AM - Hello Poetry

AM Sep 2013

I wish you would realize
The effect you can have
The pain I see in the faces
Of lovers you have infused
With your poison
Only to walk calmly away, not glancing back
As they writhe in agony
The pain I now share
The pain I promised myself I would never
Allow you to inflict upon me

You are not heartless
You are not evil
But oh how unaware you are of how easily shattered
The hearts you juggle are
As I watched the hearts drop from your hands
One by one
And become broken beyond repair
I hardened my own
For I knew the time would come when it would
Land in your hands
And you would toss it about
Stuff it in your pocket
And forget it was there

AM Sep 2013

About to fall: Part II

I stood at the edge
peering into the abyss that laid below me
thousands of feet down
you stood with your arms out stretched
shouting to me
telling me you will catch me
all I have to do is jump
But I can barely see you
and I know you will not catch me
as hard as I try I cannot make myself believe otherwise
I close my eyes and imagine myself falling
cool air rushing past me
and adrenaline coursing through my veins
I no longer care if you will catch me
I no longer care how hard I fall
but then I hit the ground
my eyes fly open and I find myself still standing on the edge
with my stomach in my throat
and the wind knocked out of me
you yell up to me
you tell me you're sorry, you won't let me hit the ground
but I laugh at you through my tears
and I back away from the edge

AM Sep 2013

a night like tonight

We drove with the music off and the windows down
Whispers of fall crept into the car and the sound of the pavement rushing under the tires murmured in the background
Our minds were buzzing with nicotine and wonder as we ventured into one another's intricate networks of thoughts
We became closer to escaping our own minds as we became lost in each other's
You began to read your poetry and I watched you in my rear view mirror as you read
You read with such passion and listening to you, with the murmur of the pavement, the music off, and the cool air tossing about the wisps of hair that had escaped the confines of my braid
I felt peaceful

AM Sep 2013

Untitled

He said he didn't love her
But when she laughed he came alive
He said he didn't love her
But wanted to kiss her every time she smiled
He said he didn't love her
He pounded the thought into his head
For he knew he couldn't love her
But I knew he did

AM Sep 2013

The mask

I see you in the parking lot
Sitting in your car with your eyes shut, head bobbing
As your music rattles your windows
And you explore the cavern of your mind

I want so badly to offer you a light

You feel me watching, feel reality encompass you
You awake from your trance
And you put on your mask

You are so sure that this mask will keep away the pain
But I see your demons clawing at it, begging to be set free

I've seen you
The you behind the mask
You have shed it before me many times
But as soon as I glimpse your naked face
And you see it reflected in my eyes
Vulnerable
Broken
You don your mask again and ask me never to speak of what I've seen

AM Sep 2013

Here I will stay

Once upon a heartbreak I jumped the border into Apathy
Leaving the destruction and tumult of my ravaged homeland behind
And it is here I now sit, in the land of Apathy
Swinging my feet off the edge of Nothingness
With my eyes closed and cool air weaving between my fingers while the sunlight gently caresses me
And I know I will never go back

AM Sep 2013

Forbidden fruit

I see the warning signs plastered all across your grin.
I know your every flaw and I know your every sin.
I know what you've done and I know what you've yet to do,
But my temptation overwhelms me each time I look at you.
You are colored orange and labeled "toxic" head to toe,
Still every time you smile my thoughts begin to slow.
You cannot know the power that lies behind your eyes,
When one can peer over your walls and see past your clever disguise.
It is overwhelming the way you look at me.
Now I see why Eve took the apple from the tree.