She wanted to live
like no one was
watching
live only for herself
and her memories
to care only about
what she wanted
but it wasn't that easy
because all she
did was worry
all she did was
be scared
if only she just lived

Sicker trough sand
Tiptoe on hands
A soul so
Sophisticated
My sight became blurred

Sometimes
all she wished for
was someone who
understood her
even when she
didn't understand herself

She just wanted
to live a life
that she would be
proud of
a life that she
was glad she lived for
one that she
would be sad to leave
but would leave satisfied

you showed me a heaven
i can never touch
and that no amount of death
will earn me

knowing it exists
knowing you exist —
i now understand
what they mean by
living hell

To take a chance
And risk everything willingly

To trust someone
And let them break your walls

To venture into reality
And find where you belong

To believe everything will be ok
And know it

Is to
LIVE

Change is coming
so quickly,
so fast
its easy to miss
but somehow
some way
change is here
its not wanted
they think
its unnecessary
but change always comes
change is here
and we
are not ready

When she fell
she could feel
the light, its warmth
its happiness
and its stability
she blinked
and she was
plunged into darkness
a darkness that
drowned her
a darkness that
was a struggle
consuming her life