because he loves you too much

I have spoken
all the words
in the world
that has ever
been made
to tell you
that every fiber
of my body
is begging
for yours

Can anyone tell me
where is the manual book
for fixing leaking eyes?
The ******* stole it from me
now my pillow and hand
are always damp at night
even in broad daylight
****

I have broken a heart and gotten mine broken
I have created lies and spread honesty
I have betrayed and been faithful
I have cried in joy and smiled in tears
I have lost my all and won them back
I have been there and done that
but
I never have you

What kind of sin I could possibly done
that makes me unworthy of being happy beside you
*like her?

May you always be reminded
how big of a sin you've made
when you lured angels to fall from heaven
into your despicable loving arms
as you innocently walked away
without any intention to catch them

Tonight is that night
when my pillow once again witness
the prove that I have mastered the art
of faking laugh in broad daylight
and silently crying myself at night

In August
with the shining sun
turned the trees to share the same color
as bright as your hazel eyes
where my heart met yours
from a "Hi" at 1 AM to a kiss at 5 AM
was the moment I discovered my Achilles' heels
located in each Summer I promise to greet
with you

Nightmare woke me
With fears aching my throat
The sun was still hiding
When I saw you sleeping
In shades of dark gray
I want you
In every way there is
To want a person
To stay
And letting go
Is one thing
I never know how to do
To you

the poetry I wrote
my thoughts he unfold

I made him a love
that never gets old

though he left my heart
broken and cold

but what we had once
worth much more than gold

Flame
Art
Jabberwockey
April
Rain
Kindness
Undeniable
Nights and days
Touches
Overwhelming
Rainbow
Oh, it's you

the dictionary is wrong
beautiful is not an adjective
but a subject
I learn that when I fell for you

Give it time

They say laughing is the best medicine
No wonder I find myself healing
whenever you're around

Excuse me? I don't get you
I'm sorry I don't speak *******
I can only speak English and
probably a little honesty
and correction, I'm not sorry
so, never open your mouth
in front of my face ever again

for almost a week you walk inside my dreams
I wonder if it means your heart still belongs to me
but my hope is too big, I must put it in a smaller box
cause they keep me thinking about you too often
"I hope you call, I hope I can tell you about it"
"I hope you miss me, I hope you return"
our story is recorded within my vein
rushing in and out of my blood on each heartbeat
it is one hell of a journey, it changes who I was
for the better, for good, for you, for us, and for me

the earth spins too much, isn’t it?
cause I really want to go back to that day
when we sing together, laugh together
no worries, no blue—just us two
but no matter how many nights passed
I always end up waking up to “today”

he said he had a dream about love
but I was watching him asleep
when he called out for my name