I feel like Broken record
Every day it seems.
Whispering I love you
Telling you how perfect you are.
In and out. Words fall on deaf ears.

I must be talking to the walls. everyday.
I hope they can relay the message.
I'll pray that my words will reach your ears some day.

You must not be listening.
So.
You are perfect and beautiful in every way.
Im in love with you
I care about you more everyday.
My target girl.
You ARE a star. You shine all night even when we're in separate beds.
My target girl.....
.....please don't leave.

Lets go back to sleep so I can have an excuse to hold you beside me.
I love every day that I can kiss you and your eyes meet mine.

Am I still your star that shines?
Am I the person that you want and need?
If this is what a four letter word feels like then when I say "I Love you"  it means the world to me.

I feel the need cry
But I can't tell why
Besides the fact of wanting to die
(Except that that makes me feel alright.)
I swear up and down I'm fine
No one sees I'm on the line
Dwindling on something hard to define
Darker than the night.
I'm so sorry
You deserve so much better than me
I'm no longer all that I can be
And nothing near what you need.
Hey maybe I love you
But what is love to do
When there's no feeling to prove it's true
And I'm gone past crazy.
So maybe I'm going to hell
Who am I to tell?
Can there be much worse than this spell?
Depression never leaves anymore.
****, I can't do this
Death is my underlying wish
And I'm nothing to miss
So why drag it out even more?
"No," I apologize,
"That's not wise"
Oh, don't you just love those lies?
Kiss my lips to seal the deal.
Oh no, no worries here
Don't fear
My dear,
I'll see you again.
(But you may luck out
And not have to return the favor then...)

I'm not crazy
I'm just something you've never experienced before
Ask me what I want to be when I'm older
I will tell you everything and nothing, because I'm conflicted like that
I want  the entire universe in the palm of my hands
Keep a planet in my pocket
I want the grains on sand to spell my name
The wind to send me whispers
I want all the pretty flowers and all the shiny trinkets
And I want none of these things all the same
I'm not crazy
Just something you've never seen before

You look in a mirror and you see yourself broken. Torn from the inside out. A heart barely beating.
Lungs barely breathing.
Im trying
I swear im trying to save you.

There is beauty.
Beneath every bruise
There is beauty
Under each scar

Your perfect in every way.
Regardless of what you do our say,
You will always be perfect to me.

I could lay here and wonder a million times over
What it is that keeps you smiling and sober
But nothing in the world could change what
Your eyes have seen and ears have heard

I could lay here and listen for a thousand whispers long since lost in space
But like the wavelengths of the words never said; I cannot hear a single trace.
I know what you feel hurts you to endure- so
I will run to cease the pain for you.

I could lay here and hurriedly paddle down the river of tears flowing from your eyes
Like waterfalls every drop is a reenactment of the rapids reflected in mountain skies
Falling as fast as they are rushed out of broken wishing wells straight from your heart
I cannot tell you how much I want to save you from the pain tearing you apart

Let me heal the wounds you keep mercilessly opening up
I want to stop the blood from rushing out of your soul
I want to keep you safe-I want you to heal-I want you to be okay
Stay with me, please- stay with me, I know I can help you if you'd just let me

Let your walls break down and open the curtains of your barrier
Let me in
Let me in
Let me in.

**Let me save you.